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Latest Developments 2006 2006-12-23 16:13:40 Â
I might be blog-moving to Freehostia temporarily. Until I can afford to pay for a web host, there I’ll stay. However my site may risk being suspended as their ‘terms of service’ may be incompatible with it.
Having said that, there may be a short hiatus for the blog. I apologise for not delivering the Christmas posts; I hadn’t expected it to be so busy at this time of year.
For Singaporean visitors, watch ‘Love Actually’ on Sunday, 10pm, Channel 5. For visitors of other countries, I recommend that you do rent the movie for the holidays. Merry Christmas!
Nearing The New Year 2006-12-26 15:09:28 Dear visitors, a move in site is expected by early January. The redirects: ‘http://logish.tk’ and ‘http://logen.up.to’, will be updated to reflect the change.
I have been testing several servers and will reveal the host in due course. In addition, I will also be purchasing a top-level domain. This will also be revealed later.
On a different note, my eczema has gotten really bad and in consequence, so has my mood. I’ll be going to the National Skin Centre when the appointment date confirms. Hopefully, the condition can be treated satisfactorily or else madness may overcome me and death be a blessing.
Happy New Year
. I know, the mention of death preceding a new year greeting is an ideal thing. Do cut me some slack.
P.S. I shall smile despite the torturous scratching.
A Little HP Goes A Long Way 2006-12-27 20:24:39 Attention! to all the muggles out there. The below is promotional info on wand-dueling. Buy the complete course at 8000 galleons (40 000 sterling pounds, S$120 800).
Being a muggle, you’d think that our course would be useless for you. After all, the definition for the term -’muggle’, means ‘non-magical person’. However, let us assume the age old adage of ‘knowledge is power’ to be true.
New Year Resolutions 2006-12-30 17:47:36
1. Be at peace within, and think pragmatically, at all times. Especially during adversity.
2. Devote snippets of time for insight-meditation.
3. Learn Spanish and Esperanto. Yeah! I want to be Zorro. *laughs*
4. Write freelance at least once for a magazine (preferably literary/reader’s digest).
5. Devote time to seek ultimate reality, just as the Buddha had done. Thus explains why I’m going to further studies on Physics and Chemistry.
6. Write a short-story/novel. Despite having the whole plot in my head, I’m procrastinating!
7. Sleep at a beach under the stars, hopefully with some friends, for security reasons… *winks*
8. Lose weight and gain a hot butt. And be a little narcissistic? *grins*
9. Find out how I can realise the plans to build custom furniture by myself, for my room. Thereafter, build it.
10. Recycle and reuse whatever I can.
11. Be more social with people I don’t know at a social event.
12. Disallow society to dictate my actions.
13. Learn Read more:Resolutions
, New Year
Harry Potter Book Title Released! 2006-12-30 22:11:08 http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Harry
_Potter
_and_the_Deathly_Hallows
http://www.scholastic.com/harrypotter/
http://www.cnn.com/2006/SHOWBIZ/books/12/21/books.pottertitle.ap/index.html
At the time of this entry, Bloomsbury’s site was down.
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Logish Paradox Soon To Be Moved 2007-01-02 00:53:56 The current ‘live thy truth‘ series of Logish Paradox
is going to be shutdown soon. The link-redirects (e.g. http://logish.tk) will be updated to the new Logish Paradox blog soon.
If you do want to link to the new blog, please do so after I have registered the domain name/URL. For those who are using the current link-redirects, you need not change the link. new blog. Take note that it is still in construction.
- Logen Lanka
Not Stupid Enough To Not Have A Plan-B 2007-01-04 20:06:57 Freehostia at the moment despite their previous 5 minute downtime. However I’m not exclusively stupid to not have a Plan B. I’ll be backing-up the files on Wordpress.com itself.
Also, I diverted traffic from the ‘logish.tk’ to the new blog. ‘logen.up.to’ is still linked here. Once again, do not link me via the Freehostia raw link. Link me using the ‘logish.tk’ link as I may suddenly change host.
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, Enough
Overwhelmed And Tortured By Thoughts 2007-02-18 17:52:43 Remember my previous entry with the erotic sonnet? One should never entertain such thoughts, especially when pain entails at the end. Forget what I said; so long as one lives, the spectrums of pain and pleasure is of certainty.
Somehow, someday, I want to do something drastic. I have yet to know what but definitely I am aware of my intentions; to rid of sufferring, through knowledge.
For now, lust and maybe my craving for love entraps me. I apologise for my incoherent ramblings. It happens whenever I am overwhelmed with emotions and thoughts. Therefore, my need for the first on my life-list: Be at peace within and hence, think pragmatically and systematically at all times.
- Logish
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Naughty But Sorrowful Love 2007-02-16 18:41:14 Wishful Androgynous Lust
In darkened skies -the moon, the stars- they glow,
My heart, my soul, my bed belongs to you.
Eyelids shut and thence, thy sensual dew.
Beguiling scent; tight cords that bind my bones.
Stifled by sweet lips, the groans and moans…
An angel’s face, no doubt, the devil’s deal!
Charming eyes of fiery passion brew,
My wish, as such, for spinning Earth to slow.
At daylight’s prod, I see you nowhere here,
Beknown to me, enslaved by night-time’s bid.
Dire desperate lust, my futile tears.
To thrive, in other’s dreams, you need to feed.
Henceforth, pray I, the bleedin’ sun to die
Till then, my nightly visions, live to lie.
-Logen Lanka
I wrote the above erotic sonnet last year. I’m going to place it here despite having posted it elsewhere before. The inspiration for it was actually my sleep paralysis; I get very vivid hallucinations during initial sleep.
Even now, it is known to me that my certain someone would never be mine. Had I been given a wish th
Don’t Take Things For Granted 2007-02-12 23:21:29 This is quite a simple entry but I deem it important. This is my form of closure before I undertake higher education; to leave behind whoever I’ve come to know and attached to. In the past, I was rather melodramatic about change but now the fact of impermanance is settling in.
This is a dedication to all whom I have met. My sincerity does not lessen if I fail to mention your name. I want it known that some of the conversations we had, no matter how short or seemingly nonsensical, really inspired me and prodded me into deep contemplation.
Mandy and Ais we have been intimate friends for a long time. You both have really added a special perspective to my journey of self-discovery, for which without would take longer for me to reach.
Harris, Lauren, Gui Feng, Nuraini, Chia Hsin and Bala, we have shared many deep and very insightful conversations. Those little quirks of you each, I’d always remember.
Ze An, Zhi Wei, Eileen, Stacy, Guan Yu, Guan Kai, Florence, Jeffrey, Shun Li, H
Guard Thy Darkest Secrets 2007-02-11 15:44:25
When one has something to hide, he would either lie or speak ambiguously, sometimes both. It’s very much the same in novels, and is written with skillful subtlety; so only the handful who are observant and analytical would notice them.
On the subject of ambiguousness, I’ve used it a great deal of times, going to the extent of leaving out minor details to further mislead. As great Poirot once had said: “Never do I deceive you, […]. I only permit you to deceive yourself.”.
That said, I’m not too adverse to lying, especially when the situation permits it. The risks, however, when one contradicts oneself by mistake, is far too huge to take. And I do prefer truths to lies.
Although it is easy to ascertain if one is hiding something, it is difficult to say what it is. It is especially when the secret is crucial to life or death; it will be guarded at the bearer’s expense no matter what, quite ironically; death for a secret untold is nevertheless th Read more:Guard
, Darkest
, Secrets
Detective Stories Classics 2007-02-10 20:14:08 I descend slowly into the world of crime where three sides exist; the victim, the guilty and justice itself. I’m beginning to love that fictional world, which both Agatha Christie and Arthur Conan Doyle contributes to so impeccably. Rather difficult to choose between Poirot or Holmes, for both have stunning analytical capabilities and their little quirks.
Anyway, at present aside reading (which aids in giving me a better writing perspective), I’m focusing on planning the plot of my novel. To add on, I have to make my course options by the 14th of February.
I’m still feeling sentimental about my certain someone, who in fact is not mine. Separated by distance and social group…
- Logish
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, Stories
, Classics
The Results And My Feelings 2007-02-09 16:48:23 As with tradition, one-third of my class of so-called “delinquents” were barred entry into the school hall due to our unsuitable hairstyles. Thus, delaying us at least an hour before we could get the envelopes.
Detained For Improper Hairstyles
My fears were completely unfounded; I scored an L1R4 of 12 points, which is sufficiently good for an ideal polytechnic course. I couldn’t help but stare at the slip periodically, quite disbelieving the results.
Thereafter, a few of my friends and I had lunch at LJ (Long John’s). Of the group, Lauren and I enthusiastically looked over the information booklet, marking the courses that interest us.
Despite the good news, I am saddened for two intimate friends of mine who did not do as well. No one wants to have fewer doors to open for the future, much less if it entails a bleak one. I am determined, in ways I can, to help.
Right now, nostalgia fills my heart. Memories, one after another, flit through my mind and tears threat Read more:Feelings
O’ Levels Press Release 2007-02-05 12:28:39 According to the Singapore Examination And Assessment Board (SEAB), the O’ Levels examination results will be released this Friday at 2pm. I’m thoroughly overwhelmed by this information; the results will determine my very near future.
Since last week I’ve been having nightmares about the above. Furthermore, I dreamt about being chased around by the disciplinarian which ended in me running to a dead-end. Fortunately enough I awoke before I was caught.
Breathe, breathe, breathe…
- Logish
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, Release
Moved For Months 2007-04-03 18:08:39 This will likely be a last update. I have moved to http://logish.freehostia.com/blog. For a link easier for the memory, try http://logish.tk or http://logen.up.to.
Take faith that I will work my way to a domain URL. I can’t make online transactions. Nonetheless, see you on the other side… of the above link of course!
P.S. I’d like to compliment and thank Freehostia for the good service they have provided.
- Logen Lanka
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I Procrastinate With A Crap Post 2007-11-03 11:43:26 Words have failed me. I’m uninspired. I’ve sat in front of the laptop for hours and need a break.
Deep inside, I know that I’m just avoiding the need to do my homework and revision. Enough said. Time to break the procrastination cycle.
Logen
Logen is Logish 2007-11-02 09:45:59
Hi, I’m Logen. Above is a picture of me. My friends think I’m crazy. I agree, though I can’t explain why.
My head brims with stories, which I’d soon like to pen. They come to me when I dream, fantasise or feel depressed. They act as a talisman against my reality that sometimes is sad. I fear it.
Reality is what we perceive to be true, while fantasy is what we hope will exist. The line is blurred between the two. One can only be hopeful.
Logen
Interesting Giant Spam 2007-11-07 10:32:43 Length and strength is what your di’ck really needs!
This sums up the daily spam I receive in my inbox. It’s alway penis enlargement and what not.
So for once, I read one of those pesky mails, expecting the message to be full of links. However the opposite was true. The message ended with: “Consider our proposition and make sure you shall become a true s’e_xual giant!“. The traumatising image of Hagrid doing you-know-what was instantly conjured in my mind.
Moral of the story? Spam is bad…
Logen
Rest In Peace Dear Uncle 2007-11-05 16:04:16 Compared to last semester, I’d say this semester is less tense. I’m more relaxed and yet there’s this feeling of emptiness. It’s like losing a loved-one but no matter how hard you try, you can’t remember who he or she is.
Speaking of which, my uncle, whom I shared a bare but profound connection with, died last Thursday. Killed by a heart-attack, they say. No doubt, I felt the loss. It even reminded me of my grandfather’s death.
The chinese funeral procession, which I attended was no comfort. It made my heart wrench when I saw my cousin sobbing.
The unfamiliarity of the rites made me feel melancholic. Within hours I was bored. I ended up laughing at the priest. It’s very much like the caveman story: Two cavemen were ready to fight each other. Then to disperse the tension, one laughed it off and the other one eventually laughed too. Laughter doesn’t necessarily mean something is funny. It can happen when someone feels threatened by an unf Read more:Peace
, Uncle
This Old Kid Wants To Draw 2007-11-04 11:06:34 When asked about my hobbies at the age of 7, I’d say I love to draw. But, as years went by, my interest in it dwindled.
Anxiety, whenever the teacher graded art, replaced the joy and freedom of drawing. Besides, I wrongly believed that sketching was an inborn ability that cannot be learnt. So, I eventually gave it up as a leisure activity.
And now, I want to take it up again. I hope to do portrait drawing. However, time, plus my knack to procrastinate, does not permit my desire. I admire kids for they can do stupid things without being mocked.
I shall add the below to my life list. Come the school-break, I must work on it.
To do a good portrait drawing
Logen
Rotten Time Management 2007-11-11 12:10:55 It didn’t go according to plan. The e-quiz link was gone from my school’s portal 3 hours before the deadline. I haven’t studied anything yet.
I need, really, to do some solid planning if I ever want to manage my time. From tomorrow, I’ll try not to say, ‘I’ll do it tomorrow/later’. Once, I manage this, things will get better.
Logen Read more:Rotten
, Management
The Balancing Act Goal 2007-11-10 16:30:29 Have to start revision soon. I hate to leave things to the last minute. It’s just that the whole domain name investment is taking my attention. Worse, I’ve been skipping lectures.
However, I resolve to strike a balance between school and business. And blogging for 2 blogs of course!
So, my first step for tomorrow:
Study for my CIP module and complete the graded e-quiz
Practise bank reconciliation for the mini-test
Catch up with the Business Statistics module (Chapter 1, 2 and 3)
Priority goes to the top 2 of the list.
That said, I feel bad for neglecting this blog. Inspiration is coming back to me, but to express it adequately, I have to invest time. Time, as in days or even weeks, to pen my short fiction. I lack that time. I’ll, however, use my past works as fillers. Any objections?
Logen Read more:Balancing
Dreams Are My Reality 2007-11-09 05:19:55 I miss your playful eyes
I miss your endearing grin.
I miss your gentle touch.
I miss the scent only you give…
Maybe tonight, I’ll see you in my dreams again.
If my love be unrequited, may I sleep for evermore.
Logen Read more:Dreams
Past Sonnet: Wishful Androgynous Lust 2007-11-17 10:36:11 Over a year ago, I wrote this sonnet. It was inspired by the sleep paralysis that happened nightly. I saw things that caused me terror, but on certain nights, I had some control over what I saw. Hence the sonnet. My first, if I remember correctly, about the pains of unreciprocated love.
Written first in logishlifestyle.wordpress.com, here it is:
In darkened skies -the moon, the stars- they glow,
My heart, my soul, my bed belongs to you.
Eyelids shut and thence, thy sensual dew.
Beguiling scent; tight cords that bind my bones.
Stifled by sweet lips, the groans and moans…
An angel’s face, no doubt, the devil’s deal!
Charming eyes of fiery passion brew,
My wish, as such, for spinning Earth to slow.
At daylight’s prod, I see you nowhere here,
Beknown to me, enslaved by night-time’s bid.
Dire desperate lust, my futile tears.
To thrive, in other’s dreams, you need to feed.
Henceforth, pray I, the bleedin’ sun to die
Till then, my nightly visions, live to lie.
- Logen Lanka
Y Read more:Sonnet
Oh NO! Hair Publicity 2007-11-16 07:06:16 A few weeks ago, when I was at lecture, Kim Man asked if she could braid my hair. I agreed. That sneaky girl took a picture of my hair and posted it on her blog. Nevemind that, it’s free publicity and she thinks it looks cute. Of course I look cute. Don’t you snigger!
As you can see, the tail actually curls up. Right now, it’s bushy again and needless to say, both Harris and Zhi Wei have lots to say. Even the others are commenting about the bush. If my hair had feelings it’d be whipping their faces. Well, I hate my bush head too and, even worse, the Bush at the White House. But that’s another story.
I intend to have a more drastic haircut after the exams. Or when money is credited into my bank (the bursary). I’m sticking with Hair Play Salon.
Logen
P.S. I’ll dig up my previous blog for some proses I wrote about unrequitted love.
To Get Back On Track 2007-11-15 12:28:38 Regretfully, I’m still drifting away from studying. I’ve been busy developing my domain names and wasting my time waiting for emails.
The solution to this issue, however, isn’t to cease development of those sites. It merely means my time management sucks and action has to be taken.
Here’s the issue in detail:
I have 3 important modules to study for, namely Microeconomics, Business Statistics(BStats) and FFA (accounting). Business Statistics is the worrying module, mainly because it deals with maths, worsened by me skipping the last two lectures. I do find it interesting but I’m 4 weeks behind. Answering my question, Wen Jie said that consulting the textbok may only enable me to understand half the topic.
Looks like I’ll be slaving for BStats during the weekends. I intend to do a warm up on Friday, revising the introductory topics, and then jump into the heavier bits of week 3 and 4 on Saturday. Be positive Logen!
That’s basically my wee Read more:Track
Mirror Mirror on the Wall 2007-11-22 08:36:20 After such a long time, I talked to the person in my mirror again. I like to refer to him as my twin brother. He’s always there in times of need.
I expected myself to breakdown at the end. He reminds me of a certain past that I dislike. But this time, it seems he has succeeded in centering my emotions. We did it. You must think I’m a mentally unstable narcissist for referring to my mirror reflection as an individual. I don’t mind really.
As for the cause of my melancholia, I have only to ask this. Why should I heed the words of ignorant pigs? I may crave for normalcy, but I’ve embraced my eccentricities. People always think fitting in a premade mould is the way to go. Well, no use arguing with pigs, they’ll only assuage their conscience with empty words.
The past is past me now, or so I hope. Lord Logenmort is back.
Logen
I Want To Speak My Mind 2007-11-21 11:27:18 Ah, I’ve been waiting for it. Melancholia is seeping through my mind again.
Sometimes I wish I could speak my mind, but no, I must contend myself with ambiguity. I’m sick of leaving huge gaps in my words for the sake of censorship. I don’t mean censorship in terms of axing out vulgarities. Honestly, I don’t mind saying fuck, chee bye, lan jiao, lampa, mai-re pundeh and a whole host of taboo words. But the things I want to write have tremendous consequences as compared with mere vulgar words.
Tears cannot compensate for the pain I feel. I’ve numbed it for too long; I’ve floated without knowing who I was. However, I accept that I’ll have to remain behind a mask. Even after the show has ended, I must continue my wearisome act just because I’m bound by the fucking stage; like a ghost bound to his haunting spot.
It sounds like I’m giving up but I’m not. Logen is a stubborn bitch.
My own words stating that I’m the god o
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