Owner: my messy breakup URL:http://www.mymessybreakup.blogspot.com Join Date: Wed, 03 Dec 2008 18:30:01 -0600 Rating:0 Site Description: This is the story about my messy break up. He left me, and i dont know how to get over it. My feelings are all over the place, and i have to try every and anything to make my stupid heart understand. Understand why, how....and so many more questions. Ive Site statistics:Click here
Out of my-out of my head...getout 2008-12-03 17:45:49 Im having bad thoughts. Get out of my head. I know what would hurt her, but it would also make me look bad. Dont know if i care, but i think i do...Its a struggle not to stoop that low...I know im blaming them for all of this. And more her. I believe i explained why.My mind is not clear enough to see my part in all this, although i know its in here somewhere. I know i cant blame them for it all, b
They just cant leave me alone pt.2 2008-12-03 17:32:52 D owes me money. About as much as i need to get by a month. Im broke, so i texted him today to tell him to pay up. As im texting him, A calls me! Like, didnt i tell you id call when i was ready? Id call when i could see your name on my display without crying? Nah, she feels we need to talk. Of course we do, eventually we will bump into eachother, and i dont want all hell to break loose. But i dont Read more:alone
They just cant leave me alone 2008-12-03 17:05:41 Like i said, i was starting to feel good again, didnt have to fight the tears every day.I realize that was just because i was pushing all that shit to the back of my mind, not thinking about it, hoping it would go away. i felt calm. i still do, but it scares me. I feel hate. i feel like i hate D and A. I hate them both.Its quite difficult, cause im a lover, not a hater, i never hate, always forgi Read more:alone
Last weeks party 2008-12-03 16:53:44 I went out with Q and her friends, plus J last week. I had a great time, and honest great time, didnt have to put on a happy face! Until today, i thought i was getting over this messy breakup bullshit. But ill write another post about that.We went to a dancehall party, i put on my baddest outfit, showing off my new great body, and got so many compliments. When you feel like something the cat dragg
Love is love- you could have waited 2008-11-26 15:04:17 love is love but you could have waitedthats all i askyou could have waitedand you should have waitedlove is loveso love will be love next year toothere was no hurryfor youor for hereverything could have been avoided if you had not been selfishlove is love, always have been always will beand you could have waited
No title 2008-11-26 14:59:53 She, A, called me in the middle of dinner, and now it sits cold on the table. Me loosing it in cry- mode made me forget to eat.I hope this dont turn into me and M all over again, when we "broke up" i couldnt eat for days and days...Time to go reheat.And no more cryin! I have to work tomorrow and puffy eyes are a dead giveaway. Im very good at hiding my feelings, great as a matter of fact. Thats wh
Dont get me wrong... 2008-11-26 14:36:20 ...im mad at him too. He was my friend, he said what we have even when we are not lovers, is something special, that he will always be my friend. But friends dont do this. You have no idea what it means to be a friend.What i gave up for you. Cause you were my friend. Its unbelievable, but now i think you tricked me into it. You came with me for the first visit to the hospital, making me think that
I never thought i would cry like this 2008-11-26 12:23:47 I cried when that thing with me and M happened late this summer.But this is different.I feel betrayed. Back stabbed.Ive only cried about ten times today. Lets call that a good day.Q called and told me A is sad. She is not herself anymore. Well A, was it worth it? D wanted to talk to me about it all today when he called, but i felt he should come here. Home to me and tell me to my face. Its so easy Read more:thought
Long day 2008-11-26 12:03:51 He called today.Saying he cant take it, that this situation is getting out of hand.See, A also hurt someone, she left someone for him, D. So she hurt me, she hurt the one she left, and the one she left is also in our circle of closest friends. From what ive heard he is not hurt...but he dislikes what A did, and his friends dont like it one bit either.What the fuck were you thinking???A and me shar
You knew this would hurt me, and did it anyway 2008-11-26 12:02:35 Yup.You knew.You knew it was wrong, and you knew it would hurt me. I feel like its hurt me beyond repair. I wont trust again. I dont want any new female friends, cause id never trust them around my man. Apparently, the only women i can trust round my man are the ones ive know forever and ever. And i cant get a new "since forever" girlfriend.Both A and D tried to hide it from me. They told other pe
He just called 2008-11-25 12:41:29 ...tryin to make things right, cause HE feels bad. Cause all of our mutual friends are being dragged into this bullshit, choosing sides, not wanting his new girl around.Well, yes, YOU dragged everybody into this by not telling me what was going on, by telling THEM first. By making me feel insignificant, not important enough.The history we had and still have was obliterated the second you did what
Background 2008-11-25 11:57:07 This is the story about my messy break up.He left me, and i dont know how to get over it. My feelings are all over the place, and i have to try every and anything to make my stupid heart understand. Understand why, how....and so many more questions.Ive tried in the past to write down things, when shit happens to me, in an effort to move on. It has helped, and this time, in the era of blogs, i thin
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