Lost Hope 2007-02-23 11:56:00 One of many lostOne of my lost feelingsHope is that feelingWhat should I look for?Meeting another girl?How should I do that?Whenever I look to a girlI feel it's treasonFor 3.5 years I was loyalI couldn't even look to any otherHow can I start now?Can I start all over again?Do I have to?When you love someoneYou can't pass that feelingAnd move forwardForward where?I only have her in front of meForward where?My future is drawn by our dreamsForward where?An this thought is still in my mindThe thought that this is a phaseThat this is a testA hard testBut we will passHow can you pass?When she tells you thatShe never loved youHow can you pass?When she tells you thatShe loves her mate
Why not? 2007-02-22 01:06:00 Am I depressed or desperateAfter my previous knee problemsToday began my right armI can barely move itAnd it's hurting me like hellMy head is buzzing with one questionWhy not?Why shouldn't I kill myselfThe best thing that happened to me is dyingEven my memories can't compensate the lossMy memories are now a burning poisonAnd what do you think was the killer blowShe took my memories from meShe took the love within my heart from meShe told me tonight the lying truthThat she never loved meWhy Not?My professional career is collapsingBecause all I think of is getting her backAll I can think of is I will get her backThat's what love is all aboutOnly death will get us apartSo why can't we be back?If that wasn't love, what was it?A big lie, was my life a big lieBut I swear, only death will separate usI won't kill SJ, because it will turn him into a martyrI won't kill E, because I love her more than anything elseI will kill myself, because I hate myself
I'm back 2008-09-17 14:25:04 I'm sorry world but I'm back, :PLet's see where it will lead me now.Is it gona be another chapter in sorrow or just another Pazuzu mocking the pitifull humans :P
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