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My entries are inspired by, and a reflection of true events in life. At times, when things become harsh, I pen short stories, proses and poems to escape th reality. Site statistics:Click here
Certain Someone Spotted 2007-11-21 08:07:53 People have started noticing my mentions of the one whom I love. A portion of them are excellent sleuths, I must thus be extra careful. Never shall I permit my tongue to slip, lest I fall down so hard that I’d never wake.
In a world that doesn’t care, we seek fairness. Maybe things are fair as they are. We just don’t want to see it as such. People are just selfish. At least I am, sometimes.
Logen
P.S. I may not be able to update as much as I like in the coming weeks.
Upcoming: Repeal Section 377A, Racial Discrimination
Me, A Sissy Freak 2007-11-28 10:33:06 On my journey to death, I try to conform to conformity. Though I know not how, I tried my hardest. Still I failed. My hope is waning. What can I do for society’s acceptance. Perhaps soon I’ll reach my destination. Then conformity will no longer be an issue.
It just hurts to be effeminate. It’s just like never finding a part of yourself. Your identity as male person. As much as I hate to talk about this issue, lets be honest, people know and people tease. I remember being called unpleasant things by people I didn’t even know, during my secondary school days.
I attempted to change countless of time, but failed. I hate to keep searching for this part of my identity because it never manifest itself. The tauntings just worsens it. It makes me feel inferior and incompetent.
I sense a similar pattern here in poly. I’m not paranoid. Maybe I should just dress up like a freak. At least they would laugh at my dressing than at me.
In all honesty, I love being eccentri Read more:Freak
We hate someone for how they make us feel 2007-11-28 00:39:35 I’m haunted by the past. Three years ago, I waged war against a friend, whom which I felt had treated me disrespectfully. I was an overly sensitive and insecure kid then. I was taunted and teased by some. However, my greatest merit was to bottle anger for years, and when the last straw came, my wrath would be overwhelmingly illogical.
This person was a close friend of mine. I had considered her a sister of sort. But I had felt I was taken for granted and I was sensitive when people teased me about my effiminacy. That she did. It hurt just too much, to know that there are things in this world you’ll never be.
On a certain day, three years later, I snapped and plotted against her. I managed to manipulate a majority of people to turn against her. It was easy as some had a tiny seed of resentment. Most of them were her close friends. I cruelly used whatever I knew, to reach my means. Did I have a conscience? I did, but we were too far in to stop.
In hope to lighten the blow, w
I bought a Bonsai Tree at a Bookstore 2007-11-26 09:22:04 My dad had gotten book vouchers for Borders bookstore earlier this month. We finally made the trip there for some book shopping.
My initial plan was to buy a journal, which I was to use as a planner. However, after looking around, I decided against it. The journals were way too pricey and I could have gotten cheaper ones elsewhere. As a result, I was sauntering down the book aisles aimlessly.
Towards the end of the ’shopping’ experience, I was stuck between getting Investing for Dummies and a mini Bonsai kit. My motivations behind the book are clear. I have an interest in investments. What about the Bonsai? What benefit could it possibly bring? One word, peace.
I was feeling inner turmoil and wanted to calm my mind. Though I’m aware that peace can only be found within oneself, I wanted a physical reminder. I want to look at the bonsai during crazy episodes, and be reminded to seek the calm within. It’s just too easy to be sucked into a whirlpool of pa Read more:Bookstore
Common Test Revision Update 2007-12-03 16:21:05 As of yesterday, I’ve completed revision on Business Statistics. I do need some practice though.
I have a few crucial topics yet to be completed for Microeconomics. And I haven’t even touched on FFA nor CIP.
Had I not received certain sabotages on my revision time, more of those above could have been completed. I will kill anymore idiots wasting my time. As they say in Harry Potter: Time is galleons.
Logen Read more:Common
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Exams Begins In 9 Days 2007-11-30 12:04:40 Until a later date, Logish Paradox shall henceforth be placed on a hiatus. The following list shows my modules being examined.
Microeconomics
Business Statistics
Fundamentals of Financial Accounting
Computing & Information Processing
I’ll have to expedite the Microeconomics and FFA study process. Business Statistics is nearly complete. As for CIP, the textbook makes for good reading material in the toilet. This isn’t sarcasm, I reread Harry Potter in the toilet on many occasions.
I’ve given a few crap entries lately. The stress is killing me. I hope to be in tune with the holiday season after the exams.
Logen
P.S. I may still give occasional posts.
What Am I Worth? 2007-11-30 06:32:41 Sometimes I wonder if I had made a wise decision in choosing the same polytechnic as my secondary school friends. Then again, had I chosen another school, I’d be wondering the opposite.
Friends come and eventually leave. Others change so much that you no longer identify their face with their new character. Some just hurt you without knowing it.
It just seems that my pariah lifestyle in semester one was much more appealing compared to now. I had the freedom to do as I pleased. And my only company, myself, would never take me for granted. Though I confess that I later joined my classmates, they were much more accepting of my quirks. They entertained my crazy tendencies.
Truthfully, I don’t know what I’m stabbing at. The only thing that is sure is that I’m thoroughly upset with myself. Upset that I’ve allowed myself to be vulnerable, incompetent, pathetic and not assertive. I’m tired of feeling this way… I feel so out of control. Yea, that&r Read more:Worth
Thinking About The Break 2007-12-12 05:52:00 Three down, one to go. Since the exam period, the blog has become boring.
Having said that, I checked my bank account recently. Finally! The second half of my bursary money has been dispatched.
I’ll be getting my hair done, again. Though I want something maintainable, I haven’t given up on getting an eccentric/elfish hairdo.
Aside my looks (which I have sorely neglected for 2 months) I intend to meet up with old friends. Sighs, the nostalgia…
Well, the hiatus is still on. Keep your hats on, and wands aloft. Season Greetings!
Logen Read more:Break
Hiatus Update 2007-12-07 08:41:02 I expect that you’re sick of the revision updates but face it, my exams begin next week.
I am left with Elasticity and Introduction topic for Microeconomics. Whereas for Financial Accounting, it’s bank reconciliation, receivables and fixed assets. With what I assimilated so far for Micro, I’m confident of getting at least a B.
I have nothing else to add. Hopefully, I can cover everything at speed.
Logen
P.S. The hiatus will be over by Friday next week. Read more:Update
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Logish Paradox and Logish Money Tree 2007-12-20 15:38:51 When I started out with Logish.org I decided to separate my blog into finances and a place for self-expression. Now, while Logish Paradox
is progressing, my money tree segment is digressing. I have lack of direction and entries there.
Thus, during the break I’ll consider dropping the Money
Tree segment altogether. Or, merge it with Logish Paradox.
Would my readers give some feedback on this.
Logen
Of Arrests Without Trial and Unfairness of Section 377A 2007-12-19 17:07:58 Amidst the holiday season, I want my voice on the two legal issues in Singapore to be heard. Five days ago I wrote in one entry about the Internal Security Act, which allows for arrests to be made without trial. And spoke about the unfairness towards gay people with the existence of Section
377A.
Although fairly long, please read what I wrote: Issues of Civil Rights in Singapore.
Logen L. Read more:Trial
The Irony of Christmas 2007-12-18 08:22:19 I walked the walkway towards Junction 8 yesterday, leading from the train station. Amidst the cold rainy weather, was an old handicapped man playing familiar Christmas
tunes from his flute. At his foot was a bowl, where passerby’s would throw their shillings at.
The scene was an irony. One would have expected a jolly old man, from which, the music exuded. But in place of what we expected, was an old man who lost the use of his legs; and though he forced a smile, his sad eyes shone through the cold rainy weather.
In this season of giving, some of us more clearly see the woes of the less fortunate. Others on the other hand, are contented with avoiding the sadder side of reality. In this season of togetherness, the lonely souls who roam without their loved ones, will no doubt remember their losses with clarity. Let us not forget them.
Merry Christmas to all. Remember to help Santa in spreading the joy. More importantly comfort those who need it.
Logen Read more:Irony
It's Christmas! 2007-12-25 10:40:07 It’s Christmas
, or it at least was 30 minutes ago. I’ve made around S$100 of purchases on Ebay and Bidz.
I do have to complain about shipping costs. US$7 to US$20 for an item that costs much much less. If I ever sell big time on Ebay, I will source for a cheaper international shipping company.
Anyway, I’ll be changing my hairstyle on Thursday. Hopefully I can pull off a Gothic look; not the rocker kind but one with a pirate/renaissance look.
Sorry that my entries aren’t really insightful. My moods are affecting it. My domain investments aren’t going well. I feel stupid spending money when I can’t earn it at a profit. At least I learnt the negative consequences of speculative investments.
Logen
The Paradox of Dreams and Love 2007-12-23 22:29:55 It’s Christmas Eve. Yet I lack the complete enthusiasm associated with the season.
I looked through my writing journal just now. This is what I wrote months ago…
I see it in my dreams. But no one can take things from Dreamland to our world. The gates separating both realms are sized to our bodies; nothing else would pass through.
Regretfully, I should have slept on, eternally dreaming about my forbidden fruit.
Well, I love my dreams. They are usually vivid and weird. The above prose obviously talks about my love, or rather, lack thereof.
Happy Holidays.
Logen Read more:Dreams
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First Time To The Movies 2007-12-22 12:03:17 I had intended originally to buy a pair of three-quater pants but I then remembered that My little sister hadn’t been to the movies before. In a spur of the moment decision, I brought my little sister to the cinemas to watch Alvin and The Chipmunks.
The poor girl had a fever the previous day but despite it, I could tell that she was excited. It just brings back memories of myself when I was a kid.
Well, that’s it for now. I’ll be doing some shopping tomorrow and I’m hooked on EBay. I’ll post the items I’m interested in later on. Don’t any of you compete in the auction. Haha.
Christmas Eve on Monday!
Merry Christmas.
Logen Read more:First
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