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Me againts the world! 1970-01-01 00:59:59 Today we just had a staff meeting. Some advise from my boss, a bit sarcastic for me. Even she not mentioned my name but as sensitive person, its make me sad.Look, i am a teacher who addicted to internet. Every free time, i will stucked on my desk, in front of my notebook. Blogging and searching about web hosting, is always my routine. She noticed that i am the extremely active internet school user. Some of my collegues, also always talk behind or even infront of me that sometimes they cant talk to me because i am busy with internet. Look, i have a weakness, i cant focus in more than one task, and i believe every person have a weakness. The problem is why they choose to talk to me when i am working with my notebook? If they really want to talk to me, please ask me politely and i will have a time for them. Dont just talk like i have another ear at my back. Once someone had angry with me and ask me what am doing with that 2 ears? I dont know who stupid on this case..I not neglect my work
I'm home..darling! 1970-01-01 00:59:59 At last, am home!I will stay at my sis's home for the rest of this month! Will play with the little strawberry princess and will fight with little computer geniuse who used to be a boxer.Cant write more, because that little man start want to grab this notebook.they have one something in common, they love cats! Read more:darling
What a wonderful life! 1970-01-01 00:59:59 Dont have to work..(mm yes have some marks to analyse,but its holidays dude!). Wake up when the kids calling me (my sister's kids..not mine! am still single yah..dont misunderstanding!), so i know their mom want to go work. Listen to my sister about the house chores before she leave. Make sure Najid wearing his pampers if he had took a bath, or make sure he take a bath with his sister, Iqa. Let them play at bathroom, let them yell and scream happily, while i surfing on Internet, waiting for my sister to buy a breakfast. Then i doing the laundry, after i make sure the kids wearing a fine clothes.Afterwards, they jump to the notebook and computer, playing internet games. Take any foods at the kitchen if they yell that they want to eat or Najid want his milk...Other than that. I will cradle on the bed beside their computer. Just like the cat..Tompok:The white garfield.What a wonderful life!
For a friend 1970-01-01 00:59:59 I know you are grievingI know you in sadnessIts a hard timeThat you thought you will be lostYou taught me about loveYou taught me about perseveranceYou taught me about this wonderful lifeYou show me about sincerityTomorrow should be a moment that meaningful to youBlessing and happinessJas,Please make her happy..Allah will give you happiness..You are special personYou touch many people lifeAs you inspired my lifeLife is full of puzzleMay you will find the pieces that will complete your lifeMay Allah bless you, wherever you are, wherever you goa friend
that i will never forget,a sweet memory, a life..
Decision! 1970-01-01 00:59:59 If you don't decide where you're going, life will decide for you. -Tim AllenThis is an amazing phrase for me.In my life, making decision is something that i always avoid. I am extremely not a risk taker. I always let other people decide for me, or for everything i do. Even in simple thing like what i have to wear on some event or even just for going work!So i hope some of you can imagine how hard for me to making a decision for my life. I remember how i had to make a long distant call to ask my sister , what course i have to take on degree course. Its a big decision that i should take by myself, because nobody understand me more than i am. Looking back, i really grateful that i took a course that i really have interest on that, how if i just throw a dice to make that decision? and was fate to take a wrong course? Maybe i will commit suicide.This 26 years, life had decide for me.
A rainy day.. 2008-03-10 06:06:00 Tomorrow, maybe will be a history of my life.Its a rainy day today..its heavy rain actually. My sister get heavy fever, and we had canceled our plan to back to our hometown, Malacca, today.We went to clinic, and she got 2 days MC. Its first time for me also, drive a car thats not mine. She so weak and cannot drive.The kids and I have to wait in my sister's car. They keep teasing each other, and Najla love their laughed. If she still not recover from fever tomorrow, I have to drive to Malacca by my own. Inever drive on highway by my alone. And I still not recognize the road that I should taken. I have a strong instinct that one day, I must try to drive alone on Highway. Only Allah know, maybe tomorrow is the day that I waiting for.
Exploring.. 2008-03-09 01:26:00 I'm exploring my new camera since yesterday. I found we can get a better photo if we adjust the light and scene..mmm I am so new about it.Bringing this camera when we went shopping, and made my sister's kids as the models,lol.Their life is like in heaven when their mom with them, Najid, have a lot of smile with his angel around him.This is the best photo for this time being, look on the reflection of Brad Pit. He is so small if I compare him with Pempot.My cellphone, Nokia 6680, the device that I used to captured photos to my blog. Satisfy with this photo after adjusting of the lighting and focus. I am still a beginner.Today, I am still sleepy after sleep only at 4.oo am to watched the Election Result, its worthy anyway. Read more:Exploring
What a suprise!! 2008-03-07 10:13:00 My sister back from China last night. She gave a plastic that contained a box. She said its a surprised for me. Seriously I not guessing anything. But when I open the plastic and looked on the box, my hand was shivering excitedly, and open the box quickly.Its a Nikon camera digital P50 8megapixel..goshhhhhh!!!Snapped using my cameraphone.This is one of the first picture...Brad Pit, my new hamster...Thanks a lot my angel!
Dream..dream 2008-03-06 21:52:00 dream is free, so keep dreaming..yes..lolWhat's your dream?I want a huge teddy bear.I keep dreaming of it. Thats all.lol.If others dreaming on become rich and beautiful,own a house or whatsoever.But for today, I only dream of it. Every year, I wish I get a teddy bear as my birthday present, but never get it.This year, I want to buy it for my own.I don't care.lol.
Something about me 2008-03-06 09:35:00 PART 1~You're well known as;Hmm quite hard, those who not close with me call me a brutal girl. Those who close with me call me an emotional queen.~Born?> M'siaPART 2(Have you ever...)~ Fallen off the bed?yes,once, from a double decker bed, i am on the top bunker.~ Broken someone else's heart?Nope~Had your heart broken?Yes, many..many times~Had a dream come true?Yes, most of my dream..PART 3(CURRENTLY...)~ Wearing?Shirt and hmm...~ Listening to/Washing machine sound~Chatting with?nobodyPART 4 -(DO YOU...)~Have any piercings?nope, but i want a tatoo on the top of my palm.Really want it.~ Drive?yes, now i learn to speed..more than 120~ Drink?wine, yeah,,in my dream~ Have a cellphoneNokia 6680PART 5(LAST PERSON YOU...)~ Hugged?My coursemate, a farewell to those who back home.~ Talked with on t
Fragile.. 2008-03-05 09:03:00 Some people look I am tough, and never have a tears in front of them.Even some of them said I am secretive and reserved.They are wrong.I am fragile, and vulnerable. I feel guilty for many unreasonable thing. I feel offenses for even a small thing. Many people said I am sensitive, emotional and irrational. I always have to regret on many thing that I have done. I hurt people before I think the consequences, ...many...many time. Some friends had gave up on me, and I never learn on why I losing them. In fact, I learn nothing.I keep hurt others and regret at the end of the day, just to realize, thats its too late to repair the damage.I know, I had a bad temper, I can kill people just because I fall from my bed in that morning. I shut my ears and heart and just focus on the depress feeling on m
Sometimes.. 2008-03-04 20:44:00 a hug, is all we need..All my course mate is counting days to back home for their holidays, 8-16 March. While I have an empty feeling on all about coming home.I have nothing to lostI have nothing to loveI have no shoulder to cry withI have no home to goI have nothing to hopeI am unwanted person... Read more:Sometimes
Almost.. 2008-03-03 11:08:00 its almost complete...look at this beautiful car..lol..its beautiful isn't it...denial is a sign of envy..Sorry its not go to car wash about 2 months, but look clearly..do you notice something?Yes, you are right, if you not a slow learner..lol. I had bought the viser and had tinted my car.Its almost complete..now.one day this car will be like this..or who knows? at least it will be like this..For this time being, its almost complete...for the basic.Its only a beginning... Read more:Almost
Violence at home 2008-03-01 19:34:00 As I take care of my sister's kids, sometimes this stuff happened,fortunately I am to tough for them.
Najid asked me to tear the snack packet, I am teasing him that I don't want to help him. He almost ran amuk.Lol.Syafiqah asked me wether I am tired on taking care of them, I told her, thats okay because I know 40 years from now, she is the first person that I will contact to take care of me. Taking care of them is a joys for me. The wonderful feeling is always there, when they jump and welcome me at their house, every time I arrived with my car and they will greet me at the gate. Its the only moment that I know that somebody need me to stay alive.. Read more:Violence
Cat in the room 2008-02-29 08:38:00 Inspired by Dr.Doom's blog.Early of this week, we had went to one of our lecturer apartment. Actually we just past by and look on the scenery that she always tell us at class, we not pay a visit at all to her,maybe next time.Even we use her name to enter the apartment area.W e just park our car and take a look on the swimming pool and the small garden that they have.And we met...This cat came to the playground with his owner, a guy in middle age. Along with other cat that his owner call Tiger. This cat name is Garfield. He is adorable!One of my friend really want to buy a cat since last month,a Persian hopefully,but we know the price of Persian is a bit high, so she just hold her dream while looking at cats in any Petshop that we went.Three days ago, suddenly, she bought a Persian cat with
Life's goes on.. 2008-02-27 19:55:00 Every roses have a thorns, life, have love and hate,honor and fightThe secret to living our best life is to give ourself permission to feel everything but do not get stuck in negative emotion.Miss Tan quote, in Emotional Intelligent Competencys class.What a lovely morning I have, even yes, my roomate got MC today, thats also means my Personal Assistant is take a leave for today. She complete my life here, she help me to prepare my stuff to class and remind me on everything that I may forget especially when it comes to our assignments and other important thing.This evening I will bring her to clinic to get further treatment.On the other hand, I got my WiFi fixed and the great thing is..The person that have problem with us from Students Affair Department had sent a letter of apologize as rep
Will I...? 2008-02-26 09:07:00 These few days, I keep thinking of quiting this course. I came to this course and sacrifice my dream, to put a new dream in my life. To do something that I always think it is impossible for me to do.The agreement document between our course and government still not in process. I can, if I want to quit.In my life, there are many time that I deny my chances.I know and I admit without guilty, that I am not good in English. Then, five years of teaching it, I start to fall in love with this subject. Thats why, I am here, in this course.Trouble with the proficiency and with the never ending assignments...goshh..make me thinking so many times...was my choice betray me?Googling about picture of 'Quit', suddenly I stuck with the picture above. It remind me of the same condition of 10 years ago, whe
Herry.. 2008-02-24 01:45:00 Herry with bubble's pipe, bubbles..one of my wonderful memory.He will going back to Sarawak today. And I know, the possibility to meet him again is asking for something miracle.This lanky young guy is my friend's students. He come here to spent his holidays, from last December. I not have chance to spend much time with him, communication is another barrier for us. I not really understand, his malay is mixture with his Sarawakian language.Beside, silence person, make him a bit reserved.I still remember his sheepish smile when he ask me to treat him an ice cream at Tesco.Looking at him, a 17 years old teenager, I know he had gone through a hard life. Living at desolated rural area make him tough and extremely humble.A naive, innocent guy.What will you be in 10 years? Will you survive in this
Salmon Grill and babysit 2008-02-23 20:58:00 It was the most perfect Salmon Grill
that I can cooked.lol. Before this Salmon that I cook will be not in perfect condition to eat when it become meal.I am a lousy cooks, I don't know how to cook.So what!!Lol..Pity my sister's kids.. have to eat this Salmon Grill, they said its a bit salty.lol.Too much seasoning maybe..Najla, the baby, have a fever since yesterday. Its so pity for her, how the frustration, when she open her eyes and look for someone to pat her, the only person that come, is me. Not an angel that she waiting for.Sometimes, I just strokes her back gently, I can feel how warm her body, ohh..how I wish I have the magic hand that can sooth her fever. How her tiny feet cold in warmness.Several time I have to give her medicine, and its not easy for me and her. In other hand, her
Lone ranger, am I? 2008-02-22 08:01:00 I will be babysit my sister's kids on this weekend. This afternoon, all my course mates drive to their home. Leaving me alone, in hostel block. In my pocket, I only have rm30, lucky me, my roomate give me some loan, otherwise, I will only have rm10 in my pocket.Haha..thats okay, next monday is payday,nothing to worry.Play with my hamsters while cleaning their aquarium, ahh..will leave them alone for couples days.Put each of them in hamster ball, Pempot expert in this game,while Brad Pit a bit slow, slow learner, maybe.lol.RM30...what will I do, while waiting for my sister to back from her work?I am alone, with my self. I sang aloud along the way to Jaya Jusco, alone in my car , play my cd player on as loud as I can.I conquer the world!Reached at Jaya Jusco, and cinema was the first come ac
O...world! 2008-02-20 01:27:00 Driving car to academic hall is not allowed to those who stay at hostel, it become a big issue for us now, compare to General Election outside there. Oh..and I will vote nobody this year, I am tired of those stupid politician and politic itself now, I even don't care if Aliens from Mars want to attack this world.My life is getting hard now...1. The wifi connection at college it getting worst, and they not announce any information about that.2. Language Learning Development subject become tougher to me, even it just the beginning, this subject had already cracked my head.Sometimes, I think all that grammar is really stupid thing that kill me, always.Its so dry and complicated..like hell!3. Our class/unit have a problem with Students Affair Department, its because of one person in that depar
Happy Valentines! 2008-02-14 20:29:00 We exchanging gift for celebrating this day, among us.And had our dinner at Pizza Hut.our dinner..We accept this day only as a friendship day.. Read more:Happy
, Valentines
Sweet day.. 2008-02-11 09:32:00 He came at the late evening to give me a memory card for my mobile phone. We have a nice chat together, while eating Nasi Lemak Kukus.Its really sweet, a sweet day. I only remember the nice talk that we have. That moment made all the pain in my heart, faded. Like that those black days never happen. Thanks to Allah, to give me this nice moment again.Thanks..thanks...thanks ..a lot...We talk like nothing had happened to us, like we never broke up.But its okay, I dont mind.Its really a sweet moment..really.Yes, thats him.The one and only.Sorry, I will never put his photo here, he is so precious, no matter what had happened to me or both of us.And..I just back from Tesco with my friends Pempotron, Bumbleebe and Herry. There was a new model of our National car, display, and we are not impressiv Read more:Sweet
My wishlist.. 2008-02-10 04:24:00 I really want to buy..Number one..Ovo pad habitrail cage for hamster. Yes, Pempotron I am jealous with ovo that you bought! The problem is..this kind of cage is hard to find, except if you buy online.Its..so cute!!The complete ovo..
Never.. 2008-02-08 11:11:00 I know your life is hard lately, I just know, dont tell me that I am wrong. God gave a gift that I can see people beyond the face. I even sometimes can feel if something bad will happen to me.I know its weird, and no body will believe me. But i dont care.Convince you to tell whats in your mind, is the last thing i will do. I respect privacy of your life, even i dont mind to share mine with you. Thats my weakness, easy to trust other people.I never regret that, i used to be the bad egg and the black sheep before, and i dont mind if its happened again.I am the negative side of this world.I am silence, doesn't mean I am not thinking.I just want this life to take care of you.The best thing I have to do and I can do, is keeping my hand in my pocket.I love your funny way and I hate you when you
Me, as my self. 2008-02-07 06:48:00 Do you ever noticed that I am a bit boyish?Its not easy to write about this, as I always try my best to not write in detail who I am in this blog.Since I am a child, I will always be in group of boys. I am so easy to attach with them. I remember how my house will full of boys who came and visited at Idulfitri.They is not my brothers friends as my neighbor thought, they are my friends. Wherever I go, move to new school, a friends who close with me most, always a boys. Between that time to time, yes I had female friend, but its only come to one in a one time. A group of boys, still, and always be my friends.They accept me as another boy, or guy.We never have a heart feeling as between guys and girls. Maybe thats why, I really appreciate those guys who treat me as a lady, when I reach 20.I ne
Tears.. 2008-02-04 20:04:00 Tomorrow I will going back to Malacca for Chinese New Year holiday. I had promised Pempotron to watch cinema on this Wednesday,with Bumblebee,perhaps, hopefully we can make it.I just registered college Wifi, from today i can access internet from my class.This morning, I heard my friend scream from my room while i took a bath. Baby, she is a girl who really love pets, and if I thought I had pampered Pempot, she make it worse. I remember how I scolded her when she feeding Pempot with sunflower seeds that i kept in a bottle under my bed, sunflower seed is a bad diet for Pempot.She like to play with Momo and Pempot since i brought them to this college.She said, "Momo is dying".I checked Momo, and yes he is in a terrible condition. His back legs cannot move, and he have to crawl with his front Read more:Tears
My room..my space. 2008-02-03 20:27:00 Since I live by my own self at campus, I used to be live as simple as I can. I never dream to have complicated life. And work at Sabah, where I live as a wanderer, it make it worse. I only dream to have a small space of mine.Thats why I love to stay at hostel.And the best part in my room is..of course..my bed.lol.I had changed my bed sheet last weekend, its one of my favorite.Its pink. The only color that make me looks girlish.lolMy desk..where I put Momo and Pempot.I just wrapped my desk, i hate the wrapping task (i remember, at past when i studied at school, i hate to wrap my books, and my dad do that task.lol), my roomate gave me the wrapper, so i have no choice to keep my desk unwrap.These is all notes about my assignments..
He... 2008-02-03 08:04:00 He live in my breathHe live in my sadnessHe live in my dreamHe live in my joysHe make me heartlessHe gave me beautiful momentsHe give me unforgettable memoriesHe once, my special..Happy birthday..thanks..
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