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Updates: Politics and the (Non-Existent) Love Life. 2007-12-01 05:48:00 I received some replies to my email to the Democrats! I posted a shortened version on their Facebook, and these are some of the comments that people sent back:"my experience was rather different i had so much fun on the day (i was there from 7 - 6) and met some lovely people in the party. its a shame that your experience was bad - i suggest giving it another go sometime.""I'm sorry that you had a bad experience Milk and missed a family function. Your dedication to stand up for what you believe in is admirable and please don't let this put you off.Please remember though that the Democrats are not a major party and pretty much everyone is a volunteer, candidates included. 'The political apathy party' tag is quite unfair, many of us were on booths all day trying to get the message out." "Re: Miss MilkI had a similar experience to yourself; I had shown interest in handing out how to vote cards in my electorate and was promised via email from the NSW branch that I would be sent out post
My Faith Journey Part 1 2007-12-01 05:12:00 Faith can go jump in a hole and die. Sick of it. But here's Part One of what I submitted to my Religion teacher. She better like it, it took me two months to write. Or get around to writing, anyway. It's surprising how difficult it was. Enough beating around the bush. Here it is.1. Do you believe in God?I believe that there is a possibility that there is a God. I know as a Catholic I am supposed to believe in God as a certainty. I know I’m supposed to use my unwavering faith to dispel any doubts regarding the existence of God. I know I’m not supposed to be cynical, I’m just supposed to believe. I also know that I’m not satisfied with that. I’ve been brought up to think that my religion is to be one of the most important elements of my life. Knowing that, I’m not prepared to just accept the one religion I was born into, without looking thoroughly at why I’m supposed to believe these things, why my father’s religion is any better than the Muslim’s down the road and wh Read more:Faith
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A School Formal and a Very Existent Love-Life. 2007-12-04 22:52:00 Alright, apparently my love life does exist...I had my school formal last night. I really did have the time of my life. If I could have scripted it myself I don't think I could have improved it, unless I could write myself in as being slightly less rhythmically challenged when it comes to dancing.My partner, The Lad, was absolutely lovely, as he usually is. My friends all liked him, even thought he was cute. We danced (badly, on the part of The Lad and I), ate, sang, chatted and laughed our way through a lovely evening. I know when I last wrote I thought he didn't like me any more. Weeeeeeeell it would appear I couldn't have been more wrong. We were getting along very, very well, talking a lot and generally enjoying each other's company. He became slightly more touchy-feely - hugging and holding hands - as the night progressed, and by the time we got back to Petal's house... I think it was when I sat next to him on the couch that we both began to gradually drop any facade we'd be Read more:School
My Faith Journey Part 2 2007-12-22 01:44:00 2. What impact has your family had on your beliefs? Do they support your search?Only my father is Catholic, and it is thanks to him that I and my siblings have been baptised and sent to Catholic schools. While my mother is technically Anglican, a structured religion for her children is only as important to her as it is because of how important it is to my father. I have been encouraged to embrace my religion, but it doesn't occupy a huge place in my family's life. Religion seems to be something we forget about for a while, until suddenly Easter or Christmas comes around and Dad remembers that we should probably go to Church more often. I seldom discuss my beliefs with my parents, or they with me. It was always assumed that Dad followed Catholicism inwardly as well as outwardly and that Mum wanted us to do the same, but I had no idea what she believed herself until I asked her very recently.When I was about twelve or thirteen my father asked me whether I believed in God. It had been Read more:Faith
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Shucks. 2007-12-17 20:35:00 (No Subject)From: TheLadSent: Sunday, 16 December 2007 9:26:11 PMTo: MissMilkmiss milk, you left me with an ultimatum of sorts. you wanted me to make up my mind and figure out what i want.i needed to decide if i wanted a relationship with you. and if i was ready for anything like that... yet now i have realized that there is no real decision to be made. it is so simple... i love and admire everything about you... even your crazy obsessions regarding pop stars in dangerously tight pants...i never thought i would be saying this to a democrats supporter :P (oh how petty) but i miss you so much and i dont want to miss anything else. im sorry if you thought i was playing games and im sorry if i seemed shallow or vain..but if you still feel the same, i would love to go out with you. (and yes i died a little inside of the shame which comes with asking somone out via e-mail.) love the ladxox
It's all falling on my head. 2008-03-12 03:40:19 I went out with The Boy on Monday, as planned. We wandered around the little laneways in the city, then trammed to Fitzroy, then returned to the city for a while before bowing to the inevitable - that study called and we really should be getting home. It was lovely and dandy, I suppose. I do enjoy his company... but oh, he is a coward. He had about a million opportunities to confess his feelings for me - a million awkward moments that I ignored for his and my own sake - and yet..!Some recollections...We were sitting opposite each other on the tram, talking about Nicholas Sarkozy, when the crazy man across from us started asking The Boy about French things. I realised he was crazy when I noticed the way he had his hand in the vicinity of his crotch... moving... then I realised he had a smal Read more:falling
Half empty or half full? 2008-03-08 21:48:19 Elissa hasn't said a word to me since I approached her. I'm not going to seek her out. I suppose that is well and truly the end of that.I don't mind. Sure she was an interesting person, but there are better friends for me out there.Nothing much is happening. My Australian History teacher singled me out in class today when referring to Peter Lalor. Family rumour has it that we're descended from him somehow. My paternal nanna's surname was Lalor, see. I also chatted to a friend of mine, Yoki, about how you become a magistrate (her father is one) and what the job prospects are like. She said she thought I should be a politician. I left the class only to see my mother chatting to - by some bizarre coincidence - Yoki's mother by their cars. Yoki's mother was saying that her husband would almost
The Cowardly Boy 2008-03-08 16:16:45 I just received a phone call from The Boy. I'd never spoken to him on the phone before, so it was one of those interesting, unexpected things. I'm surprised he worked up the courage to do it, as it would appear so far that he is a complete and utter coward.Yoyo (once considered by The Lad to be his best friend, but now merely civil to him since he cheated on me) told me that, according to The Lad, The Boy liked me a great deal and the only reason he hadn't asked me out was because he was shy. I refused to believe it. He'd never come across as shy before, he always sought me out to sit and talk to me at the parties we've gone to (most of which I was present at as The Lad's partner), we've always had plenty to talk about and I don't think he could have thought it very likely that I would tur
It never rains but it pours. 2008-03-08 05:12:39 I feel really terrible.Around the end of last year, the same time as I was going through my Lad dramas, one of my dear friends, MsWise, was going through similar dramas with a suitor of her own. Two suitors, technically, but she was never really attracted to the first and the second, Tom2, turned out to be a jerk. MsWise found him to be arrogant, condescending, insecure, self-deprecating, pretentious, misogynistic and unable to come to terms with the idea that a girl could be smarter than him, as she almost certainly is. He's intelligent, but she is more than a match for him and he couldn't stand "losing" like that. He decided it wasn't going to work out between them and agonised over telling her, not realising that she'd already been turned completely off him. In the meantime she had intr Read more:rains
A Little Backlog 2008-03-07 06:45:15 I just posted up a draft from last September and some e-mails from my Singapore/Malaysia trip. In my December archives. Admittedly there's more about The Lad than Singapore or Malaysia... But there's also a bit of nonsense on Tom2 that might clarify his background with MsWise a bit. Maybe.Someone say something if none of it makes sense. :)
RE:RE:RE:RE:RE:RE: 2008-03-07 04:45:58 RE: Hello again.From: mswiseSent: Monday, 17 December 2007 2:22:21 PMTo: missmilkAWWWWW!OMG! That's gorgeous beyond anything I can possibly think of. I'm quietly dying of jealousy . I'm so happy The Lad finally came to his goddamn senses and decided that you're an extremely lovable human being with whom no amount of fear could quench his desire to be with you . I demand that you give him the best kiss of his young life when you get home, you two are really cute together. *Makes girly noises* It makes me feel all snuggly inside.
RE:RE:RE:RE:RE: 2008-03-07 04:40:26 RE: Hello again.From: missmilkSent: Sunday, 16 December 2007 11:17:21 PMTo: mswise*insert The Lad's e-mail*Excuse me while I go and explode, quietly, in the corner.Having a lovely time. Feeling a little bit dizzy. I'll tell you about my holiday when I can think straight.Love Milk
RE:RE:RE:RE: A Correspondence with Ms Wise 2008-03-07 04:36:00 RE: Hello again.From: mswiseSent: Thursday, 13 December 2007 10:49:33 AMTo: missmilkHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!Oh God, those asian toilets... I couldn't use 'em either . Aren't they the most awful things in the universe?! I'm sorry, I thought they were just a Japanese thing, I always used the Western toilets 'cause I'm a sook. I did TRY to use the other ones as well... Not pleasant.As for the rat. Um... Ew. But again that makes me laugh, that's just so asian I don't know what to say . OMG how WEIRD is it to see asians absolutely EVERYWHERE?! It was like that in Japan, people stare at you because you're white, it's really awkward. No updates at the moment, I kinda have to go... I have no idea about CatBird, I'll tell her to get in touch though. Facebook should work seeing as I have no credit.
RE:RE:RE: A Correspondence with Ms Wise 2008-03-07 04:29:06 RE: Hello again.From: missmilkSent: Thursday, 13 December 2007 12:52:19 AMTo: mswiseOh my.Crying?!Wise, darling! This isn't right.You know what I think he's doing? I think he's trying not to lead you on. I think he doesn't want to hurt you. I think he's a freaking moron. As if you're not going to be more hurt that you're being ignored. SDLAFKH FDLKJ DKL!!! Stupid, stupid, ignorant boy! I think you need to call him. Tell him to stop being such a headcase. Tell him you can see he's not ready for a romantic relationship so he should stop being a tool/headcase/stupid stupid moron and let you be friends with him, nothing more. And tell him he's being too negative. I know you can tell him without it sounding horrible. You can say that it's all in his head and his only problem is his negative
RE:RE: A Correspondence with Ms Wise 2008-03-07 03:29:20 Hello again.From: mswiseSent: Wednesday, 12 December 2007 9:50:26 PMTo: missmilkHey Milk!Update time again. How're you going? You done anything else interesting? Tried any more exotic desserts? Interesting asian food? No poisoning? All good? :)My update is less than entertaining. I'm doing something with TomOne tomorrow, not sure what. It'll probably be just watching a couple of movies we've been waiting to watch together FOREVER so that'll be nice. I'm really lookinbg forward to it in fact, he's much more fun than any of the other boys I've taken up with. *sigh*DRAMA UPDATE!!! Have fun if you have time to read this... It's mostly my mini-drama brought on by depression at the despicable person that my current would-be-boyfriend is:Tom2's getting to me . I haven't seen him on MSN recentl
Oh I laugh. 2008-03-05 04:13:40 "Who are the people the world takes seriously? All the dull people you can think of, from the Bishops down to the bores.""It is absurd to divide people into good and bad. People are either charming or tedious."- Oscar Wilde.Mathematical Methods CAS is very hard in Year 12. So, I got a tutor. He commented that the textbook my school uses is very hard, and asked whether I had to learn the theory - he was hoping that we could just solve the problems. I had to stop myself from screaming "It's Maths Methods, of course I have to know the theory! That's my problem!" But of course I didn't. I just gave a polite laugh and said that I have to know whatever the study design says I have to know. I am in despair.Oh, and by the way, I got a letter from (Bogany Outer Suburb) Magistrate's Court this after
Take my insides. Then get a meat grinder and - hey, have fun! 2008-02-22 03:29:59 The Lad and I went to his friend's house the other night. We had a really good time. For the first half of the night we interacted like good friends, talking and mucking around with each other and the rest of the group. As the night wore on, we went inside. He'd had a little bit to drink. We canoodled on the couch. He told me again and again that I was beautiful, that I was perfect, that this relationship was perfect and exactly what he wanted right now. "Right now... right at this very moment... I love you."I wasn't quite ready for that. I couldn't say I loved him back, it was much too soon for that. But he was right, the relationship as a whole was a very good one.My father picked me up at one in the morning. The Lad kissed me before we opened the front door for me to meet my Dad in the
An Introduction to "The Boy" 2008-02-20 05:29:04 I have a confession to make.After my break up with The Lad, the thing that upset me most was not that I'd miss him but that I thought I’d be cutting all ties with his friends. I quite like his friends, you see.Before I get to the point of this post, I would first like to clarify the fact that they all attend the same hugely prestigious private secondary boys' college, named the best school in Australia in 2001 based on how noteworthy its alumni go on to be. I really hope this isn't just my inner snob revealing itself, but I’ve found that I prefer the company of these boys to that of the majority of boys from the local Catholic boys school (renowned for its "muzza" culture) or any boy I’ve ever met from a public school. These boys are all either the sons of wealthy professionals or ar Read more:Introduction
"Sorry." 2008-02-20 03:51:57 I arrived at school this morning to the haunting sound of Aboriginal voices wailing to traditional music emnating from the loudspeakers. The Aboriginal flag flew from the school flagpole. After morning assembly our Year 12 Co-ordinator told us that we were free to go to the Library or Media Room if we wanted to watch Kevin Rudd apologise to the indigenous people of Australia on behalf of past governments. I was stoked that we were being given permission to watch the speech during class. As the apology is a contentious issue, I wasn't sure if the school was going to completely embrace it or show that they favour one side of the argument over the other. I was pleased no end to see that the school was obviously giving its full support to the sorry motion."We today take this first step by ackn
Hypothetical Trees and such things. 2008-02-08 20:07:10 "if a tree falls in the forest and there is no one around to hear it does it make a sound?" - more philosophical food for thought. :)A tree, eh? Well obviously it probably does, but then you're going to hit me with the: "AHA! BUT HOW DO YOU KNOW?" And I don't. How can I know? It's a hypothetical tree falling in a hypothetical forest. The point of the question is just to prove that nobody knows anything for sure unless they've seen (or heard) it themselves, and even then, who's to say your senses aren't playing tricks on you? So the question even kind of suggests that maybe nothing exists outside your own consciousness, which seems like a big deal at first but then you realise that even if that were the case, it doesn't change anything. Even if everything is a figment of my imagination I ca Read more:Trees
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Urrrrrrr. 2008-02-08 03:13:10 I did something stupid today.Earlier this week I went on camp with my new homeroom. It's supposed to be a very emotional, motivational, relaxing break before our 'big year', Year 12, DOOMSDAY. I had such a lovely time, but there was one point... We were talking about relationships. We had to fill in a worksheet with lines circling "ME" in the centre, and write names of those we knew in relation to how close they are to us. Then we sat as a group and talked about the relationships we'd plotted. I made the mistake of starting my explanation of my sheet with "Well, there's no one in my inner circle at the moment... any more..." Silly girl. As I think I've mentioned, Mrs R was running our camp. I ended up blurting out my sorry tale of lost friendship with Elissa - not mentioning her name, and
What to do, what a to do. 2008-02-01 02:38:05 So. The Lad is *insert suitable expletives here*. For a couple of days I was confused and frustrated that he would do something like what he did... but by all accounts he was far more devastated by it than I was. He sounded like he was about to cry on the phone. I could hear the shame in his voice when he told me what happened. A few of my friends had built an acquaintance with him bordering on friendship, and his best friend is a friend of mine. He told them what happened and how horrible he feels. I found out he didn't actually have sex with the girl, like I'd assumed. There was oral involved. That's all I know. I don't really want to know any more.He did a horrible thing, but I still believe that everything he said to me was true. I expect most people looking on would find it hard to be
My Religious Journey Part 4 (The Final Chapter) 2008-01-28 18:28:41 4. What do you understand to be the meaning of life? Do you believe in life after death? Why are we here? What is the point of life? How do you make sense of life?I believe that there doesn’t necessarily have to be a ‘meaning’ to life. Nevertheless, I’ve wondered about the question for as long as I can remember and while I’ve gone through periods where I thought the answer was probably love (mostly because that’s what everyone else seems to think) and then, somewhat cynically, 42, I’ve now decided that if there is an answer, and assuming that it is an answer that the living can comprehend, and it’s not connected to any religious ideology, it’s probably happiness. At least, that’s as close to an understanding of the meaning of life as I can get at this point. I don’t t Read more:Journey
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Pleasant Surprises (the best kind ♥) 2008-01-26 19:25:44 I know I said I wouldn't write much more about the Lad. Well... I lied.I think he deserves a mention after his immaculate behaviour today. We went to Camberwell and had brunch in a cafe. Once we'd sat down he began to pull something out of his bag. It was a present for me. I knew he'd bought me something, but I had no idea why or what it was. I'd expected a little trinket of some kind, maybe something funny, but this looked alarmingly big... He pulled out a great big hardcover book with the complete novels of the Brontë sisters. I nearly fell off my chair. How could he know that I'd love something like that? Why buy such an extravagant gift for no reason? I was baffled, but so pleased.We got down to the business of the meeting once the shock of his gift had worn off. I'd asked to see
Curry. 2008-01-19 02:18:04 "When you're crazy about curry, that's fine but no matter how much you love curry, you have too much of it, it takes the roof of your mouth off. And then you never want to see curry for a really, really long time but you wake up one day and you think... God, I really miss curry." Read more:Curry
Smiles and Conundrums 2008-01-18 06:16:32 Thanks for the responses, guys. I'm glad you enjoy reading my posts, even if they're often little more than rambling streams of thought.To Iron Pugilist, sorry I misinterpreted what you were trying to say. I think I just assumed - incorrectly - that your reservations about the e-mail were the same as mine. Please don't let that stop you from commenting - I appreciate your insight into what I write too much to let one misunderstanding get in the way, and even if my response wasn't relevant to what you were trying to get at it did lead me on to what I found to be an interesting tangent. No harm done. Having said that, I'll probably stop posting about The Lad so often. Everything's going too well to be interesting.Though there was one thing - we were eating dinner in a restaurant at Federati Read more:Smiles
My Religious Journey Part 3 2008-01-06 19:19:16 3. What are your responses to these great ‘religious’ questions: why does suffering exist? Why do we have to die? Why does God allow injustice to occur?I don’t think these questions have to have answers. Practically speaking, I think that out of everything that occurs there is a fairly even balance between suffering and happiness, and I’m inclined to think that it has a lot more to do with the probability of something good happening as opposed to something bad happening, rather than some divine interference creating evil in a good world, or vice versa. I think the effect that suffering has on people is probably just incidental. Perhaps suffering doesn’t have to happen, it just does. It also serves a valuable purpose – people wouldn’t function properly if they didn’t or coul Read more:Journey
Re: Shucks, and Teenage Sincerity 2007-12-30 23:16:09 Re: Shucks.Iron Pugilist said... Goodness, I hope you're not falling for that.Short answer? No, I'm not.Long answer? I'm not entirely, but... Why can't I? Every so often, a person comes across someone they like a great deal, someone they want to spend time with, someone they miss. Even teenage boys are capable of feeling something genuine, something a little bit more than lust, surely? I'm not saying that's definitely what he feels like, it likely isn't, but I'm not going to be 100% cynical and dismiss the possibility.The Lad called me the moment I got home from my trip Singapore and Malaysia (I will write about that, I think). In fact he called me on my mobile while I was still in the taxi from the airport. He wanted to see me that day, and he wanted me to come to a "gathering" he was hav
In far too deep now. :( 2008-03-17 06:06:13 Ginney says (9:35 PM):u now whatGinney says (9:36 PM):u have been the nice preson 2 me everMissMilk says (9:36 PM):i thought you said the girl in your display picture with you was the nicest person :SGinney says (9:36 PM):an i thank u 4 that'Ginney says (9:37 PM):that was in a flrting way u in a frinesih wayMissMilk says (9:37 PM):i'm not that niceMissMilk says (9:37 PM):i didn't do anything.Ginney says (9:38 PM):u didnt but u lisonGinney says (9:38 PM):any way i been nice an just sat thank uGinney says (9:39 PM):me got 2 go i talki 2 u soonMissMilk says (9:39 PM):okGinney says (9:39 PM):lover uOh God oh God oh God oh God.He's never said "love you" to me before. He doesn't say it to his other girl friends, I checked.I feel so bad. I'm not at all keen on this poor boy. I don't really believ
The Milky Antagonist 2008-03-22 00:21:33 Tell [Ginney] you're not interested and make your rejection fully understood, and do this as soon as possible. Simply by not responding to the last thing he typed, he has already assumed that you harbor a certain level of affection towards him (the "silence means yes" thing).Let this be a learning experience for him.How I wish I could.Ginney has never actually told me he likes me as anything more than a good friend. He would have me believe that he doesn't have any romantic feelings towards me at all - like he said in the MSN conversation, I'm nice to him "in a frinesih way". Unfortuantely, he's very transparent, and on top of that a mutual friend who's quite close to both of us told me what he told her. Apparently he told her that he really likes me (romantically) and when she asked him w
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