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Whoa…like… seriously - whoa. 2007-02-15 21:18:45 posting from last year that I wrote after having a rather nice weekend with my ma’an. The ma’an (just say ma’am, but with an n) and I have been together since 1995, when we first met on the internet chat Resort. We met online in March, but in real life in July. I was completely and totally sunk when I met him. I moved to be closer to him 5 months later and that was that.
Except it wasn’t. Although we’d go on to spend the next 11-1/2 years together, we’ve never married. This has been a great source of pain and disappointment me. I have always felt “less than” and although we’ve had dozens of emotional conversations about it, he never gave me any *real* reason as to why he wouldn’t get married. I thought it was because I am a less-than-perfect mate. I am a less-than-perfect parent. I’m not Martha Stewart either. I try to be the best I can be in all areas, and I KNOW it’s not perfect. But it’s me. (mor
the final countdown 2007-02-16 21:44:24
So, I’ve got 4 days left until the baby’s born (hopefully, it’s 4 and not less!) so this here is my “I won’t be posting much in the next few days” posting my baby blog will be updated by my awesomest friend angel, so check back there .. ya know, hourly or more, for updates
ramblings 2007-02-19 12:03:21
so, we’re again lying in the dark last night and I ask him, “Were you nervous on Wednesday?” - the whole idea that he finally did this is mind-boggling to me, and the mindset that he was in intrigues me completely.
Being the smartass that he is, says, “what part of Wednesday?”. “Wednesday night, you goof”, I say. “Well, I was nervous all day, actually… “, he says. “Why?”, I say. “Well, because have said no, or laughed”, he says (apparently in all seriousness).
the thought never entered my mind. It’s a good thing I’m not a snarky bitch, eh?
He's here :) 2007-02-21 16:18:28 My Baby Blog for the announcement.
I’m here… just… 2007-03-05 20:12:29 really tired, irritable, sore and ya know&hellip
; busy being a moo-cow. Nothing sexy or kinky happening.
Well, at least I have some good sexy thoughts anyways… 2007-03-06 21:57:57 A week before I went into the hospital to have my baby, a woman I used to work with asked if I were having my tubes tied after this baby. I said yes, it’s definitely time for that. She replied, “Well, I hope you won’t have the same problem I did”. “What problem?”, I asked. “I lost my sex drive after I had my tubes tied”, she said.
Now yeah, I know&hellip
; women like to scare the crap out of each other when it comes to birthing babies. They tell their horror stories with glee. But this SCARED ME. I thought… well damn, I barely GOT my sex drive back when I got pregnant. I’m screwed if I lose it for good!
I came home thinking about this, and wondering. Now, this woman has had 4 kids of her own, plus is married to a man who has 3 or 4 of his own. That’s a whole lotta kids to be keeping track of. No wonder she has no sex drive! LOL
Still, I kept it in the back of my mind. I knew I needed to do it, though.
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March Madness 2007-03-09 21:35:15
Ok, I’m so totally not a basketball fan. I have no clue about any of it. But I LOVE March
! And not because My Birthday comes in March (hint hint, people - get moving here). Spring comes in March. My daffydills that are my birth flower bloom in March in SOME areas of the country (not mine right now though, dammit). The Earth wakes up from it’s sleep and starts to bloom. It’s just a beautiful time of year.
THis year, I turn 40. In 3 more days, I’ll be 40 years old. I have *NO* idea how this happened. Last I knew, I was rollerskating (yes, ROLLERskates, not those godawful inline skates) on the sidewalk with my tape player blasting Michael Jackson and Air Supply. I was sure it was just yesterday or so.Now, how did I get to be 40???
Oh… I know what you’re thinking. She’s finally gone around the bend. But it really does feel like just yesterday. My sister had just been born. She was upstairs, in her playpen (remember those, folks?), an Read more:Madness
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woohooo 2007-03-11 21:31:02
My blog is worth $23,146.14.
How much is your blog worth?
sugasm #70 2007-03-13 13:06:08 Sugasm #70
Sugasm #70
Mon 12th Mar, 07
The best of this weeks blogs by the bloggers who blog them. Highlighting the top 3 posts as chosen by Sugasm participants. Want in Sugasm #71? Submit a link to your best post of the week using this form. Participants, repost the linklist within a week and you’re all set.
This Week’s Picks
You’re So Dirty When You’re Clean. ( http://middleurge.blogspot.com)
“The side of your hand slipping along her pussy lips. Her laugh, a mix of I-knew-it and do-that-more.”
Before ( http://thismuse.blogspot.com)
“Condoms and lube go into the bedside drawer next to the Bible. Purse into the drawer with clothes, whore-bag into the closet with my street shoes.”
Rude Bits: Tracy Quan on the Raunch Debate (http://susiebright.blogs.com)
“If someone is making money off your body, you should too.”
Mr. Sugasm Himself
Sex Mad(ness) (http://sugarbank.com)
Editor’s Choice
The art of pegs (some artistic CBT) ( http://mistress160.blogspot.com)
More Sugasm
3 weeks down… 2007-03-15 14:20:38 3 weeks to go before I can “technically” have sex again. This, of course, is when the baby starts sleeping all night, too, right? And this is also when the other 2 go to sleep when they’re supposed to, instead of 2 hours later? And of course, this is when I lost that extra 40 lbs I’ve been working on, my hair isn’t silver anymore and of course, I lose all guilt?
yeah, I fantasize, what can I say?
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miscalculations 2007-03-20 15:02:34 heh… ok, so 3 weeks? not so much
2007-03-21 21:19:08
Part of the paradox that is child birth is a sense of accomplishment. You have put forth an entire human being. You’ve created life. Religiousness aside, you’ve DONE THIS. Look at what I did!
The other part of child birth is that it takes away every last ounce of dignity you may have ever had in the first place. Child birth isn’t pretty, sexy or remotely attractive in any way. Neither is the resulting recovery, and of course, add in the additional, inevitable lack of sleep and complete exhaustion and you’ve got a mess of a woman who, yes, has brought forth a human being, but feels like she’s been run over by a truck… over & over again.
At least that’s how it is for me. I look like hell. I fully admit to this. I’m not proud of it, but ya know… when you’re a human milk bar and the best you can manage is a shower every few days, and you watch brain cells go down the drain during those showers, it’s a good thi
balancing act 2007-03-27 22:57:22
Every thing in life is a balancing act
. I really do believe in karma. For the most part, things happen in equal portions of good and bad. Or not necessarily BAD, but … not good.
Take, for instance, my last posting. I extolled the incredibly wonderful event with my man. I didn’t, however, mention that there were some physical problems that hindered our “lovemaking” (I can never say that word without thinking of some bizarre Will Farrel SNL skit). That was the balance. Yes, he made me feel wonderful emotionally and physically but still, good & not so good collide.
Those problems are ongoing - it’s MY problem, not hubby’s. I’m not sure of the origin, but it bites…. big time. But we’ll get through it, as we always do. It’s terribly frustrating, though, so I come here to write about it, not to necessarily share it with you all, but just to get it out & look at it from perhaps a different perspective.
Believe i
Father’s Name Unknown 2007-03-29 15:22:54
Ok, so one of the reasons I had wanted to get married before our newest son was born was because, up until then, EVERYONE in this house has the same last name except me. When our children were born, however, my hubby-type person had to sign paternity papers saying “yes, I’m the daddy, yes you can track my ass down for child support should it ever come down to that”. Because they assume, obviously, that if you’re not married, you’re a deadbeat too.
So each of our children’s birth certificates says “Mother’s Name” and lists my name - not my maiden name - my MARRIED last name… and then of course, father’s name and the kids have HIS last name. Which is of course how we wanted it.
So it was just one of my neurotic moments of many where it really bothered me that a THIRD child would be born with their mother’s name not the *same*. So I put the heat on. Clearly, however, it didn’t work LOL
So then I said wel Read more:Father
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The Measure of a Man 2007-04-03 20:35:48 “The ultimate measure of a man is not where he stands in moments of comfort, but where he stands at times of challenge and controversy.” -Martin Luther King, Jr.
Upon my reading of Kristen’s blog entry for yesterday, I found myself still thinking about it after I’d shut my browser, after I’d gone downstairs to start lunch and wash dishes. It stayed on my mind throughout those preparations and that’s when I decided I needed to blog about it.
The above quote kept coming to mind, though I did have to go look up who originally said it. Kristen’s blog posting today got me to thinking about my own man, and how he measures (don’t be a perv!). It’s very true… it’s easy to be the stand-up guy when things are easy. It’s during those hard, stupid, emotional times when it gets tricky - and when the real person behind the machismo and testosterone stands up. It’s that guy, ultimately, that you need in your life. N Read more:Measure
Tagged by Tom… well more like interviewed… 2007-04-05 15:04:35 Tom, over at The Edge of Vanilla posted some interview questions to me. Here they are, along with my answers.
1) Your blog is named “A Kinky Woman’s Guide to the Universe.” Is this a Douglas Addams reference?
Considering I have no idea who Douglas Addams is, I’d say nope LOL (I’m not very cultured, can you tell?)
2) You seem to be happy living in a rural area. How would your life be different if you were living in a big city?
Well, we did live in a “city” when we first lived together - and hubby hated it and was miserable there. So I’d say it’d be miserable again LOL If we ever moved from here, it would be to a place similar in landscape and population, that’s for sure.
3) You keep talking about how your husband changed last year. What about you? Did you change or have to change to accommodate this? How is your relationship different?
I think we both changed. He became more open, honest, caring. I became less of a bitch. I was a bitch, Read more:hellip
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mindless entertainment (& blog posts) 2007-04-09 20:07:06 I will admit it. I like a few reality shows. Survivor, The Amazing Race and The Apprentice are all on my “must watch” list every week. Until recently, though, that was it. Mainly because, I think, they feature real people, not actors/actresses or some kind of entertainer looking for another way to make a buck. It’s fun to cheer for the good guys, and I get really pissed off when asswipes like Rob & Amber get ahead. I don’t like the conniving that goes on but ya know… it’s part of the game, etc. I simply *REFUSE* to watch American Idol because of that nasty jerkface simon coward. I just don’t like mean people, I suppose.
I decided to check out Dancing with the Stars this season mainly because of all the hype from last season. It’s been nice to see that the judges don’t degrade the dancers even when they do SUCK (i.e. Shandi, Leeza) - what IS it with these skinny women who cannot move their hips to save their lives (or t Read more:posts
mememememememeeeeee 2007-04-12 16:04:41 Swiped from Always His.
If you read this, if your eyes are passing over this right now, even if we don’t speak often, please post a comment with a memory of you and me. It can be anything you want — good or bad. When you’re finished, post this little paragraph on your blog and be surprised (or mortified) about what people remember about you.
What’s in a name. 2007-04-15 15:24:45 As I mentioned recently, there’s not a whole lotta kink going on here. There hasn’t been for quite some time for a variety of reasons, not the least of which is that Mr. Zachary is here. My outside kink interests (i.e. play parties, play friends) have all pretty much evaporated… the interest on my part just isn’t there. Maybe it’s the utter lack of sleep, and the motivation to drive somewhere to beat someone just does not seem to be in existence. My kinky friends have all reported this happening to them at one point or another, and I know for a fact that it happened to me after the birth of my daughter as well.
So with that being said, do you think I should rename my blog to something a little less lascivious, considering there ISN’T a lot of kinky content here anymore? Or does the lack of kink make me less kinky, because the name is a kinky WOMAN’S guide… i.e. not a woman’s kinky guide.
What do you folks think? Vote by leavin
today I’m grateful for… 2007-04-19 00:09:53
the blogosphere. I know, it’s a weird one - but were it not for this new(ish) world that we have here, I don’t know what I’d do with all the stuff in my head. I don’t know that I wouldn’t be in therapy now. I also am grateful not only for the release it affords me, but also for bringing me friends, including my BEST friend, angel. She & I met through this medium and were fast friends.
That friendship really has grown and changed and though we’ve never met face to face, I trust her with my most deepest, darkest secrets and she shares hers with me. We’ve lost weight together, gained weight together, faced hard times and celebrated happy times together. It’s been nearly 2 years since we “met”, and I’m really glad to have had that opportunity, one that in other circumstances, I never would have. So thank you, blogosphere for bringing me a new chapter in my life.
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apples… trees…. *whatever* 2007-04-18 16:02:02 3 yr old daughter, walking down the stairs with her 10 yr old brother:
“Brother, don’t you touch my easter bunny or I’ll knock you down!”
Yeah, she’s totally gonna be a Domme.
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Being grateful. 2007-04-17 14:54:36 Yesterday, my (oldest) son looked out the window and griped about the weather. Now granted, it IS April, and he should be able to go out and play by now, but anyways, I said to him “you know, you ought to be lucky we’re not in Virginia. Look at all those people who aren’t going home to their parents, kids, husbands and wives tonight”. His facial expression changed immediately and he asked me not to talk about it anymore.
I do not shield my son from the horrors of the world. Well, I don’t let him WATCH them unfold, but I do tell him what’s going on. I keep him (generally) informed, because he needs to understand and appreciate what he has. Whenever he complains about his sister, I remind him of her age and of the fact that we’re very lucky that we HAVE a healthy 3 yr old baby girl who can drive him crazy, instead of one born unable to see, or talk, or walk. I want him to be grateful for what he has, because that’s ALL he has. Of cour
Gratitude 2007-04-20 18:05:55 gratitude n : a feeling of thankfulness and appreciation
For me, I really do try to be thankful every day for something. The other day, I was grumbling because stuff kept falling out of our freezer. Instead of getting aggrabated (My daughter’s term), I said out loud (I was on the phone at the time) “…and yes, I KNOW how lucky I am that having too much food can be considered a problem.” I really do try to look at those things like that - especially when my very ummm rambunctious 3 yr old, when she’s on my last nerve… I remind myself of how incredibly lucky I am to have her at all, and that she’s able to talk (& yell & scream) at all, when so many children in this country & world are so so so much worse off.
My point is, I am grateful for things every day and I try not to take those things for granted. Also, I did start this out last night, but then my “gratitude” person kinda pissed me off, so I had to throw it
Mindless Entertainment Part II 2007-04-19 14:43:25 Ok, first off, I was totally right about Leeza being the next to go LOL Dancing with the Stars has grabbed me, I’ll say that. This week, I totally *needed* Clyde to go. He may be a nice guy - he may have been an awesome basketball player - but it was SO glaringly obvious that he was out of his element and really NOT all that interested in trying. I’m glad he gets to go home
I have to admit that Apolo totally had it going On this week, and Joey… eh, not so much. Same with Ian. Those boys got their asses Beat by the young guy. Hopefully they’ll pick up the slack next week. I think the next to go NEEDS to be Heather (”why is she famous mom?”) Mills. I’m so sick of hearing how good she dances “considering”. I just want her to go. Bye bye. I don’t mind that it only leaves Laila as the only woman left… she’s good against the boys considering she probably could kill any of them LOL
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Nothing…. 2007-04-23 17:11:12 yes, NOTHING sucks the joy out of a truly beautiful Spring day like your newborn baby’s first shots.
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dayum 2007-04-28 14:45:54 So, a few blog-related things to tell you about.
First, I totally missed my 2nd year blogging anniversary last weekend, so happy anniversary to me. Yay.
and B - you see that thingie over there that says “Askimet” - I’ve had this blog up on wordpress’s site since August… and so since August, I’ve been spammed nearly 10 THOUSAND TIMES. Can you believe that there’s that many parasites out there?
Oh and a new fun little thing that wordpress has added - over there in the sidebar, you’ll see it - It says “click here for a random posting of mine. I thought that was neat.
Anways, that’s about all I got for ya today, but I’m working on something nice & sexxxxay for ya.
Reality Recap 2007-04-24 20:52:55 So, the Apprentice really was a let-down. I was more than a little bit surprised when Stefani won, although her legal background of defending people like Trump made sense, I suppose. I think the show itself just pretty much *sucked* though, so I’m glad this season’s over.
Another show that I am really surprised at that’s pretty much sucked is The Amazing Race. I reallly have to wonder how they determine the “non-elimination-legs” - is it predetermined before the whole show, or do they call it by ear. I was sad to see Joyce & Uchenna go, because I rooted for them both times - even though they won the million before, they were definitely deserving. Playing fair and clean, I like. The nasty backstabbing crap like selling their yield power… not so much. Until then, they were my favorites to win - because considering what’s left… yuck. That broad with her little person cousin… horrible. If she were my cousin, I’d Read more:Recap
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