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Breakthrough 1970-01-01 00:59:59 Yesterday something amazing happened to meI was watching the movie The Motorcycle DiariesThe story of Che GuevaraAfter the film was done and I was digesting itI suddenly realised that I was watching it WITHOUT english subtitles!Ok...just to be clear...the film was in SPANISHI have been studying spanish now for less than a yearBut as some of you know...I am picking it up rather fast!I was freaked out....yet....OVERJOYED!!!!!!This means that I am internalising the language I so desperatly want to learn!C.....thank you....it was an amazing idea!!!!I can't wait to run with it. Read more:Breakthrough
The Answer 1970-01-01 00:59:59 C!!!!!!!First of all...thank you for your kind wordsYes...i think the best present she gave me was you too!We are one of a kindWe have fun together and we do share that wicked sense of humour!*smirk*You have been like my rockMy HQI can really truly tell you anything and i know it wouldn't shock youOr you wouldn't judge meNow....THAT is a real friend!I do miss us cruising around in my "little car"As you called it!When you left.....for the longest time i was kicking myselfWHY did i let her GO?????? WHY?????????Under the circumstances though.....you know....It was the best thing to doAND probably one of the hardest things i have EVER had to do!Letting an amazing woman such as yourself just goThats a CRIME! eh?For sure if you were here we would have SUCH fun!Dancing...Laughing....serious talking.....and of course...TRYING THINGS! We do love to try new things thats for sure.C and L the adventurers! *insert appropriate music here*If i feel like a bit of drama we can have our drama...Our li
Anatomy 1970-01-01 00:59:59 Funny thing don't you think?...Our bodies. All shapes, sizes and colours, all genders. From the extreme femme to the very butch. Yes, femme not female and yes butch not male.Feminine women/menMasculine women/menIts beautiful how much variety life has provided us withYet to some its only skin deep.The first thing I say to my date is this.You do realise I'm a special guy and I smileThey laugh and say yes dear.So special I don't even have the right body!That's the make it or break it.But to me its important.I am a man that was born in a woman's bodyWOW!A medical miracle!To some maybe.To live like this is my destinyI have found those that support meThose that reject meThose that are curiousThose that are like me.To be trans is very special.Some call it a gift...Some call it a curse.But one thing is constant....IT'S FOREVER.No surgery or hormones will change that!Will i ever function like a bioboy?noWill i ever end this journey?noWill these scars ever disappear?noI am sad at how ma
Junkie 1970-01-01 00:59:59 There's this feeling coming back againThe feeling of NEEDING...WANTING....CRAVINGI'm talking about that magic potion... *T*T is what I crave right nowI can't seem to shake itI know I'm gonna wake up tomorrow feeling different...Although somehow I doubt it.What do I want from it?Its PRESENCE at the moment seems appealingI know it won't "fix" thingsI know its not the "cure"But somehow its what I need right now.OrMaybe its something else?A reassurance?A feeling of peace?I really don't know...Lets wait and see until tomorrow.(I know this kind of contradicts my poem Anatomy, but sometimes things like this come up eh?) Read more:Junkie
Confession 1970-01-01 00:59:59 Ok so for the past couple of days...I have been ADDICTED to this videoI find it soothes me I have to play it at LEAST once a dayMust be the rhinestones....or is it the spandex??Oh and C?? Thanks for getting me addicted to this!(i think you know this would happen hehe)
Up in the Air 1970-01-01 00:59:59 Well these past days have been rather crazy...So much TraumaSo much News!I will post when I feel I can...Meanwhile...heres one of my "comfort" songs
Back again 1970-01-01 00:59:59 Did you miss me?I know i haven't been posting..What can i say?Things have been CRAZYI have been through a bit of a roller-coasterNow i am just coming down and its good to be back!So last night i decided to go drool over Wisin y YandelGuess what???They have a new album out!YAY!!!!!!I'm SO excited!Here is one of their songs which i LOVE!enjoy! p.s i will explain my absence soon i promise
Online? 1970-01-01 00:59:59 Ok time to bitchSooooooooooooA good friend of mine from online has not been coming onI miss her!Sad huh?This brings me to the reality of online friendshipsYup....they are definatly REALblah blah BLAH!*kick furniture*
Yo no soy..... 1970-01-01 00:59:59 Ok i wrote a post earlier but i think i forgot to publish itOh wellSo anyways....Women....SO hardThey want u soft yet hardThis morning i did something So hardDetails are not important.What is important is this...I am SICK...SICK....of people telling me i'm not a manLet me ask u this?Someone who walks around like meConstantly reminded of what he doesn't haveOr has too much of...Yet...is a man on the inside.Is that not courage?Is that not being a man?To just accept it and live with it.I'd like to see you do it.My best friend "A" He knows...He admires me for who i amHe's with me in those timesHe has NEVER doubted who i amI am not a FAKE manor a wannabeIt is who i am....simply....So hence...when i am a gentleman...When i am gentle and soft and loving...Then they come out with the phrase....I want a real manWTF???Does it get more real than this???Tell me the real reason...don't give me that bullshitThats not EVEN close....Get what i mean?Those of you who get me and understand meTHANK Y
Carnival 1970-01-01 00:59:59 Ok remember Energie?Yes...the evil shop I can't get enough of!So, I got some new clothes not too long ago from thereToday I wore my size 34 jeans and my size M teeshirtThey fit me beautifullyEXCEPTI noticed something...When I looked in the mirror I felt like I was at a funfairYou remember those mirrors that make you fatter or thinner?Stretch you out of shape?Well that's what I felt I was looking into!*CURVES*What the hell?Where did THOSE come from?Yes....It's true...I got *shocked*ButAs a friend pointed out...Friend: "Did it turn you on?"Me: "omg YES! How did you know??"Friend: "I know you"So, there we have itI am turned on by myself...Thank God I am on the THIN side not VERY curvy....A Man with curves....Thats a novel IDEAInteresting.....*Puts on cape and flies off* TO THE GREAT UNKNOWN!!!!!!! HI HO SILVER!!!! and all that jazz *smirk* Read more:Carnival
Style 1970-01-01 00:59:59 Here it is! This is my style! Read more:Style
Distress 1970-01-01 00:59:59 Something distressing happeningI did feel it but I didn't know what it was until this morningAfter my morning classes I usually log onto msnWell I saw a very cute trannyboy friend of mine from KuwaitHe seemed rather upset...So naturally I asked what was happeningHere it is:Me: Hey bro whats up?Q8boy: Omg man haven't you heard???Me: No whats wrong??Q8boy: Oh man, something awful is happening to us trannys in Kuwait!Me: Oh no.....tell me moreQ8boy: Ok well, they are trying to supress trannys!!!Me: *in shock* WHAT??? How do you MEAN?? Like in PUBLIC???Q8boy: Yes at the schools and universitiesMe: Don't tell me they are trying to convert boyas (term for trannyboys) into GIRLS!!!Q8boy: *angry* YES THEY ARE!!!!Me: Don't they realise its not a PHASE??? It's REAL???Q8boy: EXACTLYMe: So, tell me what happened..I am listeningQ8boy: Ok, well, in high school there was this well known boya and he had a girlfriend, everyone knew about them. So, before graduation they broke up ...big drama!... h
Polyglot 1970-01-01 00:59:59 As you have noticed I am pretty fluid about a lot of thingsMost of you know that I speak several languagesOk, so now that fact is over and done withWhat significance is this?Well here goesEver hear something in a different language and think..Hmmmmm that sounds like *blank* or that sounds FUN!Here are some examplesKiss (english) means to place ones lips on anothers and kiss them right??Kiss (arabic) is a slang word for a women's genitals!!Tease (english) means to make fun of someone or to tickle or *ahem* other stuff.Tease (arabic) means ASS hehehehe yes ass..... *smirk*Culo (spanish) means ASS (hmm ass is coming up a lot here.. wonder why hehe)Coole (kreole) means "its leaking" Conejito (spanish) is "little bunny rabbit"Con (arabic/farsi dialect) means ASS (yes its back)Ok watch this.... when I hear "conejito" I think "small cute ass" hahahaAs you spanish speakers know the "ito" part of it makes it smallSo there you have itA complete fluidity of the spoken languagesMaybe this is why
Pimp This! 1970-01-01 00:59:59 Dedicated to you C! YES YOU hermanita *wink*Oh yes and in perfect timing with the start of the Gulf Cup! WOOHOO!
Crack 1970-01-01 00:59:59 Last night I went to the airport to pick up my best friendAs I spotted her between the crowd with her nose all taped upSomething ripped inside of meI could feel it trickling outI hugged her and told her she looks fabulous! (she does!)I grabbed my friend "A" (the guy that went with her) Gave him tight hugs and went outside to smoke with himWe waited for the girls to finish talkingAs we were outside..."A" looked at me with those eyesI looked back at him with my eyesPiercing....longing....He looked back at me with a soft lookWe finished our cigarettes and went back to the girlsWe laughed and grinned as we carried the bagsShoving them into the back of the carHis arm brushed against my chestThat look againHe pinched his own....to make it okAs he doesOn the way back home that long rideMore leaking more gushingWe were of course force fed by her fatherI love himDuring dinner"A" begs me to eat a banana (our code for dick)I grab one and when the parents aren't lookingProceed to give it a BJMy f
Makers 1970-01-01 00:59:59 They come they goShaping here nicking thereThrowing and mouldingAdding the essentialsWhy do we let them?Oh noIts not a choiceThey take itMould itMake itSome seeSome don'tThose that doGet the best resultsLet it happen my friendsDon't be afraidDon't be fearfulRelax and let herTake youGuide youListen and cry with youShame doesn't exist with herThe only shame is not letting herMy loveI am yours...Teach meMake meLearn these words brothersBecauseOne day.... you will realise...Women MAKE Men Read more:Makers
Kiss! 1970-01-01 00:59:59 Here he is.....FABULOUS! (and yummy hehe)
The Thin Red Line 1970-01-01 00:59:59 Delusions and DysphoriaSounds similar doesn't it?Ok so heres the thing....as a good student I was browsing through my crazy book (you know the Psychiatry one)When it suddenly occured to meWhat seperates us from the guy who claims he's Jesus?You know the one, wandering the halls of the loony bin (yes I said loony bin) blessing people as he passes themSo here I amA female bodied manI have to tell some people "yes I am a man"To which they reply "oh ok" followed by a strange look (kind of like the one you would give to the guy wandering the halls of the loony bin)Ok lets get down to the nitty grittyAccording to my beloved Kaplan and Sadock's (the crazy book)DefinitionsDelusional Disorder: The diagnosis of a delusional disorder is made when a person exhibits nonbizarre delusions of at least 1 month's duration that cannot be attributed to other psychiatric disorders.Gender Identity Disorder: The essential feature of gender identity disorder is a peron's persistent and intense distress a
Back to School 1970-01-01 00:59:59 Ok so today was the official first day!But....yes we got luckyISP the whole day!!!So i went back to sleep contently *smirk*Alright so here it is....my fav med school music video!!!(oh how true!) Read more:School
Cojones 1970-01-01 00:59:59 Yes I am talking about YOUBalls, Cojones, Testicles...whatever you want to call them....They seem to be hard to come by these daysHard to find and even harder to grow!Oh yes....they CAN be grown!Artificially cultivatedBUTJust as effective!You see.....not many people are born possessing such devicesNormally it is the MALE of the species that possesses such anatomy...But then again....we're not talking about anatomy are we??(you should know me better by now!)The proverbial TESTICLE....or TESTICLESThis is the bottom line...(or lines)Balls are neededBalls are yummyBalls solve problemsBalls create problemsBalls get you laid...................................you get my drift right? No need to further on that point then!So brothers and sisters....GET YOUR BALLS!EMBRACE YOUR BALLS!LOVE YOUR BALLS!Take it away Johnny boy!!!!
Gimme my MD!!! 1970-01-01 00:59:59 There is one doctor I must tell you about.Lets call him Dr.MAh yes the infamous Dr.MHe is what us medical students call a "dinosaur"You know the sort....we are endlessly correcting him(that is rather alarming!)Today we have a tutorial with himIn which....he will sit there and nod and fall asleep(yes asleep)He will then be awakened by someone (usually ME!)Asking him a complicated question (ooo I love it)Which then he will cleverly reply to"Why don't you research that and come back to me hm?"OH PLEASE!GET WITH IT OLD MAN!damn...I swear, if he doesn't know..Then why doesn't he SAY???WHEN is he going to FINALLYadmit to us...."yes you are much smarter and more up to date than I am"*ugh*Idiots ALL Idiots!Except Dr.TI love you Dr.T!!!!!You rule with your Neo impersonation! Read more:Gimme
Feed 1970-01-01 00:59:59 Let me touchLet me feelLet my hands wanderI want to feel every ridgeEvery riseEvery fallLet me lickLet me suckI want to taste itTaste the manhood I so deserveDrain you of all that you posessFeed me Desperation has set inFree me from this cruel bondageFree me with your body....Feed me the Testosterone I so deeply crave.
Alone 1970-01-01 00:59:59 Standing between the two extremesI look and lookSearching and dyingWhere do I belong"Yeah you know how girls are! So precise!"Here?"Did you get the latest Chanel makeup?"Here?I get some food from the kitchenAs I step out with my plate She is standing thereBetween the twoLooking at meSmiling at meCringing for meI stride out and lift my head to look at herWith those eyes..You know the onesShe fusses over meHer: "You need more food!"Me: "This is fine! really!"She looks at me and shakes her headI shake mine tooI find a quiet spot out by the tentAs I eat my food I realise, there is no tasteAs I taste my salty tearsI ask myself...Where do I belong?
Fourth Year Musings 1970-01-01 00:59:59 Exams exams exams!Thats all I seem to worry about these days!You know what is puzzling to me?We are so burnt out right?So therefore...any new material they give us..We just go right back to basics and USE THE BASICSNow I understand those damn first year professorsProfessors: "You must have a strong base!! STRONG BASE!"What they *really* mean"You got to have a good understanding of the basics cos you are going to need them when you cannot think anymore."Fourth Year is certainly an eye opener in more ways than one.Fourth Year's are burnt out and fed up!CLINICALS ALREADY!!But then you get that deep seated fearThat fear that someone will "find you out"That this whole time you've been bullshitting your way through med schoolThat in the clinics you WILL be found out!Love/Hate?You got nothing on me.Now for some therapy.... Read more:Musings
Just Do It 1970-01-01 00:59:59 Oh yeah! Captain Majid knows how to do it!
I always asked myself...
Until when?
How long wi... 1970-01-01 00:59:59 I always
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when?How long will I wait?Now those questions have been answeredToday was my first appointment with a crazy docOk...so here is how it wentI walk in, wearing my white coatGreeted the doctor with a smileHe asked me how school was (he's at one of our teaching hospitals)I said "great I'm having fun....so, tell my Doctor...How much do you know about Gender Identity Disorder?He smiled and said "You're not my first patient"A wave of relief washed over me..The doc then proceeds to ask me to tell my storySo... as a good patient I gave him a complete historyHe kept nodding and writing things downThen I told him his globe is upside down ( a globe sitting on his desk )He said "You will make an excellent doctor"To this we both laughed!I watched his face as I told him my storiesHis face said to me "of course you felt that way!"and occasionally "yup this is textbook"At the end of our brief 30 minute session I asked him "so, do you agree with my diagnosis?"He said "Yes
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