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Breathing 2008-11-20 16:01:21 Wow, what an interesting day I had yesterday. It started out with an appointment with the p-doc, and that’s always just too much fun. But, yay, I didn’t actually have to see the “p-doc” who I do not much care for. She seems to be a bit threatening, which doesn’t seem like a good attribute for a shrink. At least, I don’t think so. What do you think? Anyway, it was actually a nice
brilliant living color 2008-11-18 15:39:39 Meet Judy Jane and Sigh, my angels.Yesterday was a good day, a blessed day and it was in color.It started out looking awful. Mom had an appointment with her cardiologist about the new pacemaker/defribulator they connected to her heart. I was just not looking forward to it and don’t usually go to appointments with her. But I wanted to make sure I understood how it worked and what the prognosis
Agoraphobia and Manipulation 2008-11-17 12:30:16 Yesterday morning I was held hostage for a total of three hours. At first I thought I was being reached out to in love. You know, I need someone to talk to so I will reach out and this person will comfort, support and just listen for awhile. But that’s not what was going on. It was pretty clear about an hour and a half into the conversation that I was being manipulated. They wanted me to Read more:Manipulation
Agoraphobics Hollywood Style. (That means rich.) 2008-11-17 10:06:44 I just finished watching a charming little film about a little girl alone on an island after her father takes a tiny little sail boat off in seek of a new scientific discovery. Daddy gets hit with a monsoon and the story begins.Nim, the little girl, then begins an email friendship with her favorite author, Alex Rover a.k.a. Jodie Foster. Nim has mistaken Alex for the adventurer that Alex writes Read more:Hollywood
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Agoraphobics pleased about election results 2008-11-13 15:51:21 I was surprised today when I scanned some other blogs on agoraphoia and found so much combative language about the election results
. A lot of hate speech towards Sarah Palin. As someone who finds her a great change to the national political pool, it hurts a little, even on a personal level, to see people say such cruel things about someone I respect and even admire. Now, you might expect such th
My Own Judgment to Fall 2008-11-12 13:18:02 Any minute now he’s going to wake up. I’ll hear the bathroom door open and close and I’ll know he’s awake and it will start all over again today. He’s completely unaware of the fear, the tears the depression and the anxiety that he evokes. What it is he thinks I can’t even imagine. There it is. The gentle slam that starts the day. She went to bed a half an hour ago. She tries to Read more:Judgment
Siphonaptera’s Siphonaptera incommodious 2008-11-09 06:30:06 Well, it’s been an intensely stressful and incredibly lonely two days. Who do you call when it tries you right down to your toes? Who’s the 911 for that “biggest fear” panic in your life? When you’ve worked tirelessly to save it all up for your best friend, and that one person goes to the hospital hours away and you don’t accompany them? Well that’s what I’m here to tell you. Guilt
Kiss My Tailpipe! 2008-12-14 18:36:40 I’m not sure where this will go. But it will go, it always does.One week ago I was in town with Mom. There’s this tiny little store run by Keith, a local jeweler and the only person I know by name at the local shops, just because he greeted us so warmly the first time we went in and because he wraps things up so beautifully and in such elegant papers and glossy ribbons. You forget for a minute
The Hauntings of Thanksgiving 2008-11-30 17:57:30 Holidays are the hardest time of year. I’ve said this in the past and I’ve heard so many people with depression, anxiety etcetera say the same thing. It’s a uniquely painful time I think for agoraphobics.It’s as if the spirit of the holidays has fled me. Perhaps I left it behind somewhere. There was a time when I could grab a hold of it, even if just for a short time, eventually I got Read more:Thanksgiving
Pet Therapy: and shamless excuse to show pics of my pets 2008-11-26 16:37:50 Let’s talk about pets. I grew up in a house with pets and I’ve never had a moment in my life when pets were not a central part of my life. I shudder at the thought of not having these scaled, shelled, feathered, or furry friends within arms reach.The great thing about pets is that all the clichés are absolutely true. They are always right there for you.Dog’s are always thrilled to Read more:Therapy
I Have Hope 2008-11-25 01:52:33 Hope.I have hope this morning. For me this is a fleeting thing. As quickly passing as a random thought. It fades out of my grasp as mysteriously as a dream. I can write down all of its twists and turns while it hangs tenuously in my mind‘s eye. But after a few moments, even the words on paper cannot quite bring into focus the images that I was so desperate to record.So I hold on tight to th
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