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Everything is temporary 2007-01-15 04:34:00 Everything
is Temporary
Everyone, please take a moment to visit my roomie for the week, Blue Panther! His blog, The Blue Panther Experience is one of the very rare positive blog left on the blogsphere. He is also the creaive inventor of Blog Your Blessing happening every Sunday. Anyway, I have been lurking around his site so often lately and I think I shall add him permanently on my blogroll. Go visit him and leave him a comment or two ok;) For my other bidders, please bid again next time as it was not an easy choice for me to pick a tenant this week.
You will not believe that I have been having insomnia for the past few days. Yes. Me. Difficulty to sleep. Some of you might already been aware of the fact that I can sleep anywhere and anytime. Thus the name sleeping girl was proudly bestowed to me by a good friend and it has stuck since then. Again, it is not that I purposely sleep when I am not suppose to, it is just that I get bored easily and when something is not hyper a
Cinderella Shoes! 2007-01-16 14:04:00 Cinderella
Shoes!
I went to Simei today with Mum and as usual she always make me buy stuffs that I do not need but nevertheless too nice to pass. As though that is not bad enough, she made me buy her a pair of shoes too!
It is actually one of my smaller dreams to wear the pointy shoes in fashion right now. However, due to my extremely huge feet. finding a size that is suitable is a constant challenge. So when this show fit me, like it fit Cinderella, how not to buy it right?
Patience 2007-01-19 04:28:00
Patience
Thank you for your lovely comments on my shoes. It looks great but apparently not too comfortable for walking long distance. Oh well, looking good has its price right?
Anyway I have finally started writing my paper. I am now at 1200 words so I shall be spending the next few days thinking and writing about disorientation and dyslexia. I know you might think writing the 3000 words paper is pretty easy for me since I do blabber and write a lot here at this blog. However, you are forgetting that I need to write about serious stuffs, and stuffs that actually make sense and logic so it is not that easy. I tend to exaggerate on the facts a lot so I am trying to make meaning of what I write. Due to that, I need absolute silence when I am writing my paper because I need that peace and inspiration to write so yes, not even the radio is on. I felt my brain cells grow and multiplied. You should congratulate me.
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Winners 1970-01-01 00:59:59 Winners I just came back from one of the most exciting PASE meeting. This excitement was different from PASE last week. This week, I felt angry inside. I was pissed off with myself. I am wondering why in the world I am still where I am. Then I was slapped by the fact that I have not been doing what I am suppose to be doing and therefore, it is my own fault that I am still here.Therefore, I am glad that I called Samina and got some of my questions answered. It is so wonderful to have a person to guide you and I can never thank Margaret enough for opening up the doors for me. And as usual, after the long distance call, I can never go to sleep due to the excitement.When I was younger, I really admired and respected my father. He seemed to know so much and he never fails to amaze me with whatever facts he knew. He likes talking to people! As I grow up, I realize that he is all talk and no action. He often blamed the situation, the people, his parents, everything and everyone except himself Read more:Winners
Blogger Beta Sucks 1970-01-01 00:59:59 Blogger Beta Sucks!So I have been trying to write an entry for the past 30 minutes but blogger decides that it has not done enough to annoy me. Afte switching my blogs to beta, now signing in takes soo long and trying to post an entry takes an even longer time! Are any of you experiencing this?I had nothing in mind today, just usual ramblings. There is so many things in my mind that I just have to let it out and no one is willing to listen to me, thus the blog. Furthermore, I figured that blogging is way cheaper than seeing a therapist.I had the most exciting conversation via msn yesterday! I just received news that our business is going international! Yay! It kept me so excited with my D that I was literally at the edge of my seat while giving the details and information. SO now we have to work quick, since time is not on our side and I most probably have to make some calls out. Congratulations Naf, as I mentioned, success will come once you are ready and that time is now. We are goin Read more:Blogger
Latest Obsession 1970-01-01 00:59:59 Latest Obsession
I just learned that I cannot sign in via the google acocunt in IE. There seems to be no problem signing into blogger using Firefox, and I cant understand why.Today I spent the day at the polyclinic accompanying my mum. It was horrible. I had to wake up early in the morning. Take a number to go the counter. Go to level 3, take another number to see the doctor, went to level 2, wait for the health counsellor, went down to level 1, take a number for the blood test, go to the payment and collection of medication, wait, wait, wait!! We spent a freaking 4 hours there! We had to sit and wait with the rest of the sickly people and for some reason, I feel the need to immediately disinfect myself when I get home.The clinic was so crowded, mostly old folks, no wonder the pharmaceutical industry is making a lot of money! It was a depressing environment and even if someone is not sick, they will be sick after spending a period of time at the clinic. I thought I saw one of my ex cl
Think! 1970-01-01 00:59:59 Think!Yesterday was a hectic day. I left for school early because I wanted to go to the library to test if I can get online via my laptop. Since it was the last time I am going to NIE, even though I had meeting at night, I had no choice but to carry my heavy laptop to school along with all the other things in my bag like books, shoes, prayer kit, make up bag etc. It was super heavy that before I left the house, my mum asked if I was going to school or going overseas. I went to school in slippers and I am pretty sure that made me looked like a total dork but my pointy shoes that I was going to wear at night for meeting was too nice to be used climbing the stairs in NIE, thus the heavy bag on one shoulder and not walking straight.I was not able to go online so that just confirms that there is something wrong with my lancard and I gotta go and get a new one. Bummer.It was nice to meet the gang after so long. We had lunch at the canteen and I was eating the prata I was craving for weeks. I
Persist 1970-01-01 00:59:59 PersistYesterday was not one of the greatest day for me. It was almost as if God had planned all the bad things to happen on 1 day so that I am given the chance to be as jovial as I am on other days. Yesterday too, marks the first day of the module about the OG Approach, an approach that we shall be using to teach the kids. Since it was a Friday, there was PASE meeting at night. So, that means, a long day ahead.I started the day early since I had to be at HQ to pick of the rally tix and because my father did not want to pay the ERP charges, we ended up leaving home early. I reached HQ at 8.15 am, within me, I knew for a fact that the door only opens at 9am. So I sat at the cafe, ordered coffee and took out my notebook. I accidently left my reading book at home while packing 1001 things into my bag. I spend the next 30 minutes reading my notebook, it contain my words and thoughts during meetings. I never get the chance to read my notes. Taking them down was not a challenge, revising wha
Follow Your Head 1970-01-01 00:59:59 Follow Your HeadYou Follow Your HeadYou're rational, collected, and logical.Generally, it takes you quite a while to fall in love.In fact, you've even been accused of being very picky.While you're cool, you're not ice cold.You just know what you want, and don't mind waiting to get it.Do You Follow Your Head or Your Heart?I guess this test is not a suprise right? It is so true that I take a long time to fall in love, also a long time to get out of it. So this is where my furniture theory comes in (for those of you who know what I mean, haha!) See the line that says I am not ice cold. Remember that the next time you think I am too heartless in making decisions.If you want some sweetness in your life, click here.I had a very interesting day today. Went to a friends wedding and met with so many of my ex colleagues. I miss the SCC gang so much! In fact I miss some of the kids too. I have been wanting to pay them a visit, of course at the same time trying to avoid World War 3 by not me
Master of emotions 1970-01-01 00:59:59 Master of EmotionsI have been having weird dreams lately despite the fact that I read positive books before I go to bed. After realising the power of the sub concious, I am now very careful with what I read and even think about. Sometimes I will come across a weird thought for just 1 second and the issue will still appear in my dreams at night. I like to think that I am resolving my issues while sleeping but the recent dream that I had could be the summary of what I am going through lately.In this particular dream, I was trying to reach to the top but there were so many obstacles, people were throwing javelin at me. (yikes!) There were so many of them! Then I remember trying to go up this huge pile of snow and sand with no fear, its like going through a snowy place and then immediately after that, I had to go through a desert and it was steep and I remember being very tired. But whatever happened, I did not gave up, I still went on. When I woke up, I felt incomplete, I did not get to Read more:Master
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Superwoman 1970-01-01 00:59:59 SuperwomanHello to all readers of Voicing My Thoughts! I hope you guys did not miss me too much the past 3 days. It has been extremely hectic for me and I was not able to be online to update what has been going on. I cannot remember the last time I did not go online for more than 1 day. Fret not, its all for a good cause and I shall tell you why soon.I have so many things in my head and let me spend some time trying to organize my thoughts.I had 4 hours of sleep on wednesday night / thursday morning and I knew I had the test in the morning. I cannot believe how I did not prepare for the test earlier and it is my own fault for not performing up to expectations. I made silly mistakes like writing sequential instead of sequencing and being a teacher, terms and spellings MUST be accurate. Despite being groggy while doing the test, I was glad that I did not fail it. It was ok, not excellent and I shall make sure this does not happen again no matter how I busy I am.On Thursday, I had the pri
Retail Therapy 1970-01-01 00:59:59 Retail Therapy
As you can see, I registered at MyBlogLog, its on your left. For those who regularly read this humble site of mine, do register as members so that I know you are the ones reading it. It is for your own good, in case I write something bad about you. Haha. Just kidding. I know my readers are generally shy people but still, do register especially if I already know that you are already reading what I write. Do me this honour.So today is Monday and for those of you who are working and dragging yourself to work, let me let you in on a comfort. Mondays are off days for me! Yay! The classes are scheduled in such a way that I have Mondays and Wednesdays free. Well, not exactly free, there are assignments and laminating of cards to be done of course but still, I do not have to travel and be in class. The timing for the classes sucked because it is the same time people working in the town area goes to work. Everytime I want to board the train, I cant because the train is so full Read more:Retail
I am desperate! 1970-01-01 00:59:59 I am desperate!Its only the beginning of the year and I cannot believe how hectic it has been. The past few days was filled with gastritis, a cut on finger, lots of work and laminating to do, organizing my mind, staying calm, my desperate attempt not to fall asleep in class, last minute study for test, another desperate attempt to NOT be blur, STP, FUFT, and the list goes on and on.I have also received my timetable for the practicum and the days and timing are all over the place! I have to be at 3 different places in that 1 month, at different times for classes and I just cannot afford to be blur. The most nerve wrecking part for me will be planning for my lesson plan and that 1 hour of teaching in front of the class that shall be happening soon. Its not that I am nervous teaching kids but the idea of having people watching you teach and then deciding your grade is new to me. So please understand the panicky state that I am in. Thank goodness, my learning centre will be in Fengshan s
Bestseller? 1970-01-01 00:59:59 Bestseller?Your hidden talent is writingYour hidden talent is writing. You have a unique way of viewing the world and are able to express your thoughts eloquently on the page. Some people might think that you are weird, but you are just the next Pulitzer prize winner.Take this quiz at QuizGalaxy.comToday was my Mental Health Day. I created this day for myself after I realised that I have either been working too hard and not have the time to do the things I like. Usually this day comes along every few months and I hope to keep it that way. I usually spend the day not thinking or doing work but it was hard not to do that today. I felt guilty watching tv after lunch and my subconcious kept telling me to go and get my cards laminated. So I went and did that and all the organization that I have yet to do. I think I spent half the day doing work, including getting all panicky when I received email from my TP supervisor from NIE. I actually spent the whole day at home. Yah, I know, that is
Over rated 1970-01-01 00:59:59 Over-ratedAs you know February is a special month not because I have to change that age number I write in forms, but also, February signifies the day men started to rule to the world. Think about it, if there is no Valentines Day, women would expect their boyfriends, husbands, whatever else they do to shower them with gifts and presents all the time right? Therefore men created the day so that they can do all the nice things they have not been doing for the whole year! Voila! I have discovered another life mystery!It is not that I am anti love or anything more severe than that, its just that I think this day is so over rated. It is that time of the year where florists make lots of money with the high jerking of prices for roses and other flowers that deemed fit. I used to want to be a florist, just for this day of the year. This reminds me, maybe I should buy a whole basket of flowers and begin selling them on the streets of Orchard Road on that day. I am sure to make lots of money. Ya
Comprehension 1970-01-01 00:59:59 ComprehensionI cannot seem to sleep at night. I find this really ironic since I am able to doze off easily in class when the trainer is talking. Thank you for some of your response to my previous entry. I must make this straight. I might have lost the belief in love for me but I have not lost the hope. I sincerely hope you will not too.Life is meant to be filled with love. Without it, we are incomplete.I was reading the article I am supposed to summarize when I get the urge and inspiration to write this entry. Out of the so many topics that were given to us, I have finally decided to choose the topic on Improving Reading Comprehension. I remember the time when I used to dread marking the journals of students who were either:1. Unable to express what they were trying to say.2. Do not have any idea what to write about their lives.3. Do not understand what in the world they are writing in their journals.I guess some people are just not born to write and express themselves. For this case, Read more:Comprehension
Opportunity to learn 1970-01-01 00:59:59 Opportunity to LearnSo little time.It has been an incredibly hectic few days. I feel like I am still standing here at the same spot where I was 2 days ago wondering what happened in the world around me. Do you ever get the feeling that time is moving way too fast and you can barely catch up? I feel sad because in my rush to complete this and that, I might have overlooked some factors that might be important for me in the future.BBS on Tuesday was fantastic. I was such a rush from class to function. I know that I looked like Shrek when I met Nurul. I was carrying my heavy bag and my right feet still hurts whenever I walked. Worse of all, I had no make up on me. However I was too busy trying to figure out how to be on time for the function so I had to ignore the pain in my feet and my hideous face.It was clear that the speakers were not fluent in English but nevertheless, their message came across strong and clear. I do not know why but whenever the wife spoke, I get all teary. Her words Read more:Opportunity
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Dont ask 1970-01-01 00:59:59 Dont AskRegrettably today, I had to relive some of my negative past. The test today was simply depressing. I do not know how or why I underwent some temporary stupidity and carelessness and I had to pay a heavy price. In that one moment, the turn of event was able to change me from being confident to being a total failure. It was a horrible feeling and I felt like I was in the past once again.I knew I had come a long way from that distorted self image of the past, to now. It seemed that the right thing to do is to continue looking forward and swear not to repeat my mistakes. Moving on sounds so easy but actually doing it takes a lot of courage that I find missing in myself now. How can I help the children with low self esteem if I am having a low self esteem myself? I have to confront my fears first or I will never be the teacher that I have always wanted to be.I am trying my very best to not break down and for the sake of everyone around me, my future students, I have to bring myself
Bouncing Back 1970-01-01 00:59:59 Bouncing BackHey all,I am back and better as I made it to be. I do not remember being so depressed in the longest time. I thought I left that old self behind a long time ago. But I guess, even as I moved on, there will always be that part of the memory that cannot be change or simply forgotten. I was reminded of that again, largely due to what God has in store for me. I have been through worse and I know that no matter what tough situations I am in, it will eventually pass.For those of you who see me now, it will probably be hard to believe that I had such a depressing past. It is not easy to get out of thinking too lowly of oneself. I am glad I did without the help of major intervention from psychologists and psychiatrists.Thank you for your concerns, I am truly touched.Thank goodness, the test result today provides me with that feeling of consolation. Actually I failed during the trial test and I was worried that I might fail again for the actual test. I was so paranoid that I went t
I should be a poet..hmm? 1970-01-01 00:59:59 I should be a poet..hmm?You Should Be a PoetYou have a way with words... and a talent for drawing the pure emotions out of experiences.Your poetry has the potential to make people laugh and cry at the same time. You just need to write it!What Sort of Artist Should You Be?The public holidays came at a perfect time. I can finally breathe even though I only started being busy in late January. I wonder why I feel so exhausted at times. Maybe I am getting old and wrinkly. I had a panic moment last night when I saw a few lines around my eyes! Is it due to my crazy sleeping hours? Or lack of water? I am so getting the eye creme!Instead of spending time finishing my assignments and preparing the other million things I have to do, I have been sinfully distracted by the idiot box we call tv. In fact, my bro and me have been having a marathon of a certain show concerning people with superpowers. It is so annoying to have the ending of each episode left hanging! The writers certainly have done an
My thank you post 1970-01-01 00:59:59 My Thank You PostIt is crazy over in DAS, I am mentally exhausted but I shall not bore you with that.I am writing this entry a day late. Nevertheless, I am still here so do not worry.So every year when this day comes, I will look back and reflect on what has been accomplished for the year. The past few years have been great and I am surrounded by people who care and to me that is a blessing. Last year was particularly emotional since I knew it was going to be my last time celebrating it with the kids.My family do not generally celebrate birthdays. We fail to see the significance of this day. This day to us, is nothing more than just a number than increases every year, reminding us how much time we have spent on this Earth. This year was different. Maybe it is because we celebrated my bro's birthday in January and maybe they felt a need to celebrate mine too a month later. Every family has a way of celebrating and for mine, we order pizza. It is funny when you think about it because w
Lost 1970-01-01 00:59:59 LostOk I admit that I have been pretty lost these few weeks. I was not in the right state of mind since last week and it was at the peak yesterday. I am proud to say that my classmates and I survived the 3 hours lesson planning test we had yesterday. It was nerve wrecking because I was still awaiting call from the school. I was the only one left who have not gotten in touch with the school. Actually I did stalked the school my calling them everyday but all they have done is pass me around like a volleyball. I asked permission from Alice to be allowed to pick up my damn phone if the school call since I have been leaving so many urgent messages to so many people. It was nice of them to allow me to do so.However, moments before I start the test, I talked to Joane, the person in charge of TP overall and she said some pretty upsetting things. It got me so upset just moments before the test and it did affect my performance. I just hope it did not go too badly.I feel like we were not given en
Intuitive or just plain paranoid? 1970-01-01 00:59:59 Intuitive or just plain paranoid
?You Are 88% IntuitiveYour intuition is so spot on it's scary!You can learn a lot about people and situations, simply by listening to your gut.And you've even wondered if you can predict the future at times.Just be sure not to always listen to your intuition... someday it could be wrong!How Intuitive Are You?So I am sitting at home on a sunday night desperately trying to capture some kind of inspiration to write my summary paper due soon but I just cannot seem to concentrate. I am excited + nervous basically about 2 things.Tommorow will be my first day in school. I am actually nervous about it. I have to be in school by 7.15 am and now I wonder why school have to start so early. Poor kids have to wake up so early to go to school when their brains are still sleeping. If I ever become a politician, I would like to petition for school to start slightly later. Maybe around 8 am or 9 am. That seems to be reasonable right?Being nervous sucks! My instincts te Read more:Intuitive
1st Day of TP 1970-01-01 00:59:59 Ist Day of TPIt is always difficult when something is new. But with time, things get easier and everything will fall into places.So today was the first day of TP and I had to report in school by 7.15am. I was there earlier and I was hanging around the general office waiting for someone to guide me to the school hall. Then this guy came up to me and introduced himself as OM and in my heart I was thinking what in the world does OM stands for. Not caring that I might look stupid, I asked him does OM stands for and he said it stands for Old Man. For a minute I actually believed him.Since everyone was so busy, I did not even have a proper induction. My CT is the LSC and my SCM is a senior teacher. I thought it should be the other way round. Both my CT and SCM were asking me questions that I cannot answer like:- What time should I report to school and what time should I be released- What I shall be doing in schoolHmm..I thought they were the ones who were supposed to be telling me. Anyway, I
Free 2007-03-02 15:41:00 FreeI just wanna be free.........Free from worries..Free from troubles...Free from problems...Free from rushing from place to place.....Free from rushing for dateline....Free from stress....Free from misunderstandings....Free from being misunderstood....Free from feeling small....Free from sadness.....Free from failure.........I just wanna be free.
Almost there 2007-03-09 16:04:00 Almost thereHello everyone,I know some of you have been worried about my ‘missing in action’ here at Voicing My Thoughts but I would like to assure you that I am fine and well. Thank you for your concern. It has been a really rough 2 weeks and I am so glad that the end of the week is near and I can finally take a break from the madness.The main reason why I am not able to write in here was because of the limited time that I can spend online. The only other time I get to use the computer will be the time I do lesson planning, worksheet, checklist etc. I do not think anyone understand the term ‘intensely busy’ unless of course you are my fellow SNOs. Since TP started 2 weeks ago, most of us have not gotten enough sleep, rest, recognition of existence and most of us are rushing from place to place, trying to finish lesson plans on time. As if running around 3 different places was not enough, they had to slot in 2 tests, the OG procedure test and also the teaching 1 to 1. Personall Read more:Almost
Burned Out! 2007-03-11 15:58:00 Burned OutThank goodness for the school holidays this week, I can finally breathe again and get myself reorganised and recharged.It turns out that I am burned out, but I know where I am going in life. I am no free radical, moving fast but going nowhere. It is not like I do not enjoy what I do. Its the rushing here and there part that I hate. It has caused me so much stress and I need to reclaim my emotions and put things back in place. After a few incidents last 2 weeks, my confidence has been shaken and I have to get myself re-aligned.I shall be back with super long entry! To all teachers and SNOs having their break this week, enjoy it while it last!
Dream Night 2007 2007-03-13 02:56:00 Dream Night
2007Finally I can write in peace. The last 2 weeks were crawling with challenges coming from all aspects of my life but thank God, He gave me the strength to overcome it all. Newsflash. My laptop is almost useless. Apparently there is something wrong with the laptop after all and not the router or the card. So basically I just spend almost $200 for nothing. My options are:1. Get a new laptop that does not suck.2. Get my current laptop reformatted. To do that, I have to go on a treasure hunt quest of finding the windows explorer cd that apparently is not easy to find since the model of my laptop is no longer on the market.3. Continue using my brothers computer but only within the time allowed since he is the modern version of sleeping beauty and needs to have his beauty sleep, not even a minute later. The other condition that I have to abide is that I can still continue doing my work with the computer but I have to do it all with the lights switched off. That is a great ide Read more:Dream
Just Checking 2007-03-14 04:53:00 Just CheckingYou Mostly Have Your Emotions in CheckSometimes your emotions get out of control, but you usually are a pretty stable person.You can find a lot to be happy about, as long as things are going your way.But if a few bad things happen to you, you tend to go in a bit of a downward spiral.Luckily, you usually come out of it okay and no worse for the wear.Can You Keep Your Emotions in Check?Just checking to see if I need to see the psychiatrist.I just realise that apart from the lesson plans that I have to do for the students in DAS, I have to start planning lessons for my 3 boys assigned to me. I already met 2 of the boys and realised that they do not know the basic sounds of each letter of the alphabet so I shall be introducing them to it. Suddenly I realised that I have to complete my IEP and Diagnostic summary for the boys before planning their lessons! Argh! Its already Wednesday and I am panicking!Breathe. Breathe. Breathe.Happy thoughts. Happy thoughts!
How time flies... 2007-03-18 15:14:00 How time flies...How time flies! It is already Sunday night and tommorrow I have to be in school in the morning again. It is not that I do not like going to school but I think until now, I have not adjusted myself yet. Its like every time I am there, I have to be proactive and look for teachers to plan the time for the boys to see me. There is no predictability and I really hate that. I hope by the time TP is over, I will remain sane.I really like the picture and saying above. It was my wallpaper on my laptop for some time. I guess I find looking at nature soothing and relaxing. I always dreamed of living near nature where there arent too many people when I retire. It is still achievable.The 1 week break was good but I only took one day to not do anything regarding work. The week before was so mentally exhausting that I almost broke down but thank goodness God instilled in me more strength that I originally thought I had. I spent the week getting organised, cleaning up and arranging th
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