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Still 1970-01-01 00:59:59 Why can't I forget? Why can't I let go?Why is this so damn hard?
Sunday Mutterings 1970-01-01 00:59:59 I had fun today. In the beginning, I had trouble getting out of bed, and was seriously considering missing church today... (Naughty, naughty!) But somehow I managed to get up, get ready, & take a cab to church. It really is the pits not having Lionel around, I dislike spending money on cab fare.The day turned out good, suprisingly. I didn't manage to get a group to watch Scary Movie 4 like I normally do for most movies, as the others had other things to do, which was just as well, because I didn't feel like socialising much today. It was actually cool to just hang out with only Alex & Imelda.We got treated to a free lunch by Alex's father. Indian food! *Haha* I enjoyed my extremely filling lunch. I had the mutton set, & some sort of blended mango juice to accompany it. And the best thing? Alex initially decided he had homework & other things on his plate for the day, so he wasn't gonna tag along, but in the end, he changed his mind. Alright!If you're in Malaysia & you're consider Read more:Sunday
Heavily Broken 1970-01-01 00:59:59 Everyday I sit here waiting Everyday just seems so long And now I've had enough of all the hating Do we even care, it's so unfair Any day it'll all be over Any day there's nothing new And now I just try to find some hope To try and hold onto And it starts again It'll never end I'm heavily broken And I don't know what to do It just seems like I'm choking And I can't even move When there's nothing left to say What can you do I'm heavily broken And there's nothing I can do Almost giving up on trying Almost heading for a fall And now I'm screamingI've gotta keep on fighting But then again It doesn't end I'm heavily broken And I don't know what to do It just seems like I'm choking And I can't even move When there's nothing left to say What can you do? I'm heavily broken And there's nothing I can doAnd there's nothing I can doFeels like I'm drowning I'm screaming for air (Screaming for air) Louder I'm crying And you don't even care I'm heavily brokenAnd I don't k Read more:Broken
Cursed 1970-01-01 00:59:59 I'm cursed with loving you babyIt hurts cause you'll never know itI was put here to hopelessly love youAnd you ain't thinkin' of me that's the torture I go throughIt's been a long long time nowAnd I'm still trying to get you outOf my head, of my heart, of my whole damn soulThis love is still lingering it's getting oldBut it ain't dying it's not even tryingAnd I can't fight itI just bury it at the bottom hoping you might findYou are my love, you were my firstAnd now this love is just a curseOh, yeahI don't know why I even calledThinking our time has come againCause the first time wasn't rightNo we were too youngI was too serious, you wanted to have funAnd now I look at us and seeHow good it could beIf we could only get pass the pastAnd see that the love we had was rare if we're trying to love. I'll be always loving youI'll be always loving youNo matter what or whereI'll always care
Short Memo 1970-01-01 00:59:59 I'm still in Penang, but my flight back to KK will be the day after tomorrow.Then it's back to work. Sigh.The amount of shopping I've done - Poor... x.xThe wedding was yesterday - Nice...!The amount of food I've consumed - Insane! Read more:Short
Latest PS Album! 1970-01-01 00:59:59 Track listing (CD)"Never Stop" "Everywhere I Go" "So In Love With You" "Call Your Name" "Great Is The Lord" "For The Cause" "I Surrender" "Glory" "The Way" "Worthy Is The Lamb" "Jesus" "Stand In Awe" "Speak To Me Lord" Released on the 31st December 2006, it comes with the usual bonus DVD.I suppose it'll be a while before it actually reaches our shores.I've managed to download a couple of songs already. ^.^ Read more:Album
Refresh 1970-01-01 00:59:59 More details soon! Read more:Refresh
Birthday Greeting 1970-01-01 00:59:59 Happy birthday Dad!Hope you like the present we got you!Love you loads! ^.^ Read more:Birthday
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Oh Wow 1970-01-01 00:59:59 Former classmate turned into local pop star? What are the odds? But Karen always did have a good voice. The teachers would ask her to perform all the time during school functions. I have only heard a snippet of the title track, but it sounds promising enough. All the best, Karen!Read all about it here
Chikusho! 1970-01-01 00:59:59 I love the latest layout! I was thinking of using it for months and months, until I discovered that it doesn't work properly with Internet Explorer! I modified it and everything using Mozilla Firefox, so I didn't discover this error until recently. Sorry, guys!
Petty Details 1970-01-01 00:59:59 Yes, it's another new layout. I know, I know... After harping on about how much I like the old one, I decided to change it because it's incompatible with IE. And oh, let's not forget the fact that I'm too lazy to figure a way how to fix it. Heh.Sorry for the lack of updates, but my schedule's been pretty unpredictable so I really haven't had the time to go online. In fact, when I had the rare opportunity the other day, people who were using the new version of Blogger (like me) had problems logging in or viewing their blogs. I'll post up a edited version of recent events soon.I'm feeling excited cause the youth rally is tomorrow night. It's kinda cool cause there should be more than ten youth groups from all around KK who would be coming in to join us. I hope to be able to see some of my group members from the Impact Generation camp.For those who are interested, feel free to check out the youth website project. It's kinda simple, but hey, at least it now has the official youth Read more:Petty
Here Goes... 1970-01-01 00:59:59 My application to be hosted has been accepted. I only have two weeks to set up the site (or at least have something up) at my new URL, so I'll be moving in a bit. I'm now starting to try installing Wordpress into it. I still remember my feeble attempts with my previous host, which I fabulously failed. *Haha*Now, the question's more on Blurry Intentions fate. Close it? Move it? Start anew? Sigh... I seriously have to bear in mind the fact that it's getting harder for me to find the time to come online. Anyway, I'd love to hear your suggestions. ^.^Valentine's Day for me yesterday was just like any other normal day. No one called to say anything, no flowers, no gifts... Zilch, nada. Sweet! *Haha* The only interesting thing I did was watch DVD's at home and go to a cyber cafe with my brother, Rex, & Imelda.Later today I'll be busy getting the house cleaned up for my parent's arrival this coming Saturday for the Chinese New Year family celebrations. They'll be here until Tuesday,
On The Edge 1970-01-01 00:59:59 I. Am. Trying. Really. Hard. Not. To. Lose. My. Temper.
Old Captures 1970-01-01 00:59:59 The maid didn't show. We waited 30 minutes before we decided it's a lost cause. So, it looks like we'll have to clean up the apartment ourselves. Sigh. Not that I mind, it's just that my Mom does. *Haha* Oh well. Below are some photos taken in 2005, which I posted up out of boredom. The pictures are also available on my Flickr account.My Dad's pride & joy. He might complain about them, but truth is, he loves them. Meet Zeus, whose personality is actually not very different from mine. Seriously.For some weird reason, I happen to like this picture. It was taken at the watersports park in Labuan. That's my Dad in the background.
It's The Year Of The Pig! 1970-01-01 00:59:59 Happy Chinese New Year 2007 to all!Mom & Dad have arrived from Labuan. However, they're not going to stay at our place as they originally said they would. I'm quite surprised to find out that tomorrow all we'll be doing is bring them around to check out Warisan Square and maybe take in a movie. (What, no visiting??) In any case, we had a small CNY eve dinner gathering with some other relatives earlier tonight at my Aunt's house.At the moment I'm a bit stressed out about meeting the deadline for moving to my new URL. I only have about a week left, & with the holidays around, well... The odds are really against me. But I've realised this: it doesn't really matter if my blog does move or not in the end. Things will still be a-ok. ^.^
Music & Lyrics 1970-01-01 00:59:59 Alex Fletcher is a washed-up '80s pop star who's been reduced to working the nostalgia circuit at county fairs and amusement parks. The charismatic and talented musician gets a chance at a comeback when reigning diva Cora Corman invites him to write and record a duet with her, but there's a problem-- Alex hasn't written a song in years, he's never written lyrics, and he has to come up with a hit in a matter of days.Enter Sophie Fisher, Alex's beguilingly quirky plant lady, whose flair for words strikes a chord with the struggling songwriter. On the rebound from a bad relationship, Sophie is reluctant to collaborate with anyone, especially commitment-phobe Alex. As their chemistry heats up at the piano and under it, Alex and Sophie will have to face their fears-- and the music --if they want to find the love and success they both deserve.Text: Yahoo! MoviesHugh Grant is totally believable as an '80s has beenEnter Drew Barrymore, as his unwilling & very quirky partnerHugh Grant as Read more:Music
Way Back Into Love 1970-01-01 00:59:59 I've been living with a shadow overhead I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed I've been lonely for so long Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move onI've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away Just in case I ever need 'em again someday I've been setting aside time To clear a little space in the corners of my mindAll I want to do is find a way back into love I can't make it through without a way back into love Oh oh oh I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine I've been searching but I just don't see the signs I know that it's out there There's got to be something for my soul somewhereI've been looking for someone to shed some light Not just somebody just to get me throught the night I could use some direction And I'm open to your suggestions All I want to do is find a way back into love I can't make it through without a way back into love And if I open my heart again I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end There are moments when I d
Tell Me Where It Hurts 1970-01-01 00:59:59 Why is that sad look in your eyesWhy are you crying?Tell me now, tell me nowTell me, why you're feelin' this wayI hate to see you so downIs it your heartOh, that's breakin' all in piecesMakin' you cryMakin' you feel blueIs there anything that I can doWhy don't you tell me where it hurts now, babyAnd I'll do my best to make it betterYes, I'll do my best to make the tears all go awayJust tell me where it hurtsNow, tell meAnd I love you with a love so tenderOh and if you let me stayI'll love all of the hurt awayWhere are all those tears coming fromWhy are they falling?Somebody, somebody, somebody left your heart in the coldYou just need somebody to hold on, baby(Give me a chance)To put back all the piecesTake hold of your heartMake it just like newThere's so many things that I can doIs it your heartOh, that's breakin' all in piecesMakin' you cryMakin' you feel blueIs there anything that I can doTell me, tell me, tell me, tell meTell me, tell me, tell me, tell meAnd I'll do
Mobile Dilemma 1970-01-01 00:59:59 Due to the Chinese New Year, Sara was on a break from National Service for a week, and we had chatted over drinks the first night she was back. The only time we hanged out with her again was on Tuesday, when we watched Music & Lyrics. We had ice-cream and ais kacang beforehand at Jesselton Point.Also with us that night was Rachel, Sharon, Imelda, Elizabeth, Rex, Lionel & Alex. Naturally, guys being guys, they didn't watch the movie with us, of course. They ended up at the arcade and later on, a cybercafe instead. Figures. x_x So I hope that would explain my previous posts decicated to the movie. Can't seem to get the song Way Back Into Love out of my head. ^.^ Lately, I've been considering selling of my phone. I already have a phone in mind that I'd like to get. ^.^ But it'll be a while before I can raise the money to buy it. Hence... My worry that if I wait too long, my phone's selling price will drop too much. So right now I hope to get my hands on either one of these two...The Read more:Mobile
DVD Mania 1970-01-01 00:59:59 I think I haven't mentioned this yet, but I actually have a DVD player now. Yay! It did take some sacrifices though... x.x But it was oh so worth it! I officially acquired it at the end of last month. I've been having fun viewing back some movies from my old collection. And of course, I've started adding new additions. ^.^ Can you believe it, I've just managed to see Failure To Launch today? Retail price for the Nokia 7360 is currently at RM688. Oh boy. I need a new job! Read more:Mania
Taking A Break 2007-03-12 15:27:00 I'm getting my life sorted out. I need to look for a new job. I need to make decisions on certain things. I have to re-arrange my priorities. I want to spend time with a friend who's leaving for Australia soon (like this Friday!). I feel like going back to Labuan.Don't worry though, I'll be back soon. I still have the new URL to move to (unless my host decides she's tired of waiting). And besides, it's rude to keep her waiting too long. x_x Read more:Taking
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Being Emo 2007-03-25 15:03:00 I feel like I've let you down.What hurts the most is... Is that I can't do anything.All I can do is pray for you.That our Lord our God will be there with you through the storm.
Feeling Unwanted 2007-04-02 18:40:00 It gets so hard at times. But I'm trying to get over it, by reminding myself of the friends that I do have, no matter how small in number. They are the ones who stick by me of their own choice, and you have to give them credit for that, for I am notoriously "hard-to-get-along-with" or so I heard.I still can't believe that Leon is gone. And to think that I wouldn't even have known if I didn't hear my Mom talking about it to my aunt. He was such a jovial person, full of life, friendly even to those who he hardly knows. Life is so fleeting. It made me realize the seriousness of letting people know how much you care because you'll never know if that'll be the last time that you'll talk to them.Now, keeping in mind of my vow to appreciate them, almost all my friends are currently undergoing problems of their own. I feel helpless, unable to help those who are near or far. All I can do is just pray for them, be a listening ear, & a supportive friend. Which I feel is just isn't enough Read more:Feeling
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Happy Easter 2007-04-08 17:12:00 You know, at times we are so consumed at the thought of ourselves, of the circumstances that we are in, feeling so hopeless & drained, that we start questioning where is God in all of it? We tend to fail to realize that God is always, ALWAYS there. And believe in this, that He does care, for are we not His children? I thank God for answered prayers, but especially for... Hope.Congrats to Hannah & the some others from the youth who were baptised today.Regarding the layout, I pretty much figured that it was time for a change... Read more:Happy
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Something More 2007-04-06 17:48:00 Everything's changed, and I want to believeThere must be a reason, there just has to beCause my faith is strong, 'till it all hits homeAnd it's not enough for me to trust When it hurts too muchOn the days I feel like I've failed youThe days I feel I've been failedI need to praise YouFor I am Yours, I'm YoursWhere is the power, to give what I gaveGive back the strength Give back the faith I had yesterdayCause you are my GodYou are my Great I AmAnd I know I have fallen but..I have landed in healing handsOn the days I feel like I've failed youThe days I feel I've been failedI need to praise YouFor I am Yours, I'm YoursAnd in my fraility, you lead me to something moreSo I close my eyes, cause inside my heartI believe, that I'm not aloneYou'll always be there for meOn the days I feel like I've failed youThe days I feel I've been failedI know that I need to praise YouFor I am yours, still yoursCause I believe you lead me to something moreSomething more, something more
Thoughts 2007-04-12 16:35:00 Whenever I'm in a cyber cafe nowadays (as rare as it is), I make a point to download soundtrack albums. My aim right now is to get songs from various teen flicks & romantic comedies that bring tons of memories whenever I listen to them. The downloading speed tonight is a bit weird though. T_TThe youth camp is coming up at the end of next month, something which I've been looking forward to, but lately, I've been having second thoughts about it. Another friend has left Kota Kinabalu for greener pastures... On Tuesday morning, Febiq flew off to Ipoh to join his family who have been there since last year.
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