Oh If Only They Knew
2007-05-19 11:52:00
Lunchtime at my all-girls school (and no not everyone is a lesbian there, despite the rumours):We were sat in the common room, and the subject somehow turned to lesbians. "When I first met you, I thought you were sleeping with A" One of my friends said. "Just because I didn't know you very well and you two always seemed close...""There are just too many lesbian comments between you two though. Blatently shagging." Friend number 2 quipped.Laugh laugh laugh. It was all very good natured, I don't know anyone who doesn't joke that there's something between me and A, but no one actually thinks that it would ever be true. How do I know this? Because after every lesbian comment we get, it's usually followed up by a:"Aww only joking, don't mean it really..."This just means I can get away with true sentences such as "Course, me and A and at it all the time. Handcuffs, blindfolds, whipped cream, chocolate sauce..." and all we'd get is"Kinky bitches. Can I join?" coupled with wink wink nud
Erm, baby...
2007-05-21 16:19:00
Female Ejaculation, does it exist?My girlfriend's soaked clothes say yes.
Graduation
2007-05-27 06:05:00
Well I'm done for education for a year and a half.2 days ago, we had our last day of school (Not sure how it works in other countries but I think it's the equivalent end of high school in America) so that's it.1 more month of exams.Then I am freeee.Except not that free because The Mother won't let me go on holiday with A because she thinks A will try and seduce me or something. Yeah, she is behind.Ooh BUT A is also getting a power shower installed which means that I'll definitely have something to blog about when the time comes ;)So here's a little video of Bowling for Soup - High School Never Ends, considering it's been going around my head ever since leaving on Friday. Although I'd like to think that some people do change after High School. Another thing, guess what I was voted most likely to do? Strip and Run. Yes indeed.
Why Daughters Offer Their Mother Tea (And No, Not Just Because They're Being Nice)
2007-06-01 09:48:00
Lunchtime"So how was your morning? Get much work done?" Mum decided yesterday to surprise me by coming back and having lunch with me, fearing that I would get bored and lonely in a house all by myself."Yeah, suppose.""Ok, well I'm just going to go upstairs and-""Erm, mum...do you not want a cup of tea first?" I ask politely, trying to hide the agitation in my voice."Oh." She seemed taken aback by this. "Yeah, that'll be nice Regina." And with that she started to climb the stairs.I quickly caught up behind her. "Muuum, how many sugars is that?" Was that my voice trembling?Mum stops and turns around to face me. "None Regina, you know I don't take sugar.""Oh course." She's at the top of the stairs now and I'm out of ideas. You see, I wasn't bored or at all lonely that morning. And I definitely wasn't doing work, unless it also goes by the name A, who was currently hiding underneath my bedroom table upstairs. So here I was. Foot on the stairs, desperately trying to think of an idea
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I Cheated
2007-06-10 09:09:00
By the end of this post, you may hate me. There's no excuses to be made, so I'll just tell you how it happened and let you be the judge.The B mentioned in this post, well he was at a family party with A and I yesterday. And after a copious amount of alcohol (the fucking clichés of cheating stories), all 3 of us were just sitting on the ground talking and such, with me lying down on the floor to stop the spinning, when A leaves the room. Next thing I know B is on top of me and he's kissing me. I think of A.God knows why, but I kiss back briefly.I pull away to find her just entering the room again.Turns out A's mum had seen me and B and pointed her in the right direction.I told A everything of course, how it happened, what it was like but I couldn't tell her why I didn't push him off sooner. B was and is a friend and he had no idea about the relationship between me and A otherwise I'm pretty sure he wouldn't have tried it.So to complicate matters, A,B and I had all agreed to go
The worst thing is, she doesn't think she's done anything wrong
2007-06-27 15:48:00
Today was meant to be perfect. I passed my practical driving test (huzzah!) and then A and I went to the beach and planned to go to our anniversary meal tonight. So I phoned mum at work, asked her if it was ok if I go out tonight and she says, yeah sure. I wrote her a note anyway just in case and to avoid any complications. But at 6pm, when I'm at A's house, I get a phone call.Mum."What time are you going to be back?" "Er, 10ish/11" I guess. "10?! No way, lastest you can stay out is nine" It goes on and on, with Mum saying that I'm going out for a birthday meal on friday, that I had packing to do for the upcoming holiday (in 3 days) and that it's too much. I explain that I'm not going to be dining out all the time and that I've just finished my exams and had spare time for the first time in months. Mum hangs up on me. Only to call again and demand to know where I was. I said I was at a friend's house. She asked who was there. She demanded to speak to this friend. She demanded he
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Le Anniversary
2007-06-26 15:47:00
I never really knew what people usually did on their anniversary. On the occassions that I asked anyone who had been in a relationship for over a year, the answer would be, on 9 times out of 10, "Oh he's making me a romantic meal..." followed by gushing.Well I can't cook. And my type of gushing is in a totally different context. As for A, well, she tries to make curry.Anyways, since no one I know is going to ask me about my anniversary, I'm going to pretend you guys just did :)It was amazing.Just. Amazing.A came round early and we stayed in bed for hours all cuddled up and comfy before going to Starbucks where we were just talking like we always do and grinning goofily at each other over our drinks. Then we found some bean bags and laid there for hours talking, kissing, occasionally shoving each other off a beanbag and, near the end, finding amusement in the form of a sex book lying around.It might not sound very romantic or exciting to you, there wasn't any movie-esque moments of
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And I'm back!
2007-06-25 16:38:00
So today was the last day of my exams, which means that more blogging time than you can shake a stick at!So what's happening at the mo?Well, tomorrow is my anniversary with A - one year, which means it's the longest I've been in a relationship and had you told me even one year and one day ago that I would be with her then I would have told you that you were crazy. But even though it isn't a conventional relationship due to a number of things, and I know I'm still young, it is by far the best thing that's happened to me in my 17 years of life.We haven't got anything planned as of yet, since we both only finished exams today (although the timing is perfect so someone up there is obviously looking out for me!) so I'll have to let you know tomorrow what happens...
Holiday
2007-06-29 11:48:00
So I'm leaving the country for two weeks tomorrow to go on hol which means that this won't be updated until the 16th July at least, which is the day I get back. Make that the 17th. Jet lag and all.In the meantime, if you're really desperate for some blog action, then check out my fave blogs in my blogs list over there somewhere --->There's Miss Bubake, JaG and Vic to name a few, all with amazing blogs.Plus they don't bite :)
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Back in Rainy England
2007-07-24 04:47:00
The holiday was, well, what I expected it to be. Alright, but I'd much rather be away with friends and/or the girlfy.I saw her as soon as I could of course and on friday we went to a midnight opening of Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows because yes, we ARE that sad. Saturday was then naturally spent locked up in my room, fervently taking in the pages of the last book and as I read the last sentence, I could not help feeling a sense of loss as the book that I had been quite obsessed about a few years back came to an end.And tomorrow, well tomorrow will be my 18th birthday.Don't ask me what I'm doing as my dreadful organisation skills mean that I don't know myself.But hoping to spend the day with A and just kinda wing it from there.
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Good Vibrations
2007-08-04 11:51:00
I am officially the proud owner of a Rampant Rabbit.And believe me it definitely is worth the hype.It has these vibrating settings that cruelly tease you by pulsing and bringing you to the edge of org- then it stops. Then it starts again so you're left in limbo, always just a second away from that beautiful climax.Couple that with a teasing, hot girlfriend and there's no need to ask me how my birthday was ;)As for where I've been the last couple of days, well I went up to see some friends, who took me clubbing. My god, there are some people there that'll grind on anything that moves.
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, Vibrations
And So It Begins
2007-08-09 14:39:00
I am growing up.How do I know this?No, it's not because of my uncanny ability to fall asleep in a few seconds, anytime (daytime naps are the way forward, people), but because I have started my new full time job.Now since this means I hadn't seen A as much, I felt quite incomplete last night when I realised that it had been 4 days since I last saw her and hadn't told her about the advert that I saw on Sunday that reminded me of her, or the weird conversation that I overheard the other day and other such silly important stuff. So, I drove to hers after work.Let's just rewind here.I drove to hers after work.Which, if you ask me, is up there with other such grown-up phrases such as "Not tonight honey, I've had a tiring day." Of course, you may feel free to shoot me if I ever utter these words and mean it.
Dear A,
2007-08-17 03:22:00
I love you.When you said "I think I want to go to university this year", I wanted to beg and plead you not to, to stay with me for another year, just one more. What I said instead was, "Ok babe. Where?"That was yesterday.Now you have an interview lined up for monday and I have a feeling you're pretty much definitely going.We sat on the bridge over the train tracks at night, talking over what was to become of us. We realized we wouldn't be able to talk as much, with my new work commitments and your new uni ones. We realized that we definitely wouldn't see each other as much. I realized that I had to let you go, and you knew it too.But when you said, "I can't see us working babe", I couldn't stop the lump in my throat forming or the small tears spilling as water pressed up against my eyes.You asked me if there was a way, and I didn't know the answer.When I dropped you off home, you didn't get out for an hour. Instead you sat in the passenger seat and told me "But you make me happy
Where Are We Going?
2007-08-26 12:54:00
So we broke up.Then we kissed.Then we had sex.Then we broke up again.Then we kissed.And then yesterday we had sex again.And there were talks about us giving it a go, but now there are talks of us breaking up again. Except this time we're down to three options -1) Break up on the first day of her Uni2) Break up in the first week of her Uni3) Stay together and see how it goesHonestly, I'm not sure which one is more likely at the moment.
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Visits
2007-10-12 05:13:00
A is coming back tomorrow for the weekend, which, obviously, is highly exciting. It feels like I haven't seen her in ages, even though it hasn't even been 2 weeks but that is a long time to go without being wrapped up in her arms, or kissing her, or being fucked in the back of her car.I'm also getting my hair cut tomorrow morning (trust me it needs it) and slightly worried that it'll go terribly wrong and that I'll have to see A straight after. God, I'm such a girl.
*rubs eyes* An Update?!
2007-10-08 05:24:00
First of all, to all the readers out there that still come back to this blog after a month of awful neglect, sorry and thank you! There's been more than a few changes in my life and I suppose blogging just took a backseat for a while...So, what has happened?Well, we took option 3.We then went to Alton Towers , and stayed there for one amazing night in their hotel. And, for the first time, we were actually couple-y in public as we were miles away from anyone we knew and therefore couldn't be accidentally outed. It was so good. Like, just stopping in the middle of the street to kiss and not care who was watching or filming (Yeah and you thought you were being subtle. We could see the camera!)A few days before Alton, A also told one of her friends about us :0 She was fine about it, in fact, she was more jealous than shocked that we had been having hot lesbian sex all this time.Then a week after that, my parents went on holiday and guess who moved in for the time being :) We went clubbin
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Where are we going?
2007-11-24 10:35:00
I'll update properly soon, I really will. But for now, I thought I'd just tell you a little bit before I go out and meet A.At the moment, I'm still in love with A and I think she loves me too. But she says she's been feeling strange about us the past couple of weeks and due to my parents and the distance, she's not sure if I'm worth the effort anymore, especially since we're not going anywhere in this relationship, future-wise.So yeah, I'm really anxious about the conversation tonight.And by the way, the haircut? Apparently it looks like Elliot's off Scrubs. But not blonde, obviously.
Still Alive
2007-12-29 10:11:00
So situation at the moment? Let's see...Still with A? Check. (18 months as of Boxing Day! Eeee! :D)My closest friends know about me and A? Check (This was such a big hurdle. Fuck all the people who panic about telling their mum, telling your friends is just as hard!)Medical school offer for next year? Check.Good christmas? Check.Amazing new years eve in london coming up? Check (touch wood)New clothes from the January sales? Check.Happy? CHECK.:)Happy new year everyone, whoever you are.
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