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Salam eidulfitri! 2006-10-20 08:46:00 Salam Eidulfiti(Hari raya in Malay)! To all moslem .. Read more:Salam
Old loving couple... 2006-10-19 09:07:00
I like to look at old loving couple
s. I had once, had a buddy chat who is 63 years old, he love his wife and still have candle light dinner on her wife birthday. I asked him, how he still maintain his marriage. The answer is " love".
I wish i can marry with a guy who love me even the love will hurt him. I wish i can marry a guy who will protect me even he have to pay with his life, i wish i can marry a guy who want to stay healthy just because he want to take care of me for the rest of his life.
Unfortunately, i only meet that type of guy in a love movie.
Ahhhhh...this is the effect because i like to wacth love movie. Maybe..like i know..love is just a fairy tale.
I pray, may Allah make 'him' as a guy who brave to face all challenge..for this love.
Hate and love. 2006-10-16 05:17:00 At last i can blogging even i still have a tones of works to do. School break is just a round the corner, and we have a lot after exam activities. I have to handle 3 projects, and have to become a technician to almost all project. I had told my co-workers several time, i really tired and bore with all the sound systems and ICT stuff that i had to manage everytime i become technician for their project. Some times there was a project that i end up become the person incharge even its not my project, just because i handle the sound system and ICT part, they let me do all thing alone. I hate that!
Last week i and one of my friend handle Telemovie project, even its not under my unit. Imagine two young female teacher, have to handle the entire school students. Not suprise when nobody help us, but there is one male teacher who assist me without any body ask. Its suprised for me because he is the one who keep bullying me and arguing with me everyday at school, even for a small matter. Maybe he
Dad, me and a dream 2006-10-10 07:05:00
Me and abah on my graduation day, hope nobody can recognise me on this photo.I just found this photo, really meaningful to me, after 20 years, this is the only photo of us.
Like abah, I dont like to take a photo. I only have 2 photos of us. One is when i am 6 years old, and other is on my graduation day.I really hope nobody recognise me on this photo..lol. i only want share..how close abah and me on this photo. At last, i after so many years, both of us become silent enemy, on that day, abah show me how he proud of me. On that day is the symbol of peace agreement..between this two people.
I dream about Abah (my dad) again. Its third time for this month...i dont know why.
I dream that Abah take us to a great vacation, we snap a lots of photos with abah's old camera. At the end of dream, when all of us back to our home. Abah tell me to send him to somewhere. Along (my sis) and me want to follow him, but he said he want to go fishing..alone.
May Allah know what my dad thinking now.
My Moist Chocolate Cake 2006-10-09 08:02:00
500 gm Moist Chocolate
Cake, Beluran made!
Yes, yesterday i broke fasting with moist chocolate cake. Its so sweet..and super delicious..yummy!
Its so lucky for me because there are one young guy, who once was a chef at one of Kuala Lumpur hotel, he not work anymore because he take care of his mother at Beluran now, so he earn some money with take any order from Beluran folks for many kind of cakes.
His work is marvelous!
Angel from heaven.. 2006-10-08 03:01:00
When i was at primary school, i had show my family photo to some of my friends. One of them had comment.
"Why your sister's name not beautiful as yours, she is prettier than you, she should get your beautiful name."
Yes, maybe since that i hate my name.
The meaning of my name is,'my love, my soul' its in arabic. While my family call me 'ayu', thats mean 'charming/ beautiful' in malay. i always warned my friends to not call me Ayu. I even had a big fight with one of my classmate during primary school, just because they make fun of me with that name.
i am the ugly duckling in my family.The problem is not like on fairy tale story, this duck never become a swan.
All my siblings, grow up as handsome, charming and beautiful person, except me. And the closest enemy for all my misfortune, is of course, my sister.
Even, i am the shortest one in my sibling, my youngest brother is taller than me.
But..
I grow up with their love. And when i am a child,i believe one thing. God know my li
Definition of marriage 2006-10-06 02:44:00
What is the definition of marriage
to you?
For me, marriage is for sharing your life, to walk on this life,together.
Marriage is something sacred and its about sacrify.
So why after so many years...some couple dare to choose the word 'divorce'. Divorce is the evil word, that can damage a life, beyond repaire.
But it also mean to start a new life, for some people.
I read today news, everyday, couples divorce, like they never know what is the meaning of marriage. They can marry on before dinner and divorce on lunch, on the next day. They spend a million to celebreate their wedding day, but divorce on one word without a cost,sometimes.
I know some people who not believe in marriage, and sometimes i think, i am one of them. Read more:Definition
Late...late..late.. 2006-10-05 06:28:00
Today i woke up late.
I should arrive to my office on 10 a.m. But i woke up on 10.30 a.m. Ooooh...am in trouble!!
I went to post office to take my register letter, but the officer said my letter had been return to the sender because the 14 days period had expired now. Arghhh...
I arrived at school 11.30a.m, my co-workers look at me when i entered the door, like i am an alien who just arrive on earth. I just smile..because i know its my mistake. They make fun on me that i have to back to home late today..to make 6 hours working. Haha...i confess that i overslept, sorry it just an accident. Luckily my boss not in office today, she have meeting at other school.
And..my school is on PMR examination (one of public examination for secondary school), so as teacher we not teaching, but have to do some office work. So my-late-to-school-case is not affected to my students.
Hey..late to office is not my habit ok! I am a good worker...errr..still...i hope.The photo on my profile is really...hm
A chocolate cake and a dream 2006-10-04 07:14:00
not really delicious..
Last night i dream that one of my best friend become my housemate. We have a lot of fun together. Wacthing cinema, have a dinner and lunch with my mom's cooking and talk about all the good thing that really want to share with somebody.
Unfortunately it just a dream.
Ramazan is here and i think i am in the middle of nowhere. I feel empty like a sahara desert.
But..sometimes..I really want to eat some chocolate cake
, and its about two days i dream about that. The first one i dream that my sis had bake a huge chocolate cake and i eat all by my self. The other one, i dream that i am a kid, and there was one lady with scarf on her head...she gave a piece of chocolate cake to all my friend and me. I dream of it on a day, when am fasting! Haha. No..this fasting not make me starving..am ok. It just i need some sweet moment..in my life now.
We have no cake shop or bakery shop at Beluran. But have a neighbour who make a cake for anyone who order to him. But its a bit
A friend and a star.. 2006-10-03 03:27:00
Last night i send a message to a friend
that live far from my country..
If a lover is like a moon, then friends are like stars. Have you noticed thatthe sky can be look beautiful without moon, but not without stars. Take care mySTAR..:)
I got the reply..
If the day comes when i die, and i go up in the sky, as i am there so far, iwill write your name on every star, so you look up and see how much you reallymean to me..
Whatever the sender mean, or maybe it just a foward..or maybe the sender just try to be sweet with me...That sentence really touch my heart. The sweetest thing that i ever heard from a friend.
Take care my star...
My two heroes 2006-10-02 08:29:00
Both of them have a dream to become a famous person, which i never dream of. Look on the picture, exactly the last time i met them, we ate at Kg Baru. On left is Angah and on right is Adik. They was totally a different person.
Angah is joker in our family, every small thing can be his jokes. He is different from other traditional type guys. He like to share whatever he feels, his anger, his emotion..anything. If we hurt him, he will let us know..immediately.But he is so patient..Not many memory in my mind can picture his anger reflection. One or two ..yes, its seal in my memory. He is artistic. Angah is planning to joined reality tv show Rock united on next year. He like to try his luck on every reality tv show. Angah never hide his ambition, that he want to be a famous person..one day, and he always excellent in what ever he doing. But i bet, i my voice is nicer than him. Haha. In this picture, angah just like a leader of gangster, but believe me, he is the man that have a lots Read more:heroes
English oral test review 2006-09-29 06:31:00 I just finished English
oral test for all students that i teach, that is form 1 and form 2 (age 13 and 14). This session can be so damn bore for me. Because, actually most of my question is same. Even i have more than one set of question but after several days, i decide that i only need one set of question. That is method 1, direct question from teacher to question. And i choose to only asked them about their basic. Like ,whats your name, how old are you, where do you live and so on.Believe me, even i ask them the same question, i still didnt get the perfect answer from the candidates.And actually all this basic question, we had learn and discuss in our learning process, every early year.Its our first topic in our sylabus, in English subject.
Some of them is ok and i can ask them more, such as, what you dream in future, what will you do if you are a prime minister and one of my favourite question is "what will you buy if you become a millionaire?"
There are some session, that i want to Read more:review
Sabah electricity in Danger!! 2006-09-27 07:36:00 Do you heard the siren???
Yes, Sabah
Electricity in danger now. There was a planning that somebody want to put a bomb at Sabah Electricity Headquarters at Kota Kinabalu.
Sabah electricity
, please be panic!!
The mastermind said, she dont have any connection with any terrorist link, but she is the citizen who really angry and not satisfy with Sabah Electiricity service.
Yesterday, electrict distraction happened at entire Beluran, almost 12 hours. From 1.20 pm to 12.20 a.m. And the main problem is, the citizen said, she was totally in angry when she cant watched her TV favourite programme, that she waiting for a week.That is 3rd watch finale episode!!!
Sabah electricity..BEWARE!
Read more:Danger
Ramadhan is coming, Eidul fitri am coming..!! 2006-09-22 09:33:00
One month..to go..dude! haha.
Hahah, i am listening to Eidul Fitri song now. And i listen that song with my heart as bright as sunshine!
Why?
Before this i had informed to all people that i know, that i will not coming back for this Eidul fitri. Its happened because i want to adjust my financial. I am aware now that my financial is on critical condition, so i have to make some sacrifice. I had change my mobile number, from postpaid account to prepaid account.Its not easy to write about this on blog. Financial is something i hate to talk to others, and sometimes its become top secret to me. Maybe because i have lots of bitter memory when its comes to financial..in my life.
Just now i want to buy a ticket for final year holidays, but my best friend (my housemate) keep provoke,or plead me to buy ticket for Eidul Fitri, she even offer her card credit for me to use,if my card is declined. She is the one who really close with me now. I told her if i back, it just for her. I know she is i Read more:Ramadhan
Me and TV series 2006-09-20 06:00:00 I am not Television addicted, so i can life without Tv. But yes, i have some favourite Tv series
, i will only watch TV when this series was on air. And if i am hook on something i really obsess about that, i can be fanatic. I will search books, magazine, web site and also videos about this series. And i will feel like heaven if i can collect some meaningful quotes from the series, i will take the quote as my life inspiration.lol..
Our server still not ok, its on and off, so i cant load the picture, its really troubling me. This is the list of my favourite TV series, that everytime its on air, i always hope the series will never have ending..
1. 3rd Watch
Its a story about Paramedic, NYPD Police and Firefighter squad. Everyday is like a battle of war for them. This series tell us how they fight with their job, family conflict and their life.Its about friendship, honesty and love.
2. The Apperentice
No need to tell more about this, all about how to impress Mr. Donald Trump. I like this r
To all American Soldier 2006-09-18 05:44:00
To all american Soldier..
Who still on Iraq and Afghanistan battle. I know how bad you want to back home. To see the people that you love. To eat your mom's cooking and to hug your children..or you love one.
I can feel your pain, your tears in loneliness. Everyday you wake up with sounds of fire and cries. Without nobody know your own cry and fire in your heart.
You are a normal humanbeing, who have heart to feel sadness and happiness. But nobody care, if you miss your family so damned much. Because you are an American
Soldier, who have to fight not for your own country. You are train to be hard and bold, but they failed to change you become a robot.
You have a soul, that i believe every soul have an angel.
Become a soldier and make your family, and country proud of you. That what you are doing now. Without your concious, you had give your life to your stupid President. He is the one that make your live like a hell.
Become a hero, is every tough guy's dream, including you.
But remem
Peace Train.. 2006-09-16 08:39:00 World is for us to share, please make world as our PeaceTrain
. Peace Train is a song from Cat Steven, its not only his hope, but all human..us, hope that our world is always in peaceful.This is the place we work, life and survive. Why we have to offence to others? Why we have to be rude? And why we have to be cruel?Do we have another planet to live? Its still in research that..maybe human can live at Mars, but the earth is still the only place for us.Last nite news, Vatican Pope had insult moslem from entire world,with his negative statement about moslem.More on news.He is a religion leader, he suppose to be beware on what ever he does. But he potrayed all christians as a group who hate moslem and never respect others. Will this can make our life better?Please respect each other!Our world is old enough with all human conflict, we have to life and share. Be matured! rational and tolerance!
Afraid.. 2006-09-14 06:26:00
I have instinct that he no longer read my blog. Thats ok.
Am afraid..
I start care about him and thinking about him.
Am afraid...
That i start to feel that i need him.
Am afraid.....
If he just like other people...who come and go
I'll be forgotten without they realised...i never ..forget.
The Apprentice 5:Money or religion? 2006-09-13 10:01:00
I am a bit busy for past few days.And yesterday i went to a course that i suppose not to go. Its a course about our VSAT technology that provide by our goverment to all school at rural area. I had went this course last year, but i am the one who incharge about ICT at our school so am afraid if they have any new information that i have to know, luckily i bring with me my apprentice..hehe, i mean a teacher that interested about ICT but not incharge on this part now, i will appoint him if i am moving to another school. This course really gave him an early expose about my job.
Talking about Apprentice
, its remind me about The apprentice season 5, who not know about this programme...Welcome to earth!
The were a few characters that gain my attention on this new season, there is Tarek,Lee, Brent and Bryce.
Tarek was defined as immoral but intelligent person by Donal Trump.Lee an obedient Jewish, Brent is an icon to all fat man,and Bryce a good and totally honest man that will never succes Read more:Money
What make me happy? 2006-09-09 04:38:00 1. Be with my nephews and nieces..i love their smile and sometimes their sulking face. I dont know, i love children..i feel the happiness when i with them and teasing them. Rub their head..tickling till they laugh and let them beat me then i can pretend that it hurt so much and sometimes they will apologize because they afraid that i am really hurt. And of course i like to do anything that will make they laugh ..like heaven. I love to kiss them, even they hate me when i doing that, their soft skin comfort my heart.
2. Looking at my nieces and nephew's photos..expecially when my nephews start to act like a 'macho guy'.
3. When i am eating my favourite foods..thats really a happy moment to me. I have a long list of favourite foods and cooking..
4. A moment with my siblings is so precious for me, they complete my life.
5. When my students laugh on my humour or joke.
6. When i can sit freelly infront of online computer like now. I can sit for 24hours without eat or drink..if i have a ch
Server down..am down!! 1970-01-01 00:59:59 So many thing to write..unfortunately our Education Ministery server that maintain by Jaring was totally down for temporary (that we never know when it will start working in normal situation) for the whole country.I only have about 5- 7 minutes before my friend fetch me, i at our small town, pay our electrict bill and bought some foods stock for our home.i had decide to apply transfer to my hometown on next year, its happened after so much thing happened to me on my last holidays..(angah you know what i mean)..hahahso please miss me..because i will miss u like crazy...
World.. 1970-01-01 00:59:59 World seems not on my side this week.And maybe for ther next two months..I want to choose to be happy, i just cant. Please..give me unlimited strengh!! Give me a heart that hard as a stone. Read more:World
Will i moving? 1970-01-01 00:59:59 will i have a courageuos to face a new situation?This is the main question that turn up in my mind everytime i thinking to apply transfer to my hometown.its been 3 years and 6 months am teaching at Sabah. That mean i am qualify to apply transfer to anywhere i want. Only the process to approve will need a time, depends on our Education Minister mood and also on our politics or environment situation. Sounds complicated..Yes, its beyond what you can imagine. Some teachers said, when u apply a transfer,its like you jump to a battle of war.Its depends on your luck.Success in 1st apply is not imposibble.The first battle for me, is to decide.Transfer school often happened in my life,as a student. My parents was a goverment service, transfer to other state is normal when you got a promotion or maybe on your own choice.I had study in 5 different schools, in 3 states.Two school with a lot of bitter memory, one school had where my best childhood memory was kept, and others..mmm..not have any memo
Will be .. 1970-01-01 00:59:59 I will be busy with oral test for English subject for entire month, and also key in marks for the past monthly test, and..and...and i have to prepare our examination questions for this final exam.Thanks to Allah..all this works make me forget about the sad thing that i have to face.
Puzzle on Eidulfitri 1970-01-01 00:59:59 Remember about my first crush?I met him yesterday. We have some small gathering with my schoolmate, to celeberated eidul fitri. He inform me that he will marry on March next year, and he really hope that i will come on his wedding ceremony. I just smiled and said that i cant promise, even he told that he will try to choose a date on school break, that he thought i always back to hometown. I not promised anything to him, just said if i back home, then i will come, but i not planning to back home for this moment.He look at my face in full of hope, but just nodded and know he cant say anything.I really happy to meet some other friends, we chat and laugh together, some of my friends bring along their childs and teasing some of us who still single, they said we should marry as fast as possible. And he announce that he will marry next year, with someone that we not know, am shocked when he said, at past he want to marry me, but i refused!!!!Stupid!! He never said anything about this at past! Read more:Puzzle
Hard fate.. 1970-01-01 00:59:59 This 2 weeks am a bit busy about eidul fitri and courses about data for my school. Even this week i cant attend 2 important programme at my school. Visual Art week (that i am the one who suppose to incharge), and Parents teachers meeting. I have to away from school, work with our data system at Education District Office, and today will attend a course at Sandakan.Last night i got message from a best friend. He will marry next week, with a girl that he never love or even know. Its family arrangement. The sad thing, is he have someone that he love, a girl that his family dont want to accept as their -in-law-.I asked him to give a words to his family, give him marry with someone he love, or he will leave his country. But he said he cant do that, his dad have heart attack, and he cant take that risk for the sake of his father. He said, he and his lover, had decide that they will not marry.Maybe some of you will said that i am a devil because of my suggestion. Look, will you happy if you k
Sad news 1970-01-01 00:59:59 I got a bad news for this week, one of my student was suspend from next year registration. He is excellent student, and our hope to become top student for Junior High school exam (PMR). I almost have an argument with one of our senior assistant. On early year, this student had broke one of school's rule incindentally. He had been punished and i thought it was over. The senior assistant denied all my reason to not suspend him. And i know now that i am only ordinary teacher.To make it worst, his parents cant accept that their innocent (most of the time for me) son had break the school's rule (i cant write it here, its in mandotari case, but its happened because of misunderstanding..). Thats embarassing them, and maybe drop out from school is the best way. I am away from school because of a course, so i just pray may Allah make his parents heart soft and change their mind.In my heart i know that he should not deserved this suspendsion.This year class photo...i will miss all of my studen
End of school days 2006 1970-01-01 00:59:59 Good bye my childrens..I will waiting for all of you on next yearMay all of you have a good holidaysMay all of you have a cheer momentsNo more schoolworksNo more escape from school..for a whileDont be sad..For those who have this day as a last day at school..This place will keep all the good memories..All of you have our hope and prayTo walk on this lifeDont ever give up...Dont be bad..Keep the happy memory in your mindThrow the sadness..You will be strongMay Allah bless all of youWherever you are..wherever you go..You always my child
School Awards day in memory 1970-01-01 00:59:59 I only attended one SchoolAwards
in my school old days. Thats because i got 'A' in computer examination at primary school. Only that day..that i can tell to my grandchildrens..in future. I am ordinary kid, i not excellent in academic, so school awards day was not one of important day for me..in my life as a school student.But, being a teacher, this day will be a busy day for me. To arrange students and all sort of protocol things or decoration stuff..ahhh..i hate decoration thing! Luckily we got alot of assists from students. This year i am the MC so i not have a lot of work, accept to let my self calm when i am in charge.This is the second time our school held a School Awards day. This year, this day a bit meaningful for me, when one of my student got 7 awards in his achievements for 7 subjects. I love my possesion as form teacher. The feeling is like proud of your own children!Looking at the photos, i know this day will be a day that they will never forget. I wish i was on their
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