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A long three days 2007-04-05 13:02:00 *Sigh*This will be a lonely three day week-end, er Thursday-Friday-Saturday. Obviously, people aren't going online and SOME of my friends are on HIATUS *Cough, RC. Cough!*. I'm not going home to Bataan this Holy Week and I won't be staying up all night either.Being diurnal is so boring. The nights are far more interesting in the sense that literature comes to life under the moonlight and the sweetest of words and lyrics make the most sense and meaning under the starlight.Take care of yourself. I owe you gift art. :P~+~+~+~On other things, I have no philosophical thoughts to share whatsoever as of this Lenten Week. Be it the remainder of the Catholic within me, or my newfound respect for the Faith, I may not come up with my atheistic thoughts for any longer.Wow, I do have those thoughts. It's just that I don't get them published because of the institution to which I am currently affiliated to. Yes - unfortunately, there is no such line between Faith and socio-relational treatments
Back! 2007-01-05 01:34:00 Haha... Back to school.Photobucket doesn't work in school. Can't see my lay-out. :(「おわり」~+~
Requirements 2006-12-15 08:53:00 Today was the day the Term Paper and the Filipino Children's Story were due. Luckily, with the innate powers of procrastination and cramming, I was able to pull these off with less than 2 hours of sleep as of Thursday.But it can't always be this way as I have exhausted my capabilities for an all-nighter. Moreover, there is ONE last requirement due tomorrow via e-mail. And it's a group work.I can't blame my partner or anyone else for these circumstances that arise but I can surely do something about how I deal with my academic workload. On an evaluation of my activities and finishing of academic requirements, I come to conclusion that my lack of focus and the presence of online temptations like Y!M, Blogger, Deviant Art, e-mail and the game I'm trying to finish, are the roots of my not being able to finish my work on time... [And to think I'm doing this right now]Even if I start a week before the due date.~+~+~+~If I change my attitude and my values towards life would it make me Read more:Requirements
A real entry 2006-12-13 02:36:00 Today along with all other days of this week is the Hell week of the third quarter. Simple really, if you don't submit all requirements before the 15th [Eng+Fil] and the 16th [Fil], an automatic zero will be merited for those particular requirements.Had it not been for that clearance requirement, I would probably go for the zero.~+~+~+~Lately, people I've been seeing are becoming concerned with some trivial things. Some have discussed over the course of action over a friend who has done the rather immoral. Others have simply focused on their first drops of the emotion which will both lead them through a chase through the meadows and into the cliffs. The rest are caught up in dilemmas I both understand and don't comprehend.I can't blame people for being caught up in these situations and neither can I blame myself for the involvement of many more to come. I can't point out and label being human as a crime and a mistake.[tbe] 「おわり」~+~
Greetings and Other Things? 2007-04-07 06:51:00 Oist!¡Feliz Cumpleaños, Kuya!~+~+~+~Anyway, on to more significant issues.After several weeks of artistic stagnancy, I'm finally visually inspired. YaY! Perhaps it really is summer or the fact that lunar conspiracies are getting to my head. I mean I do admit that staying up until alas dos is not healthy for my school-deprived brain. On the other hand, the absence of sleep seems to get me thinking more often. Is that good or bad?I owe Alyssa some comArt pa. Oops! Aly, if you're reading this, I'll give it on the first day of classes. :D~+~+~+~Hm... Just wondering about how people can tell the difference between love and infatuation. A former shrink of mine told me that infatuation seems far more intense than TL and it's too airy-fairy to be real. A friend of mine constantly in love said that infatuation is a step to love, that infatuation may develop into a destructive form of obsession or it may blossom into love. From literature and from observations, I still have not understood Read more:Greetings
Life Begins With... Grounding 2007-04-12 07:25:00 Yes. You read that right. Life begins with grounding.And that is precisely the reason for my online absence for the past several days.I was grounded for staying up too late on the Internet.Of course I have no obsessive Internet vices. I don't chat excessively with strangers. I simply blog and chat with friends I don't see so often. I check on good art online, courtesy of deviant Art. I don't hack to get my way through stuff and I don't steal.But I still broke the so-called rule as to shut of the PC at 21:00 and thus, a very long, long, long time away from my blogs, my sites, my mailbox and my Y!M. Though I had classes to attend to from 8:00 to 15:00, that still is no excuse to deprive me of this, especially blogging since this is my emotional outlet given that it is more objective than mothers or fathers.~+~+~+~And now, I shall rant, if not discuss the pro's and con's of parents and grounding.To ground a child is a form of discipline that requires a parent / guardian to take away Read more:Life Begins
To an Ageless Inkwell 2007-04-14 08:09:00 I just remembered now about my plans for Inkwell and its revival. For those of you who don't know, Inkwell is the literary writing club of the MPPA. In cooperation with the Creative Writing elective for juniors and seniors, the club also sponsors the Dalumat - MPPA's annual literary publication.By the way I say this Inkwell seem so sound like such a big shot club, right?Well, I hope so. Yet, quoting Cy Tamura [Inkwell's previous co-president], in reality it's a dying club in terms of the number of members, as well as in activity. After 2008, if things turn to for the worst, Inkwell might cease exist as legitimate school organization.And I don't want that to happen.After staying in that club for three years and running, I've seen things to improve on and others to change for the better. The last year's seniors have done a good job with inter-batch relations compared to the previous two batches wherein, as an underclassman I had absolutely no idea what went on unless I asked someo Read more:Ageless
Mathematics and Inverse Relations 2007-04-13 13:27:00 This is a geeky self-realization post. You can ridicule me for this but I don't care. If you feel moved in any way, please comment or tag or whatever. Thanks :D~+~+~+~I remember a time in my life when I used to be so passionate about math. Yes, you read that right. I used to love math so much.In a way, mathematics was my first love. Not a day went by without me solving math problems from different books and trying to understand far more advanced concepts for my grade level. I would see mathematics in almost every aspect i could think of, including art and music, and I would find the connections making those applications ever more beautiful with math. And not a day went by that I didn't think of becoming a mathematics teacher in the future.Of course, even intersection competitions in grade school weren't ignored. Though I didn't win in all of them [because of nervousness and clammy hands onstage] the participation was what mattered to me, that I could not only represent my class in Read more:Inverse
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Of Men, Women and Age 2007-04-17 15:00:00 I just got a haircut last Sunday and according to some friends who've seen it, I look a couple of years older. If you need proof well:Me: March 2007 [poor me... mukhang basang sisiw XP] Me: April 2007 [looks 18 yrs old according to some people]Well that was not really helpful, now was it? Anyway, back to the main issue.Anyway, when I use Y!M, I rarely use my picture as my display image. Usually I pick an abstract work or a wisecrack comic from sites like Sinfest or XCKD or something nice from dA. But when I do use my picture, it's just because I feel like it and as I mentioned earlier, that's not so often.And of all times to use it, a chatmate of mine who happened to be three years my junior, by age and academically just im-ed me and so the conversation:him: hellome : hihim: where do you studyhim: ??me : mppahim: what year??me : incoming seniorhim: ahh okiehim: you're the one in that pic? you're cute!me: ah... thanks? :-/You know compliments like these mean nothing really. It's Read more:Women
The Internet is Really, Really Great... 2007-04-16 13:17:00 ... for porn. Just kidding. It's just to complete the lyrics of this song from Avenue Q.But really. It's great since you get to interact in ways you just can't find the courage to in real life.Example - in real life, I don't have much of a magisteria of an audience. I'm not exactly an inspirational speaker. I appear to be bitchy and obnoxious most of the time, and this drives off people. But here, being a bitch is better than it is in real life. Ranting online isn't half as bad as it is in real life. Because people are judgmental, it's worse when they can see your face. We tend to look at appearances because it's the closest assumption we can get to a person we barely know.And that's just sad because you're putting a period in your sentence where there should only be a semi-colon.And so, the Internet
is really, really great for serving as a mask for all our personal insecurities.「おわり」~+~ Read more:Great
Where Friendship is Bounded 2007-04-20 13:14:00 I know some people haven't had a disagreement or two with some of their friends. If you're one of these people, I guess there's something wrong or you guys are too good a match. :DAnyway, I just got into a disagreement with a friend of mine over some extra-curricular issues. Somehow, it was taken too personally that the issue blew out of proportion. Sad to say that things got out of hand so I had no choice but to force him to cool down by marking him as spam.I know I was at fault to get pissed off at the magnification of a trifle. But to reflect one's own family / personal / relational / social issues on my short-comings for that particular circumstance, and to bash at me that way can just go to show one's priorities.Does he care more for his ego than the people around him?Do personal issues concerning how other people treat him get to him? And since he can't take it out on the majority that is a batch, he'd just take it out on anyone else who irks him?And simply because people Read more:Friendship
The Absence of Literary Inspiration 2007-04-22 12:22:00 As of this past week, my right brain seems to have atrophied from the excessive use of my left brain to review for the college entrance exams, as well as to prepare myself academically for the incoming school year. However, I would like to look back at what I had planned to accomplish this summer and this is what I've done so far:Me:Cooking. Breakfast basics, macaroni and cheese and leche flan counts [o.5]Spend less time thinking too much.Read more.An increase in vocabulary usage - in English [o.5]Family:[nil]Friends:Nurture present relationships.Repair broken ones.Move on.Inkwell:Plan the guidebook intended to be passed on to future batches, er generations of Inkspots and Inkblots. This book is not going to be a rule book, but simply something to use for consultation in case certain scenarios, like writers block come up. :PBlog:Write more posts for public consumption. lol.MPPAReview. Entrance exams for college are coming up and I want to give my best in my last year of high school. I Read more:Literary
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Getting My Life Back on Track 2007-04-28 08:37:00 I guess that after taking some consideration, I've decided to keep myself from floating off into the unknown void and and to stay grounded. And I know that even if it means walking around, perhaps for the rest of my life with a cannonball chained to both my legs, I'll do it just to make sure I won't be joining the heavens too early.Of course, you'll still be my best friend [and perhaps more] and my confidante. Projecting from the way things are going, the status quo will remain. We can still talk the way we do and feel the way we do about everything. And I promise that still, no one shall ever take your place.But after thinking deeply about how fast this train is going and where it's headed, I see the need to pull the brakes and slow down. You know what I mean. Even if we're mentally in our late twenties and emotionally, perhaps, older we can't deny that we're still chronologically 16. Bottom line: we're going too fast. I do trust you with my heart and we both know that. But a Read more:Track
, Life Back
Random Thoughts 2007-04-26 09:48:00 Strangely, I don't feel motivated to write / rant about some random thing in the world.Perhaps it's contentment.I'm happy with what's happening in my life.I have a purpose.I have something / someone to live for.I know where I want to go and I know what I want to be.Strangely, I can see a glimpse of a very good and happy future.But I should still get my thoughts and my mind straightened out.I should still see this world view - our place it it together - clear enough to know it's real.I still trust you, you know that!Still, contentment is as far off as the distance to Andromeda.*sigh*「おわり」~+~ Read more:Random
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Friendster and Retrospection 2007-04-24 10:54:00 It's been a while since I've given some attention to my Friendster
page. I know that Friendster is so 6th grade and all but it's there simply to augment the traffic in this blog. Or at least it's there because I've kept it for quite some time already.But the main point of this post is not about the whole Friendster-MySpace-Multiply-is-a-conspiracy idea. You see, I was, er reminded by a former schoolmate *cough, Raymund! cough!* about something which didn't really concern him. And to cut this short, I just left him a message and just updated my page.Much later, I skimmed through my page when I read some of the testimonials I got from acquaintances and friends. I came across Ate Tin's testimonial:"I fondly call her KT.and I miss her so much. She's one person I'd always want to see smiling. She has a peculiar way of expressing her feelings; and her ideas make me wonder sometimes, "is she really 16?"Like gold that needs to be refined in fire, such is the kind of friendship you'll
Gratitude of Some Sort 2007-04-30 13:49:00 Somehow, I'm thankful for the educational system in my current high school. Even if the facilities aren't as high end as Ateneo or other schools, what they teach is probably more than enough to get us to survive the entrance exams and college [of course, the latter isn't without personal effort from the student].However, not all public high schools are as fortunate.Sometimes I know my schoolmates, I myself included, complain about how inadequate some of our computers are, as well as the unit sharing. At times we get annoyed when the DOST server is down, which means the absence of Internet access. But we forget that there are schools who don't even have a single computer unit for their students.Students from my school, well some, complain when the subjects are too difficult for us or when the instructor can be such a pain *sometimes.* Have we ever given a thought about other schools with not enough teachers? Or teachers who are just there for the highly inadequate paycheck but don'
Life Back on Track... 2007-04-29 14:38:00 At least things are better for now..."Suspension"Lately I'm alrightand lately I'm not scaredI've figured out,that what you do to me feels likeI'm floating on air.I don't need to know right nowall I know is I believein the very thing that got us hereand now I can't leave.Say anything, but say what you mean,cause I'm caught in suspension.Now,I'm wanting this for sureand I'll beg for nothing more.I'll plan all day and drive all nightyou'll love what's in store.I can't seem to stop this noweven if it's not so clear,and I'll take what I can get.If you want me here (If you want me here)Say anything, but say what you mean.When you whisper you want thisyour eyes tell the same.We are gaining speedI can barely breathe.Cause I'm caught in suspension.It's enough for me to get excited,It's enough for me to feel...Oh!Say anything, but say what you mean.When you whisper you want this.Your eyes tell the same.We are gaining speed (suspension)I can barely breathe (Oh, please say what y Read more:Track
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Three Moons 2007-05-03 15:31:00 Three months.Three moons.A folders worth of conversations.Wordless exchange.Four hours a day on the average.Sunsets and sunrise.Secrets between friends.Confessions through fiber-optics.Thoughts, Reason, Emotion.Priceless.And come to think of it, this game of ours has gone on for years.With love, Katarina「おわり」~+~ Read more:Three
Indefinite 2007-05-02 15:11:00 Indefinitely away, that is. No, I'm not migrating to Elsewhere if that's what you're asking.Tomorrow, I'll be in Bataan to visit some relatives from both sides. Great. [add an exclamation point for one side of the family though!]Next week, I'll be away from the 8th to the 11th of the month to go on a trip with my Family to HK.Last year was to Southern CA but I wasn't able to chronicle it [or post pictures] because most of them had me in an arm sling. And if you're wondering, that was from a clavicular fracture months prior to that trip.Back to the subject.I don't have anything against going out with my family. In fact I really miss it since I grew up and am still growing up with a father only 3 months around because of his work contract as a Master Mariner. But *strange!* my Mom got a tourist package which included Disneyland HK *pukes on keyboard*.Admittingly, I'd say that the first time I went to Disneyland in Los Angeles it was unforgettable... I'd just turned 10, you see.
Scratch That 2007-05-04 16:27:00 The kitchen hates me as I hate working in it.Yes, you read that right. I give up on cooking. So much for my attempts to learn this summer.Strangely, I know more about guys housework than expected. I know how to repair basic electronics, inclusive of household appliances. I can work on the water pump and mind you, it's just fine. Lately, I'm getting interested in basic car maintenance as well.Still, I only know how to cook eggs and cup noodles. As of now, I still have no hope of learning how to cook other food. Sad isn't it? Nowadays, the family joke is that come the time double or so my current age I'd better have married someone by then who can cook or else the prospect of cup noodles or egg for meals for the rest of my life [unless of course, I hire a cook].I understand that is an expectation in the Filipino culture that a woman should learn to cook and should cook. What I don't is that my family can't appreciate what I can do without a man [albeit what I still have not managed Read more:Scratch
A Short Note 2007-05-07 08:44:00 I'll be leaving tomorrow morning for what I think is the first flight to Hong Kong, ETD 08:00. ETA 20:00 on the 11th.Perhaps having fun every once in a while shouldn't hurt. I mean it's just lack of sleep and the inevitably looming homework that I'm trying to avoid but forced to face.As soon as I can get my hands again on the computer [probably by the 12th in the afternoon] I will update. Trifles and details of the trip will most likely end up on my Multiply account.Seriously, I'll miss getting my hands busy on a keyboard. Four days isn't so bad, right?PS Pray that I won't go on a bitch fit for having to stay with my family all the time. Admittedly it's suffocating to be forced to be around them all the time. I know this won't be like the trip last year to Southern California. *prays really really hard*「おわり」~+~ Read more:Short
Personal Statements 2007-05-14 15:11:00 On a lighter note, please view and vote for "Infinite Possibilities" at this site Read more:Personal
Facets 2007-05-13 17:38:00 This is a weak point presented. As of now, I'm in a current state of mind wherein thoughts are hard to verbalize.~+~+~+~Over dinner, we were cracking up jokes on the political dynasties present in the Philippines. For example in Bataan, there's a family - from the father to the mother to a couple of children or so, whose members are running for office in almost all places from councilor to vice mayor to mayor to board member to vice governor. Suddenly I wondered if the family dog was vying for a position as the barangay captain [though I think the process for this is non-electoral].It's a reality that political dynasties control some, if not a huge part[s] of Philippine governance. However, the governance of political units has become comparable to a family business which is passed on by building up a family name instead of the quality of political leadership guiding the citizens whom which the government was designed to serve.Though fathers leave legacies of greatness and social im
Lights and Sounds [TBC] 2007-05-12 13:01:00 For something different: Read my VisualDNA™ Get your own VisualDNA™~+~+~+~Back to the main topic:If there was one thing in Disneyland HK which actually got my approval it was the Festival of the Lion King - a stage performance of the feature length film The Lion King. Perhaps save for the excessively kid friendly language, theme, choreography, costumes, et al I'd have given a standing ovation.Enough about that part. I have a different post for that.The performance was energetic and alongside the expensive props, technical equipment and costumes, the kids left the amphitheater giddy and singing out loud to the songs. The old folks and the patents were pleased for the kids weren't as misbehaved as compared to prior to entrance time.And I was left awestruck with the quality of the performance.Sure, there are elements of Chinese theater present, especially in the acrobatics performed as well as the fight scenes. Compounded, I was left with a lingering feeling of what a good happy Read more:Lights
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Frustrations 2007-05-17 14:41:00 When you know you really want to finish something but you're incapacitated to do so When you've reached your limits at the start of the game When you see that your best sometimes, if not often, is not good enough When you forget what you need the most when you need it the most When you can't turn back time and fix your mistakes When you've learned your lesson at the end of the class When you can't apologize because the person has long gone When you've realized that the right answers were just right under your nose......and you missed them When Reason stands powerless against untimely desires When everything you've believe in turned out to be a mistakeWhen you've invested so much only to lose everythingWhen you shift your paradigm to see that the Life you've led is meaninglessWhen you can't find something / someone to live for When you've fallen in love with the right person at the right place...... at the wrong time 「おわり」~+~
Shrink-age 2007-05-15 16:38:00 I own a WordPress blog. It's for random stuff and ventilations so I won't link to it. But I'd like to point out something.Halfway across the world, someone asked for advice in relation to his personal problem with a friend. By serendipity, he was able to come across an entry in that blog. And this particular entry somewhat highlighted what he needed.I did reply privately over mail for confidentiality. However I'm now left with a sense of intrigue as to how other people deal with such problems.Risk is everywhere. But it is in risk that you get the best and the worst in Life. No one always wins and gets everything desired and wanted. You win some, you lose some.Still, no one said you can't tip the odds to your favor!It will hurt when you lose something/someone you consider dear. But that's not the end of it all. The cycle of Creation and Destruction goes on.And this is why I gamble at Life and it's chances if not to a rather self-defeating perspective.「おわり」~+~
Year-Ender 2006-12-31 15:01:00 I won't summarize the ending year like what I did with one of my old Blogger blogs but I'll just stick to the lessons learned. 1. Illusions seem most real when you believe them to be so. 2. Proving something? Aim to prove. 3. There's always a home waiting for you to return even if you've gone astray. 4. Sometimes, not listening to the authority helps you in more ways than you can imagine. 5. Deviation is not a crime against society. 6. You don't have to be contented with where you are. Breaking out of your shell may just be the best thing to ever happen. 7. You can be part of a crooked society but it takes more to recognize it. 8. Love yourself. 9. WAIT. 10. Don't stop just because there's a wall in front of you. Find a detour or climb that wall. 「おわり」~+~
Frozen and Melted 2006-12-02 09:01:00 It's past midnight and I'm still here.Hah.I'm just letting this out. The fact that I can won't make me any weaker than you. The fact that I can does otherwise.~+~+~+~Weren't you the one who asked?"fr0zen_steel: that is so unfair. i mean, if he asked you out, and you agreed, then you have all the right in the world to tell to whom you please that you're his prom date. unless he's hiding something from someone...."Anyway, I think I should let you go. For one, I shouldn't be too hard on psychotic [schizotypal] patients. These kind of people need special treatment and attention so instead of being mad at that person, I should be more understanding.Besides, I'm sure God would want what's best for me; He'd definitely pick the doctor over the fellow patient to help cure me.Also, I hope if you don't mind, a little Holiday cheer would do some good. No fireworks, dear boy. Just a thought.~+~+~+~Next time, I hope you don't see that everything you do is entirely correct. You yourself Read more:Frozen
No more Date 2006-12-01 12:03:00 Haha... He finally got me.He found out. Apparently, I was right the whole time.The only reason I told my room mate was to see if he'll find out and to know if the only reason he's going out with me is to wreck everyone's night.And more or less he is.In disguise.Now that people know...well, you get the idea.~+~
Cookies 2006-11-30 09:10:00 Who knew that fortune cookies were true at some point.~+~ Read more:Cookies
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