We're Moving Back...We're Moving Back!!!
2006-10-17 17:20:36
The house is officially off the market. We are moving back. I am so happy. I am so nervous. My head is spinning. I feel like I am going to throw up. I am scared. I am relieved. I won't feel sick anymore. Our beautiful home.
I can't believe it. Each day when I wake up at the apartment I feel sad and sick. No more. We are moving back this weekend.
The housing market is going down, and this is the best option for us. The apartment complex knows we are moving out, so that is taken care of.
Oh so many phone calls and arrangements to make. The kids will be thrilled!
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Chelle Belle
2006-10-17 14:38:09
Please welcome my new sleepover buddy Chelle Belle
. She does blog designs that rock and has a great blog. She talks about anything and everything.
Make sure to go over and click. Say hello.
Just Call Me Debbie Downer
2006-10-16 15:00:19
All I have blogged about is negative stuff lately. That is it. Bitch and moan, bitch and moan. Man, I am suprised you are still coming back...tee hee.
I have dropped my DBT class. I really felt uncomfortable in the group setting. An 18 week commitment at $35.00 a week, I am not going to do if I am not completely and totally in love. And I wasn't.
I just need to not have any commitments until I feel better. Until I am well again.
Damn you Zoloft, kick in soon, will ya?
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ADD In The House
2006-10-13 14:52:33
Hubz and I talked to the pediatrician about MJ's anger issues. He thinks that maybe it stems from frustration with her concentration. So Hubz and I and her teacher had to fill out a questionnaire to try do determine what the problem may be. The doctor has determined ADD.
Teachers that MJ has had in the past have thought this as well. Of course being the way I am, I pushed it to the side and said no. Hubz and I are now seeing what the teachers are saying, and we want to help her in any way we can.
The doctor prescribed something called Focalin. It is a pill that you can break open and sprinkle on her cereal or in some applesauce. I must admit I am a bit iffy about the whole thing, but Hubz thinks it is the right thing to do, so I am right along with him on it.
MJ does need help. She has such a hard time concentrating in school and with her homework. She has so much trouble with math as well, and apparently that is one sign of con
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Everything Is A Hurdle
2006-10-12 19:14:22
Everything going on in my life feels like a hurdle. I just keep going day to day, jumping over one hurdle then another.
I am just depressed and anxious. I feel like I have static (anxiety) all within me. I feel like the days at work just drag, the nights of sleep just aren't long enough, and I have to push myself to get ready in the morning. I feel like I need one day to just be in my jammies, alone, to just do nothing. Just one day. No laundry, no chores, just me and a book and maybe some good movies.
I am just not in a good way. The doctor prescribed some Zoloft for me. I hope it works soon. Because this is not me, and not good for me.
Tonight I have my DBT class (hurdle). I hope it is good and goes fast. I had a hard time sitting there last time.It has wonderful things to teach me, but I'm just not into it. Not into that or going to Curves. Not into anything.
Life just sucks right now.
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, Hurdle
Oh House Woes
2006-10-09 23:44:25
The house thing isn't going to be able to happen, so we just hope it sells soon. It has been on the market for three months now, and the house a few doors down (lower priced) has gotten an offer. I am thankful to just hear that something around us got an offer, it is a positive thing. Very positive.
There is only so much you can do to get the house ready. Paint it white so that it is a blank canvas for them to imagine their things in. Clean, clean, and clean some more, for the sparkle and shine the realtor keeps talking about. And prayers. That is all we can do.
We don't want to be house poor. Living at the apartment will make life so, so, so much easier on the wallet, and then some. We just want to move on with our lives and start over. I will continue to be homesick for a while, but it will pass. I think the antidepressants that the doctor just put me on will help. I just want to feel like me again.
Bear wit
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Welcome My New Sleepover Buddy
2006-10-09 17:34:33
Please say hello to my new renter Unexplored Territory. She is a married, mother of three. Her cast of kiddos: Queen Bee, Door Man, and Chandelier Monkey. I just love those names. Don't you wonder where they came from? You will have to pop over there to find out.
She has a great blog, so go ahead and say hi.
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, Sleepover
, Buddy
I Am Homesick
2006-10-07 23:47:27
I am so so homesick, I can't stop crying about it. Our house has had so many showings, and nobody wants it. It makes me think that God is telling us something.
I don't want to be at this apartment. I am going stir crazy, and I have been nothing but depressed and have that wicked agida since I got here. I don't want to be here. I want to be home, at the house.
We are going to try to figure out a way to maybe go back there. We are going to work things out between us and I am glad for that.
Wish us luck, and please send good vibes our way, just like you always do.
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First DBT Class
2006-10-06 15:23:46
What did I learn? Good things, but I had such a hard time sitting there for an hour and a half. I don't want that to stop me from going, because this class could be so good for me.
We first discussed cognitive behavior therapy and what that is. It is when you discuss bad patterns of thinking and how to change those thoughts with more realistic or helpful ones. That is something I so desperately need. For example: my original thought, "I can't believe that I forgot to buy the kids their Lunchables and now I have to make them cheese sandwiches." I could give myself some soothing self talk and say, "Well atleast I have food to give them for their lunches. Everybody forgets sometimes, especially since your brain is on overload, it's okay."
This is the kind of thing to help all of my negative/destructive thoughts and try to turn them into positive/nurturing thoughts. It is hard to do. I wonder if I a
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Today Is Going To Be A Good Day
2006-10-04 16:03:38
Today I am using some mantras to try to make today a good day.
I am confident. I am smart. I am beautiful. I am a good mother. I am a good person. I am creative. I am supportive. I am loving. I am caring. I am a good friend. I am a good listener. I am a good advice giver. I am someone people want to spend time with. I am funny. I am me.
Like it, or don't. I am me. This is me, and this is who I am.
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, Going
, Good Day
Things I Need To Do For Me
2006-10-03 18:14:24
Read a book that is not self help.Take a long hot bath.Go out and dance.Cook myself a nice dinner.Find some girlfriends.Go window shopping.Make plans and goals for myself.Make my apartment feel like a home, make it mine.Blog more.Read and comment on other blogs.Get out there.Push myself to go to Curves.Do some yoga.Watch some of my favorite shows.Walk around Tyler Arboretum.
and much. much more...
I Had A Feeling This May Happen
2006-10-02 00:21:11
I am sad. I am sad and I feel depressed. Dammit, not again, but here we are. I had a feeling this would happen.
All I want to do is sleep away the time. I cry at the drop of a hat. I can't stop worrying about forgetting things, whatever that may be. I feel like shit. I hate everything right now.
I go to see the shrink again next week. I think I am going to ask for antidepressants.
This whole move and separation has taken a toll on me. We go back to the house to do work and I don't even want to be there, because it just hurts. Hurts not seeing our things there, hurts looking at it empty. Hurts to paint over the paint that I slaved over to make the house look nice. Hurts to just be there in any sense. I just wish that someone would buy it already. It is always weighing heavy on my heart.
This sucks.
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Much More Than A Mom
2006-10-01 15:41:05
Please welcome my new renter Much More Than A Mom. What a great title for a blog, because sometimes we get so lost in being a mom that we forget all of the other hats we wear.
She is a Wife, daughter, sister, fur-baby mama, friend, teacher,
geek-in-training, fitness instructor, personal trainer, workshop
presenter... plus much more I am sure.
Go ahead over, click that thumbnail, and visit my new sleepover buddy!
The Yearly Checkup
2006-09-29 14:34:04
Last night we took the kiddos to their yearly checkup. I don't even think we have been there since last year, even for a sick visit. It is a nice doctor's office, and the kids love it because they have characters from The Little Mermaid as murals on the walls.
We talked to the doctor about MJ and her anger, that we were very concerned. Also concerned about the fact that Mommy has Bi-Polar and Daddy suffers from depression. So he gave us some paperwork to do, one for me, one for Hubz, and one for the teacher, so he can get a little more insight about what is going on. I am thankful that Hubz made MJ and I go out of the room, because she doesn't need to know anything about it right now.
Then Benny's turn. He was such a good boy. After all was said and done it was time for him to get two shots. The nurse gave him the one and he just shouted, "OW!". Then she gave him the shot in the other arm, and all we got was a
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Agida
2006-09-28 15:41:07
What is Agida? To me its the restlessness that the meds give me. I could be sitting on the couch talking, but my body doesn't want to sit there being still. It drives me crazy, so I try to get grounded and be in the moment, then it goes away.
I have always wanted energy. The coffee, the Red Bull, the Vivarin. I have asked for more energy my entire adult life, and now that I have it, it is driving me nuts. Go figure. I have this Agida morning, afternoon, and evening. I sleep fine though.
What can I do to get rid of some of this crazy new energy? What do you think?
Doesn't Feel Like Home Just Yet
2006-10-23 21:55:21
We are all moved back, and mostly unpacked. What a nightmare that fiasco was. So much stuff, trying to get organized. We did a little bit each night last week then the big stuff on Saturday. We are wiped.
It doesn't feel like home yet. Feels like the house, but not home. I wish you could have seen the look on Benny's face when he came in the door. He said, "My house, my beautiful house!" Priceless. See, I never took them back there after we moved to the apartment, because I didn't want to confuse or upset them at all.
So we are there, with a white livingroom and nice new furniture. We will be painting the livingroom back this weekend.
This Blog Needs A Makeover
2006-10-24 14:39:58
I am so disappointed because Nello Design was going to do my design for me, but she is taking a hiatus at the moment.
Anyone out there good at blog design? I want to keep my graphic at the top (maybe not the word balloon), but this blog needs a makeover, STAT.
Any takers?
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, Makeover
Baking Betties
2006-10-25 15:21:34
Go check out my new renter Baking
Betties. You want recipes? THIS is the place to go.
Right now they have all sorts of cool ideas for Halloween goodies.
Well what are you waiting for? Go!
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Typepad or Blogger?
2006-10-30 15:12:10
I have been considering switching from Typepad to Blogger
. That way I could get a really cool design. What do you think?
Smiles
2006-10-30 21:20:26
Why is it when you smile at people, they either don't smile back or give you a dirty look? Just trying to be pleasant. Just trying to be sociable. I don't get that.
Are people that miserable? Does it make them afraid? What up?
Your thoughts?
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Halloween Fun
2006-11-01 15:09:21
The kiddos had a great Halloween
and got lots and lots and lots and lots of goodies. Too many goodies. I think we will be sugared up until Christmas at this rate.
Everyone looked so cute. MJ was Bulbasaur from Pokemon, and Benny was Larry Boy. My MIL and SIL made the costumes for them. I will post some pictures soon on my Flickr. Just freakin adorable.
We always have a bunch of people over for Halloween. And honestly we were going to go to my MIL's for trick or treating, since we were at the apartment. So I am glad we were able to be home and do what we usually do.
Always fun.
Please Welcome My New Sleepover Buddy
2006-11-01 15:04:13
Please go and say hi to Kristie at Slacker Moms R Us. I love how she describes herself...Hi my name is Kristie and I am a slacker mom. I drive my kids to school in my PJ's, I can make a couple of Happy Meals from the floor of my car, my kids eat in front of the television, and I believe a dirty house helps kids have a healthy immune system.Now THAT is classic. I can relate 100%. Her blog is down to earth, witty, and fun. Make sure to tell her Self-Proclaimed Supermom sent ya.
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, Welcome
, Sleepover
, Buddy
Gratuitous Family Pics
2006-11-02 14:32:15
Here they are
and us
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What Is It With Bedtime?
2006-11-03 14:39:06
We are having such a hard time putting Benny to bed these days. If we try to put him to bed alone, he is fine for about 3 minutes, then he comes downstairs to inform us how 'scared' he is.
So, what I have to do is lay with him in his bed until he falls asleep, which is only about 15 minutes or less, BUT, usually I end up falling asleep too, and I don't want to do that. I will never have any alone time if this keeps up.
So, I was wondering if any of you have ever had this sort of problem? Do you have any suggestions for me?
HELP!
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What? Me Worry?
2006-11-04 18:12:38
I must admit that I am the type of person that worries about EVERYTHING. I hate that about myself, but it is part of who I am, and I am trying to realize that it's okay.
I am always worried about being forgetful. That I will forget something important, like the kid's lunch money, or Ben's Lunchable on the day he goes to the after school program. Maybe I will forget what day gym is at school and put the kids in their regular uniform and have to bring them home to get changed. This is the kind of crap that I worry about. Oh, and of course money. Always worried about money.
I have been so unmotivated to do anything lately. I need to get back on track. I am going to listen to a little Tony Robbins, because he always whips me into shape.
This post made no sense at all...tee hee. Just a few random thoughts for a Saturday.
Self-Proclaimed Stat Whore
2006-11-06 14:39:04
I am a total and complete stat whore. Site Meter, oooh how I love you.
I love to see who is on my blog and when, where they are from, how long they were on, and how they got here. Especially how they got here.
I don't have anything sick or really funny. But I love Google because when people type in 'Supermom' (which alot of people do, it seems) this blog comes up FOURTH! Woo HOO! Pretty cool, I must say.
Are you a stat whore like me?
(Oh and by the way, if you are interested, there are some new pics on my Flickr!)
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The Kind Of Person I Want To Be
2006-11-06 16:58:12
I am constantly on the quest to better myself, or become the kind of person that I want to be.
I want to meditate and make it a daily practice. I want to be the kind of person that people want to spend time with. I want to eat healthy foods and make a positive impact on my children and be a healthier person.. I want to be happy, and share that with others. I want to make people laugh. I want to be more spiritual with my Zen-Catholic ideas. I want to be a more motivated person. I want to be a good mother that other mothers admire. I want to be a good wife, lover, and friend. I want to be a good sister, daughter, and worker. I want to be more peaceful and compassionate. I want to be a better listener.
Boy, I sure do ask alot of myself don't I? But those are some of the things that I am working on now that I am feeling much, much, much, much better.
Back on the quest!
Lurker, Lurker. Are You A Lurker?
2006-11-07 16:14:58
Hey all you lurkers of my blog. I would love for you to say hi to me and leave me a comment. Come on now, tell me about you, and why you read me. The unknown is killing me.
I must admit sometimes I lurk too, but I am going to try to change all that and start commenting more.
Show me some love!
Finding Yoga
2006-11-08 14:22:38
I am on the quest to find just the right yoga class for me. I have never taken a yoga class before, just videos at home, but like Hubz says, "You have been talking about doing this for over a year now, let's figure out how you can do it!"
There aren't too many places to go. We went to a local gym last night to have a tour. They have a yoga class on Thursday nights. Then there is a yoga studio not too far from me. It is more expensive than the gym, but the classes are longer and it seems like a holistic place. They do massage and facials as well.
I don't know how I feel about the gym. It is okay, and they have a pool and a sauna and tanning if I would want to partake in any of that. They have alot to offer. But the yoga studio sounds really good too. I need to go over there and check it out before I make any kind of decision.
I am finally going to do something for me. Something I can do every week, JUST.&n
Unexplored Territory
2006-11-08 14:16:13
Please say hello to my renter Unexplored Territory
.
She is a married, mother of three. Her cast of kiddos: Queen Bee, Door
Man, and Chandelier Monkey. I just love those names. Don't you wonder
where they came from? You will have to pop over there to find out.
She has a great blog, so go ahead and say hi. She likes staying for a sleepover!
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