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Between.. 2008-01-31 01:43:00 Between the pressure of assignments and tense of schedule of classes, we managed to find a time to hanging out together and enjoy our course.Last weekend, the first idea is to find a petshop, I wanted to find a friend for Momo. Remember Pempotron had gave me a pair of Pearl White Hamster?Sad to say that one of them died accidentally when the hose of cage broke.Just the day before I bring them to my hostel.Thats how, I am trying to find a new hamster to accompany the one that left. We called the left one as Momo.What I found was something so disappointed. The Ipoh petshop owner is unfriendly, and most of the shop that I went is disorganized and not really clean.After the frustration, suddenly we decided to went to Lumut, Batik bay.Guess whose shoes is strange than others?We have our own bea
Dream comes true.. 2008-03-11 10:36:00 Hi, I safely arrived at home on about 3.15 p.m, after 5 hours journey. I drove my car, with my sister car in front of mine.lol. She have to work at Malacca this week.Its almost midnight and Syafiqa , my niece is waiting for me to sleep with her.Can't write much.Somebody had seducing me, hahah.. seducing me to buy a teddy bear. With rm10 in my pocket, how can I buy the one that I dream of. That person said, I can make a loan with interest 10% per day.Hahah..I will pay, someday...of course without that interest.I choose the first teddy bear, from left.In my mind, hmmm there are many persons who are sensible to me..thanks..all of you, I wish i can give a big hug for you, all of you.Those who help me, give me a call when I am confused, those who always help me to arrange my life, those who bul Read more:Dream
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Whats in your bookshelf? 2008-03-14 10:23:00 My mom had renovated our house that is the kitchen and our floor, thus i had to re-arrange my stuff in the bookshelf. Throw it out from garbage plastic,hohoho, then had to sort it again (remember that I just transfered from Sabah, I had arrange my belonging last year, sort it again is not my pleasure).However, the satisfaction when looking at clean and orderly stuff is a great sigh for me.All this stuff is something that I collect when I work at Sabah. Its only can categorize with two section, cds and books.Most of the non-academic books that I have, is non-fiction books about person who was abused when they are a child. Don't ask me why, its start from Sleepers by Lorenzo Carcaterra, that I bought at 17, and then I become addicted on this kind of non-fiction books.Post secret, the only p
Rest.. 2008-03-14 09:58:00 Had sleep all evening, just woke up. Arrived Ipoh on 2 pm I think, feel tired even my sister did the driving 3/4 of the journey.Finish reading a book "Tell me why,mum" by David Thomas, less than a day.Got text message from my roomate, reminds me about assignment that we suppose to find some sources. Suddenly I feel blank and ignorance, what the hell of those things..Ohh..relax..calm down, I just need a rest. Rest from this world.Actually I just angry of myself, how can I forgot that I should bring the essays of my students as my assignment. Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!! forgetful and procrastinator, thats my middle name.Forgive me as I have sin..
For those who I care.. 2008-03-18 19:53:00 In this life (heck..like i have other life elsewhere), I always appear as ignorant and cold person. I never know how to express my self if I have to comfort or show that I care of someone. I envy for people who can express themselve easily. I even don't know how to act if I feel hurt or angry, I will remain silent. To make it worst, I know when people lie on my face, especially people who close with me, I know most of them lie because they don't want to hurt me, and its okay (no..no..its not an entry about somebody had lie to me..),the problem is I don't know how to act or to show my feeling, and its killing me.I will only explode when, I no longer can hold the feeling, and sometimes, its happen on the wrong trigger.Despite of the anger and negative feelings, I wish I can show to people th
Happy birthday Mr.Dave 2008-03-20 19:49:00 Last wednesday we celeberated Deva''s birthday, one of our coursemate.The only single guy in our class..lol. We forced him to wear a party hat, its look funny..but sweet.AT first, he refused and said what 38 years old guy will looks like with this hat..haha. The birthday cakeThe present giving, Mrs Parameswari, one of our lecturer, she teach us two subjects, Remedial(how to teach slow learner students course) and Project Base Learning (Learning constructing on using ICT) Mr. Dev with his hat and the present. All of us without me and Kak Fish. Some people ask why I don't want to be in the picture, my answer is, this world is so beautiful without me..lol.About the photo, its my mistake that I switch off the flash and red eyes option. Hmm..I still learning.Hey, if your friend want to celebrat Read more:Happy
The one and only 2008-03-23 20:48:00 I wanted to post about this entry since last week, but so much thing that had bother me and the Wifi playing silly again.I am bored with all this tiring assignment, and I started worried about whether I can survive this semester and make it for the second semester, and success on completing this course.This weekend, I end up this boredom with playing the sims 2, started my imagination about a a family again.Hahaha.Hmm, last 2 weeks, I had bought a watch, a special hand made by genuine crystal and beads, its cost me rm 165. I remember when I worked at Sabah, this kind of accessories is in good demands, and I always wish I have a watch that made by this crystal things. The last time I wore a watch is about 4 or 5 years ago. Affect by low water quality when I worked at isolated area at Sabah,
Bowling and a guy 2008-03-24 22:06:00 My two friends addicted on bowling!On last weekend, we played bowling for two days in a row, and I never win over them, infact I never win when it comes to play bowling (ever I become a winner on anything? hmm ..).Despite of calm my self and take the loss as a funny thing, I keep watching an old guy that play bowling alone, next to our lane. He is an expert. Hit strikes almost all the time, spare on several time. In early 50ties I think, or late 40ties.I wonder, will I in his situation when I am in his age..Did he don't have any friends that also like to play bowling? Is someone waiting for him at home?But, no doubt, he enjoying his own moment. Read more:Bowling
Phonetic..phonetic..bla..bla 2008-03-27 20:26:00 Every free time, whenever lecturer is not in our class, our life are control by this phonetic task. Five presentation, one of it is a proposal of our research that we have to do, other is more on micro teaching..also cram in our head, crawling in our brain.The due date is next week. The research, I only have the title, the presentation, I still thinking on the topic.Ohh..forgot, I still have another research on strategy to teach slow learner student. Damn!!God! Can you stop this world now!
Payday Leisure 2008-03-26 21:53:00 Yesterday..Strolled with my roomate (my darling) in Kinta City Jusco after take a nap when our class end on 1.30pm (recently, time ticking so fast and I feel that I never had enough for sleep)..Not planning to buy anything, but searching for some fine shoes, my high cut boot become tight (Ohhh..gosshh..not put some weight is okay for me but gain some weight is disaster wargghh).Manage to bought a shoes, I almost buy a Hush Puppies shoes that cost rm300++, haha..don't worry, one day I will grab that shoes.A casual shoes. rm 169 become my choices, its not really men's shoes looks like (even it is actually a men's shoes...haha), it will look nice when I wear Baju Kurung.Using unstable WiFi i have to use blogger photo uploader instead of upload the picture by Picturetrail.com, which better tha Read more:Payday
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Boulevard of Broken dream-Green Day 2008-03-25 23:00:00 I walk a lonely roadThe only one that I have ever knownDon't know where it goesBut it's home to me and I walk aloneI walk this empty streetOn the Boulevard
of Broken
DreamsWhere the city sleepsand I'm the only one and I walk aloneI walk aloneI walk aloneI walk aloneI walk a...My shadow's the only one that walks beside meMy shallow heart's the only thing that's beatingSometimes I wish someone out there will find me'Til then I walk aloneAh-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Aaah-ah,Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ahI'm walking down the lineThat divides me somewhere in my mindOn the border lineOf the edge and where I walk aloneRead between the linesWhat's f***ed up and everything's alrightCheck my vital signsTo know I'm still alive and I walk aloneI walk aloneI walk aloneI walk aloneI walk a...My shadow's the only one that Read more:Green
, Green Day
Uncle Lee and Margaret come to the town! 2008-03-30 19:08:00 Today..Most of our lecturer is busy with college event, I am not in the mood to do the assigment, after shocked to be informed by our ICT lecturer that we have to submit our project next week..also!!!! Arghhh...this course really kill me. I wish i can back in one piece in this May, as Pempotron had promised me that he will treat me a Sushi King when I back on that holiday..hahaha. I will kill him if he said he not remember that promise.But,Yesterday..Uncle
Lee came to Malacca with his wife, Margaret
. He is one of the bloggers..mm..we are the bloggers..lol. What a lovely day..but a lot of funny and distractful accidents, the chair(ooowshh..I don't know how to react!), the parking(I regret that I moved the car, I don't care if I get fine) and the greeting moment at hotel(haha..).The hotel, i
Wahaha!! 2008-04-01 18:56:00 Last night I caught one of my coursemate using her research when she took her degree at university as assignment that have to present today. She keep telling me that it is okay because it was her own work. I told her that it is unfair, I also can take my degree assignment if I want (i dont keep any of my assignment that I did on my degree time, thats why I am so jealous!).I grabbed her file, run and hide it on the top of my cupboard and locked my door. Hahahahaa...She knocked my door and begged for the file.I just laughed and said she have to offer something to get the file. My roomate giggle on her bed.Then I got an idea.."Iron my clothes for 7 days!""no way, please..."She is a good friend, and I start feel guilty for doing this to her.But i just laugh and lie on my bed shouting to her to
Different path. 2008-04-06 19:05:00 Okay enough about my stupid life.Last fortnight, at last, I went to my brother's small mushroom farm. Its in a hut actually.He was so happy and proud showing me his work. Pity on him, I know nothing about his topic, and not have much interest on it.Looking at him, I always avoid to think what will happen in his future, as I never care about mine. I know he had make a plan and seems determined with his plan.Sometimes it make me thinking, why his life was so hard? His fate is different than mine, he have to face all the thing that I am afraid of. But he is still alive and live bravely and even happily.How stupid that I always thinking of suicide when I cannot handle my emotion. Fortunately I still survive.And sometimes, he is the reason why I still survive. He always told me.."Life is hard,
I am bored 2008-04-05 09:04:00 I am bored.I am bored..I am bored...I am bored....I wonder..if i can remember what can make me happy at past...I cannot remember any of that ..in this moment.
For those who think... 2008-04-05 07:55:00 YOU ARE GOOD ENOUGH!!Its sad that you have no friends..Its sad that we talk on your back..Its funny that you start pick on me..like I care?Its funny that you desperately need an attention..If you win, believe me you will make more harm to yourself..If you lose its because of your sins..Ohhh...lot of sins..ohh..lots of foes..Ohhh..lots of faces..Yeah..for those who think
they are good enough..*I found this poem in A bed times story book, I wonder why they create such a sarcastic poem for children nowadays..its so relevant with adult out there..
A regret.. 2008-04-05 07:32:00 I know, I admit, I confess...I become bad and bad...Sometimes I regret that I transfered from Sabah to my hometown, and now being trapped in this bloody KSPK TESL course.Few days ago, one of my friend SMS me and ask me why I am silence like I never remember all my friends at Beluran, Sabah. And she told me how she started suffer after I and my housemate transfer to our hometown.For God sake, they will shocked if they know who I am now.I am no longer an angel and soft hearted person like they know me before.My soul is belong to hell now. Even I still wish, heaven will keep a tiny space for me.I transfer to Malacca with a hope that I will be close with my family, its not happen, with a hope that my relation with him will strengh, we broke up last year, with a hope I can teach computer on my
The Mr. Sarcastic 2008-04-07 22:20:00 He is one of our lecturer, and he is supervisor for our (me and my roommate)Special Project course. He is the busiest, there is some weeks that he can't enter our class because he had an official work at Students Affair Department. On that time, yes, most of us miss him.He is the inventor of 'PM' word, thats mean 'Padan Muka' (you deserved it), when we keep complaining that we are stress with a lot of assignment.We like the way he shared his knowledge with us. And sometimes we laughed at back on the the way he pronounce 's', he can't pronounce it properly.Stress is not in his class, he can make fun on every unexpected things. Its amusing.Early of this week, he asked me how about our short notes for the Special Project, spontaneous I answer.. "in progress"He laughed and give some nag.Thanks
Do you know... 2008-04-07 20:47:00 Do you know how much I care of you? Do you know how I wish I will always beside you and calm you when you hurts by others.Its hurts when this life tore you apart, killed a beautiful angel in your soul.Do you remember the song.." Better Man", the song that inspired my journey in this life. I still need that song ..Every soul have an angel...I still believe on that.I miss your smile..
Entry number 380 2008-04-09 22:01:00 Ahhh...I had finished the first presentation, and it will be two more in this month. Mmmm... I am in the library now..that I rarely do.In my mind now, I am thinking how this life had created a lots of magnificient things, life is full of secret that waiting fro us to reveal the cloak of the darkness.5 years ago, if I choose to teach Science instead of English (Science?? my Science teacher will get heart attack and die straight away if he know that somebody had asked me to teach Science) This blog will never appear. I will never come to this course. One reason to come here is to know the proper way to teach english, but what make me determined to submit the online form, is another thing, that thing I will keep as secret, for the rest of my life ..I think. Ask any person who close with me, t Read more:Entry
Two face 2008-04-11 11:21:00 When I did the Super villain quiz, my result is the Two Face. I am not shocked at all. All the personality quiz will mention that I have split identity, or I have hidden identity. Thus, two face supervillain is nothing for me, just a bit sad, why all those psychologist analyze person like me with this image.They neither not wrong nor totally correct.Yes, I have other anonymous blog and other mysterious identity in internet ..hahahahahahahahahahahah! Bwahahaaahahahahhaaa...duhh..like I have a lot time in my life to create all this thing.Actually I am not really realize about how bad this thing happened to me, until one friend told me that I am so different in class to compare on who I am at our hostel.At hostel, sometimes, I can become the joker and happily sing on the top of my voice, and
Today questionare 2008-04-10 20:59:00 1. Who was the last person to call youbaby? my roomate at university 2. When shopping at thegrocery store, do you return your cart?yes, most of the time when I am in good mood3. Are You Single,or taken? single.. 4. Has someone eversang a song to you? my roomate at this hostel where I stay now.5. Doyou play Sudoku? Know how to play but hate it because it have a lots of numbers6. If abandoned alone in the wildernesswould you survive?for a few days maybe.18. If your house was on fire, whatwould be the first thing you would do?Will scream ..arghhhhh.... 19. Who was the lastperson you shared a bed with? My niece20. Who do you text themost? my best friends. 21. Who last saidthey loved you? Never. 22.What colorare your eyes? Brown.23. Do u want anything now?Yes, i hope that person will know what Read more:Today
Lupin:My disable notebook. 2008-04-13 18:58:00 Went to PC Fair this weekend, and had completed my disable notebook. my friends bought a super woofer base speaker, yeah we had a wild party last night..haha.Now its about my notebook..After almost 3 years this Lupin (its has name..haha) had worked with me in full heart. He had been upgraded twice, from 512mb DDR 1 RAM, now its became 768mb RAM, weird figure for a RAM yeah. Its happened when I upgraded at the computer shop that only have one quantity of 256 RAM for DDR 1 and I am on rushed on that day,which on that time, I still worked at Sabah and I have to catch flight to my hometown for holiday.From 20GB hard disk memory spaces, now its has 80GB memory spaces.I tried to upgrade the graphic card, but I can't do that. The graphic card of notebook cannot be upgrade..yuck.Once, it has using
Ray: New hamster 2008-04-15 19:58:00 Someone, a stranger actually, had gave a hamster
for me. She said they didn't dare to use this hamster as their experiment in their Science Lab.Thus, I am the one who can provide a shelter to this tiny animal.I let him alone in glass tank.My friends complaining he is not cute as Brad Pit and Pempot, then at night, when we are busy with our assignment, I took this tiny creature,put on a chair, and all of us watch him, slowly recover from the deepression, start playing his wheel.."Ray" Baby called him..Yes, they start calling him ..Ray.Then we noticed that he is adorable, only still afraid to let us to touch him.A peek of his cute face.
Glasses story 2008-04-15 04:20:00 Mr Sarcastic had told us, he had bought his glasses about rm700+ long time ago, I just silent and smile while others sigh "oohh" and "wooo" sound.If they just know how much my recent glasses that I wear, cost me.Its Rm900+.And I not really remember how long I had using this recent glasses, as I had changes my glasses a few times. All because my clumsiness.Four time, if I am not mistaken. All broke accidentally by my fault.The early two glasses it just a low quality glasses, yeah I am 19 years old when I start wearing a glasses permanently. I was identified with far-sighted at secondary school, 16years old on that moment, but I refused to wear a glasses (I remember how my elder brother take an effort to bring me to optical shop at Jalan Hang Tuah), for me glasses is only wear by the geeks i Read more:Glasses
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Z, in memory. 2008-04-16 19:28:00 Saturday, last saturday..Around 8.00 o'clock. My cellphone woke me up."Hello" I still blur and sleepy. Listen to somebody on the phone.I almost can't recognize the voice, seriously."Its me, Z, here" answered that guy when I keep asking whose on the phone. I still blur.Then, my mind started to worked hard. Ohhh...hahah. Z, a guy that younger one year than me, 7 years ago, we had been friend like a siblings. He used to be depended on me to solve his problems, study, works and his girlfriend relation problems. Then he started flirting me when I worked at Sabah. Yes, we had one year of special relation.He end up this relation by cheating on me. But we still contact on and off, life goes on as we grow up and trapped in our adult phase."I heard you met with an accident""Duh.....its long..long
Am I sarcastic? 2008-04-18 08:29:00 First episode:One of my friend had married, last year, and had transfered from Sarawak to Johor Bharu. I only know about that from her message on my friendster. Then I texting her and said I feel like I have to kill somebody on that day.I used to call her on every school holiday, only on last December am too busy with my life and forget to contact her.Then she call my cellphone."Hi, Nani, am sorry, my parents arrange the marriage for me..bla..bla"My only answer was.."How you can still remember my name?"Second episode:In my class, we only have 2 male participant, one is Deva the nice guy, the other one is Dato' M the silent politician.Dato' M is our Assistant Class Monitor. Dato' M, is a bit lay back person, he not really aware on anything that happen to our course. Today, our Monitor have
The shadow 2008-04-19 11:23:00 28 years old.I only get my self, 10 years ago. Yes, 10 years ago, I had decided to unlocked myself from the prison that I build since a long time ago.I had been through many nightmare, many bitter memory. I had trust many wrong person. And I had been live in cursed since I am 8 years old. My soul had been broken, shattered in pieces since that moment.Before I entered university...I had live in the shadow, for a long time.I am fragile, the scar never fade.10 years, I build my self, I gathered the pieces. I created a shield around me. i swear will never allow myself to see the shadow again.But, today, someone had remind me about the shadow that actually never leave me. I had been trapped again, in unmerciful hand. I am in pain. All the sorrowful return to the place that I had hide and buried
Tempoyak and Tasik Raban 2008-04-19 06:08:00 Tempoyak, its a mixture of durian and sugar. I am addicted on it since I live at Sabah. Haha..no, you never can find tempoyak in Sabah's Tamu (day market). At Sabah, I live with roomates that come from Perak. They smuggled Tempoyak from Perak to Sabah. Tempoyak is one of forbidden stuff on board. And there was one occasion which my friend had succeed to received Tempoyak by post.Haha..its a miracle.Now, living at Ipoh, as one district of Perak, tempoyak is something that I can get easily. Expecially on durian season.My mom had tried to made a tempoyak, but as Malaccan and she never addicted in Tempoyak, she failed in her trial. Ask me, as never good in cooks, of course making a Tempoyak just can be one of my sweet dream at night.Tasik Raban Restaurant is one of famous restaurant at Ipoh. A
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