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Thank you 2007-06-24 09:31:02 I am starting to believe in love again. Love is all around us. I truly believe that we can love someone so deeply that til death do us part.
What I am trying to put across is that we can love and care for someone so deeply and yet we don’t have to lose ourself in each other. Two individuals will always be two separate and mutually exclusive entities. We don’t have to even see each other very second, every minute and every day. But in our heart, we always think of the other part of the partnership. Yes, it is just that, a partnership. When attained the higher level of connectedness, we won’t need to reassure us of our love for each other. The best words are spoken in silence. We have to trust each other and not overly worry about our partner. after all, the partnership is between two responsible adult.
When genuine honesty preview, trust will follows. Also, we must trust each other to take care of themselves for each other. If you love someone so much, you don’t Read more:Thank
Thank you for loving me 2007-06-24 09:19:18 Thank
you for loving me by Bon Jovi
It’s hard for me to say the things
I want to say sometimes
There’s no one
here but you and me
And that broken old street light
Lock the
doors
We’ll leave the world outside
All I’ve got to give to you
Are
these five words when I
Thank you for loving me
For being my eyes
When
I couldn’t see
For parting my lips
When I couldn’t breathe
Thank you
for loving me
Thank you for loving me
I never knew I had a
dream
Until that dream was you
When I look into your eyes
The sky’s a
different blue
Cross my heart
I wear no disguise
If I tried, you’d
make believe
That you believed my lies
Thank you for loving me
For
being my eyes
When I couldn’t see
For parting my lips
When I couldn’t
breathe
Thank you for loving me
You pick me up when I fall
down
You ring the bell before they count me out
If I was drowning you
would part the sea
And risk your own life to rescue me
Lock the
doors
We’ll leave the world
Home 2007-06-23 22:24:25
Home by Daughtry
I’m staring out into the night,
Trying to hide the pain.
I’m going to the place where love
And feeling good don’t ever cost a thing.
And the pain you feel’s a different kind of pain.
I’m going home,
Back to the place where I belong,
And where your love has always been enough for me.
I’m not running from.
No, I think you got me all wrong.
I don’t regret this life I chose for me.
But these places and these faces are getting old
So I’m going home.
Well I’m going home.
The miles are getting longer, it seems,
The closer I get to you.
I’ve not always been the best man or friend for you.
But your love, remains true.
And I don’t know why.
You always seem to give me another try.
So I’m going home,
Back to the place where I belong,
And where your love has always been enough for me.
I’m not running from.
No, I think you got me all wrong.
I don’t regret this life I chose for me.
But these places a
Serenity; Peace; Enjoyment & Fulfillment 2007-06-23 20:59:12 Slowdown and smell the roses. Not only we need to slow down our pace once in a while and smell the roses, we have to be connected to the roses on a higher level. We have to feel the life of the roses. Appreciate the spirit within.
We must learn to enjoy ourself in each and every situation even in the perceived most dire condition. We must learn to see the beauty in every situation. Just take a step back, take a deep breath and everything changes. We must be still and present to live in the moment. No past and no future. Appreciate every second of your life. When the water passes under the bridge, you will never have the chance to savor them ever again. Every second, every situation, every feeling is sacred and divine. It doesn’t matter if you are in pain or joy. Enjoy the pain, it will never last and you will never feel it the same way ever again.
We are already living in a perfect world. So, embrace it as it is. Enjoy and be fully submerged in the present. Dump the burden of Read more:Serenity
, Peace
My previous posts. 2007-06-23 06:26:12 Hi,
For those who is regular reader of my blog. If there is. Must be wondering why on earth do I post music video plus lyrics and without putting in any comment or pouring out my feeling.
The reason is that I never good with words and from the song, I can clearly express the feeling I have at that particular time.
My previous post (Hurting kind of love) used the lyrics of Richard Marx’s Angelia to show how I felt about my previous relationship which was dismissed more than one month ago.
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Hurting kind of love 2007-06-23 03:44:15
Angelia by Richard Marx
Memories of you and me
Tumble inside my head
The way that we used to be
Things that we said
No one has ever made me believe so strong
You left me to wonder
How did our love go wrong
Alicia
Where you running to now
Alicia
Got to make you turn around
I lie awake at night
Wait for the sun to shine
I still feel you next to me
Your lips on mine
Without a warning
You made our love a lie
You said you were sorry
But you never told me why
Alicia
Where you running to now
Alicia
Got to make you turn around
Maybe my love is in vain
Maybe you’re the hurting kind
Can’t take no more of this pain
I’ve got to get you off my mind
Tried to be what you wanted
I gave you all I had
You left me with nothin’
Nothin’ but a photograph
Alicia
Where you running to now
Alicia
Got to make you turn around
Alicia
Where you running to now
Alicia
Got to make you turn around
Its all make sense now 2007-06-21 20:59:18 Living in the present can be a very powerful experience. For most of us, attaining enlightenment seem some remote and distance.
However, we always have a fleeting sensation of totally present in the Now. I for one love combat sport, group exercise, riding a motorcycle and X-treme sport, all of these activities will get your adrenalin pumping. When you submerge yourself into those activities, coupled with the intense concentration, we feel alive and alert, that is the highest form of enlightenment.
What we have to learn and cultivate is to feel enlighten even when not engaging in high risk activities.
I have found the answer to why I love the activities I mentioned above.
Enjoy the silence 2007-06-20 23:42:59 Enjoy the silence
by Depeche Mode
Words like violence
Break the silence
Come crashing in
Into my little world
Painful to me
Pierce right through me
Cant you understand
Oh my little girl
All I ever wanted
All I ever needed
Is here in my arms
Words are very unnecessary
They can only do harm
Vows are spoken
To be broken
Feelings are intense
Words are trivial
Pleasures remain
So does the pain
Words are meaningless
And forgettable
Enjoy the silence by Depeche Mode
All I ever wanted
All I ever needed
Is here in my arms
Words are very unnecessary
They can only do harm
Enjoy the silence
Stillness; Silent; Now; You are not your…… 2007-06-20 21:28:01 The Power of Now&hellip
;
The most important thing for us is to live at the present which is now.
You are not your…….
You are not your thoughts.
You are not your physical appearance.
You are not your belongings.
You are not your family.
You are not your partner or spouse.
You are not your circle of friends.
You are not your social network.
You are not the car that you drive.
You are not the house that you live in.
You are only you, you, you and you.
So, stop identifying yourself with all those stuff as mentioned above.
You are who you are.
You will feel serenity and stillness when you can just disassociate yourself with all the external factors that are not you.
In the silent of the stillness, you will come alive, experience consciousness like you never experience before.
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The Power of Now 2007-06-20 21:17:57
Ekhart Tolle’s message is simple: living in the now is the truest path to happiness and enlightenment. And while this message may not seem stunningly original or fresh, Tolle’s clear writing, supportive voice, and enthusiasm make this an excellent manual for anyone who’s ever wondered what exactly “living in the now” means. Foremost, Tolle is a world-class teacher, able to explain complicated concepts in concrete language. More importantly, within a chapter of reading this book, readers are already holding the world in a different container–more conscious of how thoughts and emotions get in the way of their ability to live in genuine peace and happiness.
Accept or let go 2007-06-28 03:21:19 Don’t crack your head over decision. There is either a decision or no decision at all. No such thing as good or bad decision. You can only rely on the info at hand at that particular moment in time and also your guts feeling when you decided on something.
You will enter into a condition of Paralysis by Analysis if you think too much before making a decision. If that decision is going to be made at all.
In every situation, the choices are only 2. Either you accept the situation and work on it or just let go. Letting go is not that tough if you don’t identify with the thing that you want to let go. Whatever it is, your dysfunctional relationship, a pet project or even your material belongings, those are not you. Giving up on them doesn’t make you any less of a human being.
Regroup and start all over again.
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Show me the way, take me tonight to the river, and wash my illusions away 2007-06-28 03:19:29
Show me the way by Styx
Every night I say a prayer in the hope that theres a heaven
And every day Im more confused as the saints turn into sinners
All the heroes and legends I knew as a child have fallen to idols of clay
And I feel this empty place inside so afraid that Ive lost my faith
Show me the way, show me the way
Take me tonight to the river
And wash my illusions away
Show me the way
And as I slowly drift to sleep, for a moment dreams are sacred
I close my eyes and know theres peace in a world so filled with hatred
That I wake up each morning and turn on the news to find weve so far to go
And I keep on hoping for a sign, so afraid that I just wont know
Show me the way, show me the way
Take me tonight to the mountain
And take my confusion away
And if I see a light, should I believe
Tell me how will I know
Show me the way, show me the way
Take me tonight to the river
And wash my illusions away
Show me the way, show me the way
Give me the strength and the cour
Legacy 2007-06-28 03:16:44 Legacy
Have you ever have the feeling that you are like a busy bee but getting no where?
Rushing around trying to complete task after task only to find yourself stepping on the same spot or returning to square one?
My mind always one step of me, before I finish washing my face, my thought already fast forwarded to shaving. The problem with this state of mind is that anxiety is a constant companion of mine.
Just mechanically going through the process and rushing to the end. I never enjoy the journey and have forgotten what I set out to do.
My ex always reminded me not to rush things and relax. Now I know what that means. Well, it is a positive legacy of our 7 years together.
I always trying to meet time target, I identify with time so much that time for me is a psychological time instead of clock time. For example, I set targets using time alone; I will stay until a certain time before going to bed, without considering the productivity. I miss interpreted endurance with productiv Read more:Legacy
The Law of Impermenance 2007-06-28 03:13:42
November Rain by Guns N’ Roses
When I look into your eyes
I can see a love restrained
But darlin’ when I hold you
Don’t you know I feel the same
‘Cause nothin’ lasts forever
And we both know hearts can change
And it’s hard to hold a candle
In the cold November rain
We’ve been through this such a long long time
Just tryin’ to kill the pain
But lovers always come and lovers always go
An no one’s really sure who’s lettin’ go today
Walking away
If we could take the time
to lay it on the line
I could rest my head
Just knowin’ that you were mine
All mine
So if you want to love me
then darlin’ don’t refrain
Or I’ll just end up walkin’
In the cold November rain
Do you need some time…on your own
Do you need some time…all alone
Everybody needs some time…
on their own
Don’t you know you need some time…all alone
I know
The future’s not ours, to see 2007-06-28 03:10:51
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Whatever_Will_Be,_Will_Be_(Que_Sera,_Sera)
Que Sera Sera by Doris Day
When I was just a little girl
I asked my mother, what will I be
Will I be pretty, will I be rich
Here’s what she said to me.
Que Sera, Sera,
Whatever will be, will be
The future’s not ours, to see
Que Sera, Sera
What will be, will be.
When I was young, I fell in love
I asked my sweetheart what lies ahead
Will we have rainbows, day after day
Here’s what my sweetheart said.
Que Sera, Sera,
Whatever will be, will be
The future’s not ours, to see
Que Sera, Sera
What will be, will be.
Now I have children of my own
They ask their mother, what will I be
Will I be handsome, will I be rich
I tell them tenderly.
Que Sera, Sera,
Whatever will be, will be
The future’s not ours, to see
Que Sera, Sera
What will be, will be.
Free your mind and the rest will follow 2007-06-27 06:40:20
Free your mind by En Vogue
I wear tight clothing and high heel shoes it doesnt make me a prostitute
I like rap music wear hip-hop clothes
That doesnt mean that Im sellin dope
Oh my please forgive me for having
Straight hair
It doesnt mean theres another blood in
My heirs
I might date another race or color
Doesnt mean I dont like my strong
Black brothers
Chorus:free your mind and the rest will follow, be colorblind, dont be so shallow(before you read me you gotta learn how to see me)
So Im a sista
Buy things with cash
That really doesnt mean that all my
Credit is bad,
So why dispute me and waste my time,
Because you think that the price is too
High for me
I cant look without being watched
You rang my buy before I made up my,
Mind
Oh now attitude why even bother
I cant change your mind you cant
Change my color
A better tomorrow? 2007-06-27 06:30:45 Will tomorrow
be better
? Will next week be better? Will next month be better? Will next year be even better?
How can you define better anyway, we must treasure every second because it is so precious and once it past, no amount of effort can bring it back.
Tomorrow or the future is just another day albeit a different one. How can you compare the day? Today and here and now is already good enough. We must enjoy what we have now, nothing will ever be the same again. Even our pain and sorrow will past. Tomorrow will be different, no doubt. But whether it will be better is just our state of mind.
We can choose to free ourselves from our all controlling mind and we can live a better NOW. We don’t have to wait for tomorrow to come to cure our insanity.
The only certainty about our future is uncertainty. So, don’t live in the future thinking that tomorrow, next week, nest month will be better. It is only an illusion, a trick that our mind plays on us.
Free your mind and immerse o
Feel, don’t think 2007-06-26 22:49:52 Feel don’t think
. May the force be with you.
Star Wars Episode One — The Phantom Menace….Pod Race
Vicious Cycle 2007-06-26 21:14:15 Its been a while now since I last posted. 2 days to be exact. Well, the past 2 days or so, it seem like the mind has reclaimed a bit of me.
I have been trying to enlighten myself by practicing the condition of no-mind. Meaning that we must free ourselves from the control of mind or thought and free from the control of our egoistic self.
On Monday, while I was filing tax on behalf of my ex, I slumped back toward the mind self and was missing her so much. Then yesterday it dawn on me that it only an illusion. I felt freedom running through my vein. I just realized why we separated in the first place.
Every relationship can be saved, including my just concluded one. But, I don’t want to dwell on what could’ve been anymore. I want to live at the present moment and appreciate the NOW.
Our negative energy thrive because it feed on the vicious cycle of pain follow by pleasure and the cycle start all over again.
We must show true love to everybody and everything. True love don&rsqu Read more:Vicious
, Cycle
Black holes and revelations 2007-07-01 11:43:10
Starlight by Muse
Far away
The ship is taking me far away
Far away from my memories
Of the people who care if I live or die
Starlight
I will be chasing your starlight
Until the end of my life
I don’t know if it’s worth it anymore
And hold you in my arms
I just wanted to hold
You in my arms
My life
You electrify my life
Lets conspire to re-ignite
All the souls that would die just to feel alive
But I’ll never let you go
If you promise not to fade away
Never fade away
Our hopes and expectations
Black
holes and revelations
Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations
Hold you in my arms
I just wanted to hold
You in my arms
Far away
The ship is taking me far away
Far away from my memories
Of the people who care if I live or die
I’ll never let you go
If you promise not to fade away
Never fade away
Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations
Yeah
Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations
Hold you in my arms
I just wanted to hold
You i
Moonlight 2007-07-01 11:37:40 The night sky is so serene and peaceful. The moonlight is so bright that I can see the secondary jungle in front of my house clearly. The moon is full and its brilliant moonlight lights up the dark black sky.
I used to love the night so much. It is so quiet, serene and peaceful. When I was busy studying for my exam about 20 long years ago, I will take a break in the middle of the night and walk out from my house to look at the night sky. Without a care in the world. During that time, crime wasn’t as an issue.
I was always marveling at the moon, especially full moon and on the days where the moon is dim or didn’t make its appearance, the stars will shine ever brighter on a moonless night.
For me the night sky can be very romantic. How I wish that there is someone to share with me this brilliant moment. Holding hands or lying down on a couch or rattan chair. Enjoying the moonlight in each other arms. Life can be so simple and the most simple thing like the moonlight can be so fulfill Read more:Moonlight
Sunshine 2007-06-30 10:27:46
Sunshine on my shoulder by John Denver
sunshine, on my shoulders - makes me happy
sunshine, in my eyes - can make me cry
sunshine, on the water - looks so lovely
sunshine, almost always - makes me high
if i had a day that i could give you
i’d give to you a day just like today
if i had a song that i could sing for you
i’d sing a song to make you feel this way
sunshine, on my shoulders - makes me happy
sunshine, in my eyes - can make me cry
sunshine, on the water - looks so lovely
sunshine, almost always - makes me high
if i had a tale that i could tell you
i’d tell a tale sure to make you smile
if i had a wish that i could wish for you
i’d make a wish for sunshine all the while
sunshine, on my shoulders - makes me happy
sunshine, in my eyes - can make me cry
sunshine, on the water - looks so lovely
sunshine, almost always - makes me high
sunshine almost al the times makes me high
sunshine, almost always
Forgiveness 2007-06-29 07:45:37 Sometime, it is easier to forgive other than my own self. I just learn something new today. I was still bitter but not toward my ex anymore, it has to do with myself. Even she had forgave me but I just can’t seem to be able to forgive myself.
The way that I pledge to repay every single cents to her show that I’m still bend on revenge, there is still anger and frustration in me, more specifically, I’ve directed those negative emotion to me.
Well, the relationship got off to a very bad start in the first place. I must admit and recognize my part in the pain and suffering we both endured for so many years.
I was consumed by ego and refused to take no for an answer. Now I realized that my reluctance to let go have nothing to do with love, it was more of addiction and my egoistic mind telling me to win at all cost. She was the world to me, my self esteem is so low and I can’t reconcile it with my winning at all cost ego. I’ve done everything to keep her by myse Read more:Forgiveness
Ashes to ashes; Dust to dust 2007-06-28 21:47:37
Ashes to ashes by Faith No More
I want them to know it’s me
It’s on my head
I’ll point the finger at me
It’s on my head
Give it all to you
Then I’ll be closer
Smiling with the mouth of the ocean
And I’ll wave to you with the arms of the mountain
I’ll see you
I will let you shout no more
It’s on my head
I’ll pick you up from the floor
It’s on my head
Give it all to you
Then I’ll be closer
Smiling with the mouth of the ocean
And I’ll wave to you with the arms of the mountain
I’ll see you
Give the same to me then I’ll be closer, closer
Give the same to me then I’ll be closer, closer
Smiling with the mouth of the ocean
And I’ll wave to you with the arms of the mountain
Give the same to me then I’ll be closer
Introspective 2007-07-04 09:43:32 Introspective, look within. Don’t look for excuse or external forces that is beyond our control.
You don’t have to be stuck in a moment and can’t get out of it.
Well, if you see that you are stuck in a situation and heading toward a dead end, just draw a deep breath and be totally present.
Accept the present situation and don’t be angry with it, don’t judge or label the situation.
Then you can chart an alternative route toward what you want.
Don’t identify with your goals, targets, plans, strategies etc etc. There are just a mean to an end. Be adaptable to the situation.
Enjoy the Journey.
Fourth of July 2007-07-04 09:24:21 Today, the Great Nation of United States of America celebrates her Independence Day.
So, for all the great soul out there, today we celebrate our independence day, from the paralyzing shackle of our life, from the burden of our past, from the social dogma and stuf the social programing.
We must work on the things we desired but don’t identify with them. Screw it, let’s do it.
Sincerity; honesty and wearing a mask 2007-07-04 08:54:25 When we talking about sincerity, most of the time is inside out. Meaning that we treat people with sincerity. Be sincere with other.
But then again, genuine sincerity and honesty can only be achieved through self sincerity and honesty.
I never cheated anybody in my live and don’t intend to start now, but I was far from being honest with myself.
Sacrifice in the shallow sense has a new name, that is insincerity and dishonesty toward oneself.
Being good and always bow to other is a mask in disguise, we always mistaken that for self sacrifice.
Wearing a mask in front of other is not limited to manipulating or deceiving others, it could in fact be deceiving myself and the damage by self deceiving isn’t any less than trying to play mind games with others.
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No happy ending 2007-07-03 02:54:05
Happy ending by Avril Lavigne
So much for my happy ending
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh…
Let’s talk this over
It’s not like we’re dead
Was it something I did?
Was it something You said?
Don’t leave me hanging
In a city so dead
Held up so high
On such a breakable thread
You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be
[Chorus:]
You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
And all of the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh…
You’ve got your dumb friends
I know what they say
They tell you I’m difficult
But so are they
But they don’t know me
Do they even know you?
All the things you hide from me
All the shit that you do [CD version]
All the stuff that you do [radio edited version]
You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be
[Chorus]
Nothing stay the same 2007-07-02 09:20:20
Everybody’s changing by Keane
You say you wander your own land
But when I think about it
I don’t see how you can
You’re aching, you’re breaking
And I can see the pain in your eyes
Says everybody’s changing
And I don’t know why.
So little time
Try to understand that I’m
Trying to make a move just to stay in the game
I try to stay awake and remember my name
But everybody’s changing
And I don’t feel the same.
You’re gone from here
Soon you will disappear
Fading into beautiful light
’cause everybody’s changing
And I don’t feel right.
So little time
Try to understand that I’m
Trying to make a move just to stay in the game
I try to stay awake and remember my name
But everybody’s changing
And I don’t feel the same.
So little time
Try to understand that I’m
Trying to make a move just to stay in the game
I try to stay awake and remember my name
But everybody’s changing
And I don’t Read more:Nothing
“desired things” Desiderata 2007-07-02 00:03:16
Desiderata by Max Ehrmann
Go placidly amid the noise and haste,
and remember what peace there may be in silence.
As far as possible without surrender
be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly;
and listen to others,
even the dull and the ignorant;
they too have their story.
Avoid loud and aggressive persons,
they are vexations to the spirit.
If you compare yourself with others,
you may become vain and bitter;
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.
Keep interested in your own career, however humble;
it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.
Exercise caution in your business affairs;
for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;
many persons strive for high ideals;
and everywhere life is full of heroism.
Be yourself.
Especially, do not feign affection.
Neither be cynical about love;
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