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Nearly normal 2007-04-22 00:21:00 Feeling better at any rate. I'm not 100% yet, but it's a vast improvement on yesterday. Bought myself a bottle of merlot this afternoon. The dealcoholised stuff, Fre - produced by Sutter Home apparently. It's rather pleasant, not sweet like merlot grape juice but without the tannin taste of the alcoholic stuff. Have also been smoking, so must knock that on the head. Only had two, but there were two yesterday as well. There's no point dropping one addition for another after all.I also spent some time this evening playing around with the timer on my camera and the effects on a shareware photo effects programme I downloaded called Dream Light Photo Editor. Rather liked the outcome, and have posted some of the results on my myspace page. Not sure of the wisdom of that, but then there's nothing dubious on there for me to worry about I don't think. My new profile pic is one of the results of the playing around. Rather pleased with this one. Dream Light can't do what I want f Read more:Nearly
Arrgghhh!! Need more money 2007-04-26 23:06:00 I hate lusting after things I can't afford. It's so frustrating. And usually involves books these days, which isn't going to be exciting to anyone else. That's right, the bloody Folio Society is tormenting me again. Although, unlike the renewal offers, I know I can't be tempted into going for this one because I really, really can't afford it.It's Shakespeare. Again. Only this time it's just four of the plays (well, really just the one, but if you're going to have unrealistic fantasies about book buying you might as well go the whole hog). They are producing a series with the overall title Four Great Tragedies, with the first in the series being Hamlet, my favourite Shakespeare. But this isn't just any edition. It is intended specifically to be read, which sounds like a dumb thing to say but actually means that it doesn't have notes and textual variants cluttering up the page and interrupting the flow. An accompanying commentary gives the text with notes and appendi
Random activity in Camden 2007-04-25 08:26:00 A friend of mine texted me the other day to say someone had randomly stuck a tattoo on him. Bit weird, since I can't see how you can sneak up on someone with the gun and rapidly tattoo them without being smacked round the head at the first touch. Anyway, he sent me one of these things. It's like those stickers you can get for kids which transfer onto the skin, and it glows in the dark. Very random.Apparently these people were running round Camden
with these temporary tattoo thingies. It was some kind of advertising for this text company which answers questions. If you text a question to the number on the tattoo, 63336, then they send you the answer. Must be great for pub quizzes.Bunny is definitely in need of a visit to the vet. I can't watch TV anymore if he's loose, it's getting that bad. Must be frustrating for the poor critter, but seriously, it's getting gross! Knowing that your bunny is always going to be pleased to see you is becoming worrying.One of my colleagues and I Read more:Random
Minor alteration 2007-04-29 23:13:00 I've changed the profile photo - having had minor doubts about having the last one up, GBF saying he thought it was sexy but that he wouldn't have posted it helped make my mind up. Still, I would never have even considered it six months ago. Consider it a step forward in body confidence. The new profile image is tattoo number 5. Read more:Minor
Projecting an image of me 2007-04-29 19:20:00 I find I'm much more careful and interested in my dress these days. Rather than just dragging something out of my wardrobe and slinging it on, I take a bit more time to think about the look I want for the day. I play with accessories and colour combinations. It's like I'm putting on a character. Who do I want to be today? Limited options when I'm working of course, so when the weekend comes the choice becomes more important. And on Saturday I, fortunately, chose an outfit which worked in several differnt situations for the day. Black jeans, white t-shirt with my black mesh shirt knotted over the top, black and white heels, my skull decorated bandana around my throat and my purple bandana tied to one of the belt hooks of my jeans. Add a chucky belt, jewellery, dark lipstick and sunglasses and I was done. I was pleased with yesterday's look. It felt good and looked good, and that gave me confidence which may well have translated into the way I walked and my projection on th
Just a quickie 2007-05-02 08:54:00 The weekend is in sight - woohoo! Must stop the smoking after Friday, it really isn't good. Don't think stopping will be a problem though.LA Guns were awesome on Monday. I've put a couple of pics up over here but they aren't that great because the camera on my phone isn't terrific. I'm living in hope of being able to see Gypsy Pistoleros tonight, assuming I get everything ready for tomorrow in time, but I really won't be able to stay for Faster Pussycat. Might be wisest not to go at all, but I don't want to have to wait another couple of months before I see them live again.Otis has made a right mess. He has scattered chewed up cardboard all over the carpet, and seems to use his digging box rather than his cage to pee in these days. Really need to find something to go under that, it will eventually make a mess of the carpet too.
And finally I can rest 2007-05-04 21:12:00 Busy, busy, busy time at work is over and I now have four days off to look forward to. Woohoo! I've got to go get the exhaust replaced on the car on Tuesday mind, so lots of non-fun expenditure there, to go with having had to replace a tyre on Monday when I discovered I had a flat. I'm exhausted though, and am hoping the neighbours won't have their alarms on tomorrow morning. Mine is certainly being switched off.I had a great night on Wednesday at the club, and I might add I looked utterly fabulous. Sadly, Gypsy Pistoleros didn't actually play, which was only a partial shame. However, it meant I was able to hear Faster Pussycat after all - I had been thinking I would need to miss them in order to be in a fit condition for Thursday.Proof positive that I was looking fabulous came in the unexpected actions of various men in the club. Most of the time I hang out there by myself, which is fine. On Wednesday I was getting a few none too subtle glances, but at least initially no one was a
Hating the bathroom scales 2007-05-07 20:32:00 9st 10. Clearly need to do something about this. Cutting down on the amount of carbs I'm consuming should be a help - they really do stick on me. We'll just say that this morning's couple of rashers of bacon and a fried egg were part of a faux Atkins thingie. I wouldn't say I managed to tidy the flat, but at least I did vacuum and put some stuff out for recycling. No doubt Otis will be scattering hay all over the floor very shortly. He's being a particularly horny bunny at the moment, which for some reason involves scratching the hell out of my feet. Do not appreciate. I hate waiting for things which are beyond my control. There's nothing that can be done to force it and if you try you're in danger of seeming slightly unhinged. But it's frustrating. Especially when your expectation is you aren't going to hear anything anyway. Read more:Hating
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Randomness on a Sunday 2007-05-06 18:13:00 I'm in very much of a 'can't be arsed' frame of mind at the moment, and I've spent too much but never mind. The mindset is because I know I have a few days off and the busiest time of the year is now behind me, so I can't motivate myself to do the things I needed to do today, i.e. clean the flat. Bunny needs to be cleaned out though, so I will do that shortly. Whether I can be bothered to vacuum the carpet today is another matter.The overspending is in part the fault of eBay, and partly the fault of the rock club. I've been buying CDs of some of the bands I've seen there recently, and it has to be eBay since the shops in town don't seem to have them. In the last week I've received Rockers & Thieves by Bang Tango, and the eponymous album by Faster Pussycat. I've also just won auctions for Bang Tango's From the Hip and Hollywood Vampires by LA Guns, and am winning an auction for LA Guns' eponymous album as well. Lots of listening to be done. Will try and keep up with Read more:Sunday
New ideas 2007-05-09 08:44:00 The trouble with having time off work and nothing much to do with it is that my mind tends to fixate on things and go over them repeatedly, which can get frustrating. GBF calls it looping. Yesterday I was fixating on why it is that I seem to be shaggable but not date-able. Previous history indicates that I can get the guy for an evening/night, but that I don't then hear from them again. In some instances this is not a problem, in others (see the CG saga for an example) it is - because it gets irritating when a guy gives the impression that he is interested in more of an actual relationship when it turns out that this is probably more about ensuring the availability of a shag at a conference. As I said to GBF last night, I would quite like to be thought of as date-able for a change. Or rather, I would like to be both shaggable and date-able. Is that really such a lot to ask?GBF, L and I went out for a few drinks last night, which was fun. I was about ready for some social time, Read more:ideas
Life is beautiful 2007-05-12 19:14:00 From Nikki Sixx via his myspace page, a request by blog for thoughts on the song he has put up from his work in progress The Heroin Diaries - read Nikki's words here. So, in an imperfect and probably nonsensical way, here is my answer:Nikki,I read your request to your fans this afternoon, to those of us posting on myspace about how much we love you and your work, and I cried. Not quite the reaction I would have expected of myself, but hey, it's honest. Because it struck me then how much you have given of yourself in this, how much you have opened up to the world, to your fans, to anyone who happens to stop by. And what have I and others said in return? That I love your work - what does that actually say? It's an overused expression these days, especially online. Love is easy to type, harder to say, but really difficult to express. So, because you have gifted us something of your soul, I'm going to attempt to explain what it is that speaks to me in your latest track. Not bec
Ow, ow, ow! 2007-05-12 10:35:00 My back is killing me! Since yesterday afternoon it has been spasming, and I don't know what I've done to it. I'm assuming it's stress related, my back does get dreadfully knotted. Thankfully the local spa had a gap for a massage this morning so I will be heading off in an hour or so in the hope that it can be sorted out. I woke up horrendously stiff this morning and a hot bath hasn't really helped much. Must dig out some painkillers I think. If the massage doesn't help I might have to go see the doctor, but I'd prefer not to.
CDs and changes 2007-05-11 08:36:00 Latest purchases from eBay are starting arrive - LA Guns' Hollywood Vampires was waiting for me when I got home yesterday, so it will be interesting to see how rapidly the other CDs arrive since they were all bought and paid for at about the same time. I've got a load of music to listen to now, and I'm also waiting for the Gypsy Pistoleros album as well. That's the one I'm really looking forward to.The scales still say 9st 10, which is annoying. I'm eating properly again though, and making sure I do (well, aside from the biscuits at work) so at least I know I'm not exactly filling myself with junk. Now I'm returning to reasonable eating habits I'll have to see about cutting down a bit. At least I'm holding steady at a size 12.Blair has finally announced he is standing down at the end of June. Hoo-fucking-ray! On the other hand, that dumps Gordon Brown on us, and since he's the one who is royally fucking up the economy this might not be any kind of improvement. Wonder Read more:changes
And fatter as a result 2007-05-15 23:03:00 Today I have eaten a bacon butty, two of those small, microwaveable Chicago Town pizzas, two packets of crisps, a bar of chocolate, two jam doughnuts, and a quarter of a quiche. It hasn't helped with the cheering up, my size 12 jeans are now feeling tight, and I have stomach ache. All in all, a disappointing start turned into a fairly crap day over all. At least it was mildly enlivened by joining GBF and L in the pub for a few drinks. Felt better after that.
Blue 2007-05-15 11:00:00 Disappointment has a tendency to take me by surprise, even when I'm half expecting it. So today I'm going to be miserable, eat doughnuts, and indulge in some completely inappropriate behaviour if the opportunity presents itself in an effort to make myself feel better.
Monday morning again 2007-05-14 08:42:00 9st 12lbs. Urgh. Not surprising though, I've been grazing all weekend for no apparent reason. I'm not in a motivated place right now, and need to be to get a hold on the eating habits. The fact that I still very comfortably fit into my size 12 jeans means I'm not seeing much of a negative effect aside from the location of the needle on my scales. I'm currently listening to one of the talentless morons who represented Britain in Eurovision on Saturday night going on about political voting in the Song Contest, saying that they hoped things would have been different this year but they obviously weren't. An alternative, and rather more realistic, reading of the situation is that the song was a great steaming pile of crap and certainly didn't even deserve the 19 votes it did get (12 from Malta? What were they thinking?). I know no one in this country takes the contest seriously - thank goodness - but it would be nice if one year we managed to submit an entry that wasn't comple Read more:Monday
This might kill the car 2007-05-17 22:54:00 Nuts. It looks like I have a round trip of a few hundred miles on Sunday, to go and have lunch with my Dad and his wife. Reason being, my Grandma is going to be there on her way to see my uncle and his family in France, so Dad rang this evening and suggested I put in an appearance. I had the feeling as I was talking to him that I had something on but couldn't think what it was - but I did at least manage to avoid spending the whole weekend there. My brother is going to be down too. What joy.Of course, it wasn't until later on that I remembered what it is on Sunday - European Cup final, Leicester against Wasps, the first all English final with the Tigers on for the treble. Sadly I don't think ringing back to say 'Sorry, but I have an urgent appointment with the television' will go down all that well.What's really troubling me though is whether or not the car will make it. It's a lot quieter since the exhaust was replaced, but the leak seems to be getting worse. I've topp
Amazing victory 2007-05-16 23:08:00 I came home to a letter from Survival International today. A long time back I filled in something on their website while searching for some information on the Kalahari Bushmen, can't remember what for now. Survival International helps tribal peoples across the globe to protect their lands and safeguard their right to determine their future. Today's letter contained some remarkable news which I am surprised I have seen nowhere else.In 2004, more than 200 Bushmen took the Government of Botswana to court. This followed their eviction from their ancestral lands in the Central Kalahari Game Reserve. The eviction process took place between 1997 and 2002, and meant that the Bushmen were forced to live in a squalid resettlement camp. During the trial process, the Botswanan Government pushed a bill through Parliament which removed a clause in the country's constitution which protected the Bushmen's rights to their land.Survival assisted the Bushmen by providing research and administrative a Read more:Amazing
Cars and little white lies 2007-05-21 23:04:00 Well, there's some better news about the car. I got hold of my mechanic today to ask about what a pre-emptive head gasket change would cost, expecting in the region of £400-500. He said it would be between £300-400, which was an improvement for a start, but because he replaced the cam belt and water pump in February it would be nearer £300. Hooray. However, he doesn't really want to do that unless absolutely necessary, so I've booked the car in for a couple of weeks time so he can give it a thorough going over in order to try and find the source of the leak. Sadly, one of the indicators of a headgasket problem is apparently the internal heating system having issues, which it has had for weeks now. Looks like I'm in for a £300 or so bill after all.I think I have quite a defect - I tend to take people at their word. Sometimes I wonder if it would just be simpler to assume most people are lying to me and therefore be pleasantly surprised when they do what they say. Mainly Read more:little
Getting there 2007-05-20 23:33:00 I think I have finally found the cross design to complete the my shoulder - and it was hanging round my neck the entire time. The slightly blurry photo
A Saturday mooch 2007-05-19 23:38:00 I've had a rather enjoyable day, mainly spent in the company of GBF and L. Not having to work or worry about work was great. There wasn't an early start - I went round to GBF's about 12.30pm then we wandered into town and met up with L for a coffee. GBF's sister and her boy joined us as well, and we were in that slightly random kind of mood where everything is funny. Love those kind of moods. It's almost like being high, only no one has taken anything.Mooched around town for a bit, GBF buying clothes, me buying badges and looking for opinions on vaious gothy dresses I quite like (opinion being that I'm really too old for most of them, but the corset tops are fine). L had to depart for a barbecue, then GBF and I went back to his for a bit before I came home for food and to play with the bunny.Out again this evening for a few drinks. GBF and L are making a night of it, but since I've got to go to Southampton tomorrow I came home early. Should probably be in bed already actu Read more:Saturday
Blue patch 2007-05-25 01:50:00 I've just realised I'm in a depressed phase again - not a dangerous one, just annoying at the moment. This would explain the inability to motivate myself to do anything much. Must try and shake it off.It also occurs to me that I'm really in danger of getting totally hung up on my single status. But damnit, nine years is long enough! GBF thinks I should go out and find someone. 'Cos I'm so good at that, clearly. Or rather, I could do that (and have done that before) but so far I am amazingly bad at finding the 'someone' who wants to hang around for longer than an evening. (And guys, don't say you're going to call when you have no intention of doing so. It really pisses me off - have some balls and tell the truth, or don't at the very least don't say anything that indicates there will be further contact. Similarly, if you're married/living with someone, it's usually polite to at least mention that in advance.) GBF, L and I are probably going out tonight so we will s
Happy feelings 2007-05-23 16:56:00 I'm feeling really, well, I don't know. Blessed seems a bit trite, but it's the word that popped into my head. Loved? Possibly slightly over the top. What would a combination of blessed and supported be? Anyway, whatever it is, tonight I'm feeling special. Because a group of people I've never met read a post I made on the snopes message board about today's anniversary and they have told me they are pleased for me, proud of me, and generally congratulated me for making it this far. It was so nice - snopesters are such wonderful, caring people. I'm so glad I found a community like it.Plus, in real life, I went out with GBF and L for a few drinks (Appletiser, of course) and was congratulated by them as well. GBF in particular seemed quite proud of me, as I noticed when he tried to tell his Dad who was working his way through a second bottle of wine with a rather merry blonde.And a third thing - I've changed my profile photo on myspace and suddenly have been receiving a load of mes Read more:Happy
An anniversary 2007-05-23 01:32:00 And not a good one - this is what I did on this day last year. Wrote about it the morning after, did it on the 23rd. I have recollections of speaking to GBF on the phone, hearing a note of worry in his voice as he realised I was in no condition to drive but not registering at the time what it was he was concerned about. I remember getting in the car. I recall parts of the drive home, including being very, very careful going past the one speed camera on the route. But I don't have a recollection of all of it.And I remember how horrified I was with myself the following morning when I realised exactly what I had just done and what it meant. It was a scary feeling, and reading back on what I wrote at the time I was having a real struggle with the concept of not drinking. My first piece of analysis should have in and of itself been enough to make me say "so far and no further" but at that point I couldn't definitely say I was quitting. Of course, now that a year has passed, I think
Aw, crap 2007-05-27 18:01:00 Bloody hormones. I've burst into tears for no apparent reason at least three times today. Not impressed.
Bored and random 2007-05-27 03:35:00 Disappointing couple of days - not what I was looking for with four days off over the bank holiday. First there was Friday, which had been intended as a night out but since L had unexpected work, GBF was knackered, and I was in an odd kind of listless mood it instead became me spending hours online at home. Although I did chat with a couple of cool guys via myspace and msn messenger so not all bad.Saturday GBF went to Bristol with his Mum to help her buy a sofa so I had a mooch round town by myself. Had planned on buying some new tops (in a corset stylie) but couldn't find what I wanted. There's some good stuff out there, I just had something fairly specific in mind that I saw the other week. Always a good indication that I'm not going to find it again when I want it. Bought a couple of computer games instead, but they were only two for £15 so not much. Was sorely tempted by a used (but with guarantee) Play Station 2 just so I could also buy Guitar Hero II, but £100 as a ra Read more:Bored
Friday night with Alice 2007-05-25 17:59:00 The night out didn't happen in the end. L at the last minute was called to play at a seventies night at one of the local colleges, and GBF and I were both on the tired side, so we met up for one drink and returned to our homes. So my Friday
evening has been spent online with Alice Cooper in the background on TV presenting the ten commandments of rock. The music's right at least, even if it isn't live.
Growing eBay addiction 2007-05-30 16:37:00 9st 10lbs this morning. Please let the weight be dropping again! Don't wanna get fat. I like being a size 12, thank you very much! Actually, I haven't been teribly hungry today, although having a tin of biscuits in the office is far too tempting and I probably shouldn't have had as many of those as I did. If it starts getting hotter and my appetite disappears as it usually does then maybe a bit more of the weight will disappear. Have got to stop bidding on eBay. I won two auctions yesterday (Lords of the New Church Stories at Dusk and the best of Warrant) and two today (Hanoi Rocks Back to Mystery City and Bangkok Shocks Saigon Shakes), plus I'm still winning another three (Cinderella, Ratt and Faster Pussycat). My Motley Crue collection is nearly complete so I'm expanding the search a bit. New Tattoo is the most recent one, which leaves Greatest Hits, Live - Entertainment or Death, Millennium Collection and Music to Crash Your Car to vols 1 & 2 outstanding. New Tattoo is Read more:Growing
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His highness has a new bed 2007-05-28 16:46:00 Otis has a new item to crawl over, chew, scratch, pee on and generally take over more of my living room. Courtesy of my Mother, of course. One of her colleagues was getting rid of a plastic dog basket and since Otis seems to get through the cardboard boxes in no time Mum wondered about putting the box in something rather larger, in the hope that when the bottom of the box inevitably ends up, erm, damp that it doesn't end up soaking into the carpet. I think he likes it. I've put part of an old duvet in there as well, which he seems determined to rip to shreds as rapidly as possible, and while the box is there too he doesn't seem to be using it as much. I might eventually remove it and leave him with the basket, but I'll see how he gets on with it first. Could have a spare box on standby I guess.
Never enough money 2007-06-03 17:14:00 It's always the same, whenever money is short along comes something I would love but can't afford. Since these things are inevitably luxuries rather than necessities it's a frustrated kind of lust rather than an actual failure to meet a genuine need, but it is still irritating. Bloody Folio Society again - they're bringing out a new commission. A three volume box set of The Campaigns of Wellington. It covers the Peninsular War and goes through to Waterloo rather than dealing with the Indian campaigns, but that's alright. This was an era, and a man, I opted to study as my individual project during my history A level. I've got several books about him on the shelves. Actually, I developed quite the crush on the Iron Duke, which is fairly tragic considering this was a man who was dead more than 100 years before I was even born. It looks so pretty! Dratted car, spoiling all my fun.One week more of work then a whole two weeks off. Motley Crue a week tomorrow! So looking forw
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